Dead serious: If you have the patience for it, check out Algebra I for Dummies on Amazon. I went from being unable to doing math to surviving my first year in a graduate-level STEM program in two years, and I started with that book. A disconcerting amount of upper-level math is just algebra but fancier, and often with some Greek letters for flavor (which can be weirdly demoralizing once you actually get what you're doing and understand how simple it all is and how much you psyched yourself out before learning it).
Aside from that, yes, check out YouTube tutorials. The trick is really to find what actually works for you. I gravitated towards text because it was easier to focus on and revisit and just plain make sense of, and the author does a fantastic job of not wasting time or overcomplicating things.
Also: Don't worry if you don't understand all of every kind of math. Focus on getting the extreme basics down and then focus on whatever specific type of math you actually like. In the real world (and in a lot of university settings), you'll have calculators and software programs to handle the rest.
Also, also: It helps to think of it as grammar. You don't make unfixable errors in math. You make typos. Just like you can backspace and fix a spelling error, you can backspace and fix a math error.
I don't count myself as having fully caught up yet, but I will die on the hill that Algebra, Calculus, and Statistics for Dummies are all solid and useful tools for closing the gap. You can also check out MIT's OpenCourseWare series on YouTube (and check out the actual OCW pages, like Topics in Mathematics with Applications in Finance). Wyzant, EMathHelp, and MathPapa have step-by-step calculators that let you see exactly how a problem breaks down, which can be really useful early on (this got me through the initial hurdle of solving for X; seriously, use one if you're not already).
It also might be a good idea to poke around at Python and Visual Code Studio. Reddit has lots of Python-related subs, including r/Python, r/pythontips, and r/learnpython.
Also: I started closing the math gap at around the same age you're at now. It gets insanely goddamn frustrating and is routinely very triggering whenever I realize (1) I'm actually pretty good at this stuff (re: at least as good as my peers who had public school/private school backgrounds), and (2) I'm still working at a steep disadvantage because of educational neglect and a lack of long-term guidance. There's no real easy way around those feelings; you just have to sit with the anger until it passes, then keep hitting the wall until it just becomes normal for you.
Some stuff that helps in general:
There's some more specific stuff in the next comment; this one was apparently too long for Reddit...
Sorry to dump a novel on ya, but I've been there and I hope this trims some time off your journey. You got this!