Well normal is sort of subjective, but I can tell you you're not alone if that helps? Everyone's experience is unique to their own journey, healing, and process (including how open one is to trusting it or resisting it). I recommend looking into [this book][https://www.amazon.com/dp/B00DW7VLS8/ref=cm_sw_r_apan_glt_6A5NJZ35ATXF3KMK9FTB] for spiritual symptoms and take whatever resonates leave what doesn't. That goes for anything though (leaving what doesn't resonate, including my response).