No it is not. Here is the link so you know exactly what I am talking about. It is cheaper now than before. https://www.amazon.com/Carex-Day-Light-Bright-Light-Therapy/dp/B002WTCHLC
My whole family has mental health issues and my brother has diagnosed SAD (seasonal affective disorder) so that’s how I found out about this. I do not have that diagnosis but it helps me a lot anyway. Sometimes it’s so hard to do ANYTHING To pull me out of a funk. But turning on a light is pretty easy.
Coming from a quarantined and Covid-free apt, will leave outside door for contactless pickup. Normal sized desk lamp for scale. Same version sells for $99 new on Amazon. Carex Day-Light Sky Bright Light Therapy Lamp - 10,000 LUX - Sun Lamp To Combat Winter Blues and To Increase Your Energy https://www.amazon.com/dp/B002WTCHLC/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_glt_i_N2G4CRRAJRV483SNP5RW
https://www.amazon.com/Carex-Day-Light-Bright-Light-Therapy/dp/B002WTCHLC
Carex Day-Light Sky Bright Light Therapy Lamp - 10,000 LUX
I have two of these and swear by them for productivity and energy. The older one is CFL vs. LCD. I like both but I think the CFL one might be a little more effective because it leaks a little UV ... I've noticed some color on my skin sitting under it (working on my laptop) for a long time. If you can get one of the old CFL ones, you must open it to remove plastic rubber bands holding the bulbs before you turn it on! Found this in the reviews on Amazon and it's in fine print in the detections. They switched to led in the new ones and that still works great I think and no need to open it if you get that one. The instructions will tell you which you got. Anyway, highly recommended
I used one like this one for months and I found it helpful. Found a used one for much less on eBay.
The tilting & pivoting head makes it a handy task light. You need to be able to sit very close to the light. There are claims that having it hit at an angle from above is better.
I presume the odd sleep schedule arose as a part of having PLE? That sounds like a very serious condition.
Actually, I have an idea for you that is a bit... unconventional.
Are you familiar with Low Level Laser Therapy? It's where you apply a very low-frequency (around 800-850 nanometer) laser or [LED array] to the different regions of your skull. There are actually some studies I could look for later showing that it influences cytochrome oxidase, among other things, and can be very stimulating to the brain. In fact, it can be so stimulating so you'd want to do a 30-minute session only every other day or two days on, one day off.
I've experimented with this treatment personally, and I haven't made up my mind about it, but not because there isn't an effect: I've just found it to be unpredictable in duration, and there is definitely a crash afterwards: sometimes I'd be wired while I tried to sleep, other times I'd crash in the middle of an important study session. It can really change my mental energy level, though.
Really, though, the Sun is a big deal... sort of responsible for almost all life on earth continuing to get needed sustenance. Missing out on it is also a big deal.
I think this treatment might be uniquely suited to someone like you, who can't reap the many benefits of sun exposure, which can go well beyond mere Vitamin D synthesis. Keep in mind a lot of these arrays require some form of adapter (also easily purchased off of amazon); be sure to check the details/comments about that, or see what customers who purchased also purchased with etc.
You also might want to look into a Seasonal Affectedness Disorder Therapy Lamp that you could use to more naturally adjust your circadean rhythms.
Glutathione (liposomal Setria).
St. John's Wort.
Omega 3 fish oil.
Multivitamin (possibly augment with extra Vitamin D).
Possibly a light-therapy lamp if your symptoms get worse in the winter. That specific model was used by researchers and is proven to make a difference in bipolar depression/seasonal affective disorder symptoms.
A clean diet (heavy on vegetables). Almonds, almond milk, cheerios, salads, marinated chicken breast (you can do it 8+ different ways easy), frozen broccoli (ready in 5 minutes, way easier than fresh and retains more Vitamin C because it wasn't exposed to oxygen), sweet potatoes wrapped in a paper towel and microwaved for 8 minutes. Build up an anti-inflammatory diet for yourself.
Working out. And by that I mean literally one set of 25-50 flutter kicks per day. That's it. Once. Watch how good it makes you feel.
Talking to a therapist weekly if you can afford it; twice a week if possible (Monday and Thursday for example).
(Don't roll your eyes at this one) Getting into comedy movies/stand up specials/comedy series's. Comedy has a proven anti-depressant effect. I recommend Peep Show or Southpark, maybe Family Guy, American Dad, Futurama, etc... Peep Show is my favorite of all time. When I'm at my absolute saddest I watch Peep Show. Anecdotally, I had a friend on my second deployment to Iraq whose GF dumped him. This guy was in the shitter emotionally, I mean bad, he could barely even move and just laid in his bunk staring off into space (especially bad because he was an NCO and could not show weakness in front of lower ranking guys, no matter what, but he was). I didn't know what else to do so I gave him my pirated South Park collection of like the first 12 seasons, and told him to get it back to me whenever he wanted. He gave it back to me like 4 days later and said "Thanks dude..." And I was like "Yeah man, no problem." And he said "No, thanks! You just saved my fucking life." I know I know, "then everybody clapped" but I don't give a flying fuck if anybody believes me other than you because it's real and it happened. I thought hard about putting that anecdote in here because I know nobody will believe it but that's fine with me fuck those people, I'm doing my best to help you and that means being honest no matter who laughs at me.
Finding meaning in life through religion, or (as in my case) philosophy (I'm agnostic big picture), especially ethics (deworming a child of schistosomiasis for one month only costs .50 cents, and a long-lasting insecticide net to prevent malaria for a family of four only costs $2.12. I structure my life around donating).
Treatment resistant depression can be tough. Frankly, I recommend you see a new psychiatrist. Google "treatment resistant depression" and look at your options. Maybe try to find a specialist in TMS.
(I don't mean this in a condescending way, but) Adding more gratitude to your life (eg: okay, I'm ugly (probably not true, or not as bad as you think) and poor and dumb (probably not true, or not as bad as you think) and my dog just died, but at least I didn't die an excruciatingly painful death at age 9 in the Congo.)
Frankly, I don't see you curing your treatment resistant depression with any nootropic stack.
I have bipolar disorder and the depressive phases are so terrible that I'm literally haunted by horrible delusions of how my whole family hates me and I'm going to be arrested any second because I never paid that toll booth fine from 2 years ago and I should just kill myself to spare my family the shame and I'm wasting my entire life and potential and I'm a textbook failure etc... Hearing the voice of a woman crying (hallucination) and knowing it's because I'm a failure, seeing weird shit in my peripheral vision that isn't there and thinking I'm going crazy, but still having enough insight to know it's from the bipolar disorder and knowing I'll never get better and even if I do I will be senile at age 60 from the medication because I can already feel it happening, etc... So I know what you're going through.
Personally, I only use a multivitamin, glutathione, talk therapy, a clean diet, some exercise, my code of ethics (gives me meaning), my cat (prevents me from getting lonely), and my psychiatrist's medication/ideas. I still crash hard at least once a year for 3 months in the Fall/Winter time (I will be trying my new light therapy lamp soon) but in all honesty that ain't too bad for bipolar disorder. I have not used St. John's Wort but I know it helped a friend of mine. I no longer use fish oil because it's too expensive. TBH the glutathione is fucking incredible for me. Absolutely amazing. That and the multivitamin are absolutely essential. I literally feel like I'm dying without them (and not from a place of anxiety, but feeling drained and having no energy, drained from my core, from inside my cells). Anyway.
Best of luck fam.
I've used this light for several years now, and I feel like it helps me quite a bit on the darker days. I've tried several others, and that one has been my favorite so far.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Light_therapy#Seasonal_affective_disorder
Here's the one that I use There are cheaper options, though you want to make sure it's 15 degrees above eye level and around 10,000 LUX. That can be difficult to meet with smaller, cheaper models.
In the long run, they are cheaper than antidepressants and perhaps more natural.