Welcome! I'm so glad you found us! And thanks for that sweet haiku! 💗
> A lot of times I feel like I was happier in just about every conceivable way before we made this decision. At the same time I love the baby so much that I feel like I’m going to explode because I don’t have room in my body for so much love. Feeling both of those things more or less at the same time is so confusing and I feel like a terrible person for thinking so often that I wish I hadn’t agreed to this.
You might be interested in All Joy and No Fun: The Paradox of Modern Parenthood by Jennifer Senior.
I wish I had better advice, but all of my kids have four feet and purr!
Welcome home!
hugs
This book would probably be an interesting read for you:
http://www.amazon.com/All-Joy-No-Fun-Parenthood/dp/0062072242