Sucks for you OP. As far as specialized doctors go I would look into the amen clinics www.amenclinics.com he has written a couple books that are really good. He uses SPECT brain scans to detect areas that have low levels of blood flow and can make various diagnoses and treatments specialized to you. I also suggest picking up one of his books http://www.amazon.com/Change-Your-Brain-Life-Obsessiveness/dp/0812929985
I've just read a book you might find useful, called Change your Brain, Change Your Life. The doctor who wrote it does scans of a working brain, which show the parts of the brain that are actually working (as opposed to MRI scans that just show the brain structure). He found that overactivity in specific parts of the brain will cause specific behavior problems for the person--e.g. if the cingulate area is wildly overactive, the person will have trouble with anxiety and difficulty switching his attention (getting "stuck" on thoughts).
He has strategies to help alleviate problems related to specific areas of brain overactivity, but I think the biggest benefit of this book is that he shows that these problems aren't just someone being lazy, or obsessive, or whatever, and that the problem is something specific that can be addressed.
Anyway, I hope you can find some respite from your brain. I'm glad you have friends who accept you.
Hi and yes, it totally cured it. I think it's relevant to say that I'm also working on my self esteem, eat better and do some sport. But I do think nofapping was the main factor that cured my problems.
This is what used to happen when addicted to PMO:
I eventually would ignore that feeling, only to have it back after some minutes and finally go back home, normally sad & depressed.
So yeah, nofap had changed that. I don't feel weird around people and I don't have urges to come back home anymore. A good reinforcement for this effect is to work on your self esteem, eat better, live in a clean environment (clean your room daily) and do some sport. It frigging changed my life.
If you need any tips either with nofapping, eating & sport or working on your self esteem, I'll be glad to help.
Here's some other things that helped me immensely to improve:
Understand ANTS (automatic negative thoughts) and learn what they are and how to deal with them -> From a book titled "Change your brain, change your life".
Understand why did I have a low self esteem and felt depressed:
a) abusive and neglect father caused me chilhood trauma b) relating with toxic people c) bad habits: addiction to porn, THC, videogames d) learning a bit about the alpha male stuff (book "No More Mr Nice Guy, some Carlos Xuma audiobooks). I think PUA and alpha male stuff tend to become too unscientific and too much of a jerk show, but I still think some of the stuff there can actually improve your self esteem. e) I was letting anybody to step into my shoes, and didn't have any boundaries. I've set some personal boundaries and won't let ANYBODY to trespass them. d) Stick to my plans: even the silliest daily routines. I used to say: I want to do this, or stop doing that. Now I just do it. And it feels great.
Some helpful links that worked for me:
http://www.amazon.com/Change-Your-Brain-Life-Obsessiveness/dp/0812929985
http://www.casapalmera.com/articles/7-ways-to-heal-your-childhood-trauma/
http://www.peopleskillsdecoded.com/how-to-deal-with-toxic-people/