Not sure if you'll see this, but I have/had daddy issues too, with a nice sprinkle of abandonment and a few other things. I couldn't afford therapy either (after I got a few free sessions in college), but found a book by a therapist that helped me tremendously. It's called "Calling in the One" by Katherine Woodward Thomas. The title is super cheesy, and I admit, I originally got it because I desperately just wanted to find someone who loved me, but in all honesty, that book is as good as therapy.
I originally got the book and completed it back in 2016, but anytime my life goes upside down, or my daddy issues rear their ugly heads, I go back to doing the book front to back and new shit comes up, I learn the tools to deal with it, and life magically gets better.
It really isn't as much about finding/attracting "the one" but more about identifying what's holding you back from having good relationships (with friends, family and lovers) and addressing them, which has a positive ripple effect in all other areas of your life. Whenever I complete the book, it feels like I dumbed a million pounds of heavy weights off my shoulders and I feel light again, which I didn't think was possible the first time I completed it.
It usually takes me 3-6 months to complete the book, because I don't do it daily, just weekly and do a few lessons at a time, but it really is the best $15 I ever invested in myself (aside from a journal I could write in)
Hope you get better 🤍
This is a book I recommend to a lot of my friends. The overarching goal of the book is not so much about how to find a man but to learn to put your past behind you, start becoming the happy, strong woman you want to be, and opening yourself to receive love. The chapters are short and might not all be relevant to you, but if you've got a lot to work through I'd recommend doing it day by day and actually doing all the journaling/practices she recommends.
I'm really late in the game and there's some fantastic advice on here. However, what I can recommend to you OP is a book called "Calling in the One". The title is corny, it's geared towards women, and it sounds like a total sham (find love in 7 weeks) but it has done wonders for me and my sister. It has saved my sister from getting into a lifetime of abusive relationships and made me realize a lot about why I do certain things in my relationships. It's a fantastic book, you can get it on amazon, and if you hate it then feel free to chuck it to the curb.