You are not questioning shit. You have to gain an adequate understanding of shit in order to question it, which you clearly lack. Here, for the 3rd time and with a suggestion: https://www.amazon.com/Death-Black-Hole-Cosmic-Quandaries-ebook/dp/B000XPPVCY/ref=mp_s_a_1_1?crid=3K002LY62Y38D&keywords=death+by+black+hole&qid=1655858470&sprefix=death+by+black+hil%2Caps%2C183&sr=8-1
Death By Black Hole by Neil deGrasse Tyson is a fun and easy read.
The Rape of Nanking is one of the best non fiction books I've ever read in how important, eye-opening and heart wrenching it is. Just know that Iris Chang, the author, was so disturbed by what she had learned and researched, that she killed herself shortly after writing the book.
*There are, obviously, countless great non-fiction books, these are just two I recently read on my Kindle.