There is a spontaneous intuition that points to the technique describe among other in the following book.
As for me, yes i know tightness in the solarplexus area alot. Yet for me it is in everyday live when i am guided by worries.
In Meditation it is not there. Maybe because for me it is just simple: "sit straight; close eyes; observe breath" and no other scanning techniques.
All the Best for your ways.
I would recommend you check out this book at the nearest library, using interlibrary loan if need be. Then follow the instructions set forth in the book to 'feed your demons.' We can help with methods or ideas, but the work must come from you. You have every reason to want to emerge on the other side of this as the most Zen collapsenik evah. You could be a blessing to thousands and thousands of people if you figure out how to do this. Good luck. PS you could always pretend you are on mushrooms while you do the exercises in the book. https://www.amazon.com.au/Feeding-Your-Demons-Resolving-Conflict/dp/0316013137
Thanks for sharing all of this! It is definitely a process of restructuring the ego.
Also, thank you for mentioning that book “Feeding Your Demons: Ancient Wisdom for Resolving Inner Conflict”. I was looking for this but I forgot the title and who wrote it lol.
Feeding Your Demons by Lama Tsultrim Allione and there is a good practice called The Corridor in Aiden Wachter's second book called Weaving Fate.
I will also second IFS as a helpful approach.
Haven’t read it but it looks good: Feeding Your Demons…
If it feels natural, and you both are aware of the best and worst traits without trying to hide them, that that's great.
The kind of stuff I was describing are more like ... pathologies in unhealthy relationships.
There's a practice I suggest to empaths who aspire to be healers. It is called Demon Feeding. The first half of the practice is a great exercise in being able to discern exactly what kind of energy signature, some aspect of someone really needs.
Just like you can hear someone say something, and their body language says something else, there is often an underlying energy that may say something else all together.
Likewise, when someone wants something, there are sometimes an underlying need that is different from what they say they want. Then, there is asking how someone would feel after they get what they need. That resulting feeling is the true experience of what they are really seeking.
In the first half of demon feeding, you tune into specific sensations, and then ask it to personify. Then you ask those questions. Then you trade places -- this is an exercise in empathy -- and ask those questions again. (This takes someone even deeper). In that last part, that resulting experiencing that they seek is the energy signature that, when fed in a certain way, can dissolve this.
Most people have some disconnect with what they really need. They tend to seek out the surface want, not knowing that it is driven by something deeper. However, just because they are not consciously aware of those deeper drives, does not mean it is not active. This is where it starts distorting relationships. It will feel like a form of attraction, but it is not -- more like hunger, obsession, and so forth.
If you are interested in this practice, you can find the outline here:
https://www.lionsroar.com/how-to-practice-feeding-your-demons/
The full book is here:
https://www.amazon.com/Feeding-Your-Demons-Resolving-Conflict/dp/0316013137
There is also an audio workshop for that, on Amazon somewhere. (It might be the audiobook).
If you like that kind of stuff, Tsultrim Allione also has an interesting book called Wisdom Rising ... I haven't read or practiced it yet, though I did hear an interview with her where she talks a bit about it. It is a mandala practice accessing the five elemental Daikini in the Tibetan Vajrayana way, and can give access to tremendous amount of energy. She made it available because she saw a number of female activists coming out in the past several years, and wanted to contribute something so that can tap into the power to make these changes in our society.
You may also consider giving this a listen, or buy the book.
https://www.amazon.com/Feeding-Your-Demons-Resolving-Conflict/dp/0316013137
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aEbJ_maF_fo
A short description:
"Tsultrim Allione brings an eleventh-century Tibetan woman's practice to the West for the first time with FEEDING YOUR DEMONS, an accessible and effective approach for dealing with negative emotions, fears, illness, and self-defeating patterns. Allione-one of only a few female Buddhist leaders in this country and comparable in American religious life to Pema Chodron-bridges this ancient Eastern practice with today's Western psyche. She explains that if we fight our demons, they only grow stronger. But if we feed them, nurture them, we can free ourselves from the battle. Through the clearly articulated practice outlined in FEEDING YOUR DEMONS, we can learn to overcome any obstacle and achieve freedom and inner peace." -- From amazon Review
Okay, I hope everything goes more smoothly for you soon.
I keep running into obstacles myself. Now that I'm getting over the mental obstacles, I'm old enough to be hitting the physical obstacles of growing older.
Do you think I should delete this thread? It doesn't seem to be generating any advice from anyone who knows about such an idea as "archons" in Buddhism and I'm not sure the idea has helped you any...what do you think? Did it give you a clear idea to work with or did it just make your worst fears about the situation even worse?
In my opinion, a healthy attitude toward such things is found in Aristotle's quote: >It is the mark of an educated mind to be able to entertain a thought without accepting it.
In other words, if it is useful to us and we can not prove otherwise, we can act as if we are facing obstacles from such beings in order that we can work with that idea in some positive way. One benefit I can see right away is that it frames the predicament in such a way that it motivates us to practice and we can stop feeling guilty for falling into such ruts by realizing it is not your choosing. Even if it were to turn out there are no such beings, it is clearly not your choosing to feel this way, so it is accurate enough to frame it this way.
If this seems 'crazy' to anyone, keep in mind we personify things quite a lot in daily life without even thinking about it. We personify our cars when they won't start, for example. We really give "old Bessy" a feeling of hope and faith and love on a cold winter morning when we pump the gas pedal just right and gingerly turn the key in the ignition. She starts and we cheer for old Bessy. Then, we promptly shift out of "crazy" mode and into sensible thinking again. But, when old Bessy doesn't start, we are profoundly disappointed and sad...and not just because we will be late for work and see an auto mechanic bill in the near future. When the car fails to start, before we dissolve the idea of old Bessy as a living car with feelings, we feel flashes of disappointment that she let us down, sadness that she is dying and empathy for that old car that served us well for so many years and maybe even a tinge of guilt for being angry at her for not starting.
It might be beneficial for you to check out the <em>Feeding Your Demons</em> book. I'm not sure. I checked it out but decided it wasn't for me.
I did read <em>Uncle Ramsey's Little Book of Demons</em> and found it fairly entertaining and informative. It's not a Buddhist book, but if you could relate to the idea of "old Bessy" it might interest you.