Well, sad to say; he has expressed quite clearly to you what his real feelings are: "fk off and get out."
He's clearly no longer interested in having a relationship with you.
It sucks, especially at this time of the year. But it is time for you to move on.
May I recommend a book to you?
You are an amazing person! You are intelligent, compassionate and caring, creative, inquisitive; gifted in so many ways. You have much potential to bring joy into peoples lives. Don't give up, and don't feel like you have to rush into things. Some things are definitely worth waiting for. I highly recommend you read this book: "A Man Worth Waiting For - How to Avoid Marrying a Bozo"