>Also, after the Kybalion where do I go?
For sure check out the actual texts of historical Hermeticism. As the other poster ITT noted, The Kybalion is a New Thought book published in 1908 and not directly connected to Hermeticism. The best source material to read is the Corpus Hermeticm.
It’s partial, utilize but don’t treat it as direct doctrine, this isn’t church. Get this book. and then get every book cited in it, study it until it hurts.
Generally speaking yes it is, but it's not as central as you might think. If I remember correctly the only genuinely Hermetic text it occurs in is the so-called 'Emerald Tablet', which is a late text as far as Hermetica goes.
For real Hermeticism, this is the text:
https://www.amazon.co.uk/Hermetica-Hermeticum-Asclepius-Translation-Introduction/dp/0521425433
Hermetics started with a Greek book called the Hermetica. You can find it with different amounts of scholarly commentary attached.
Kabbalah starts with the Jewish “Zohar”, and the same as Hermetica, there’s tons of scholarly commentary to be found on it.
Here’s links to the best versions of both (although I wouldn’t recommend actually buying this edition of Zohar unless you’re a collector, as it is 12 volumes— also there is probably a newer edition of the Hermetica done by the same people, I just know this one by its cover):
Hermetica https://www.amazon.com/dp/0521425433/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_i_O9cAFbPJKBFTQ
The Zohar: Pritzker Edition, Vol. 1 https://www.amazon.com/dp/0804747474/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_i_p.cAFbF70XV9V
I have this edition, but interestingly, it seems to lack "Hermes Trismegistus, His First Book". The Copenhaver edition begins with "(Discourse) of Hermes Trismegistus: Poimandres". The edition which includes The First Book is called "The Divine Pymander". Both of these can be bought on Amazon.
"The Divine Pymander"
https://www.amazon.com/exec/obidos/ASIN/B002ECE6GQ/internetsacredte
"Hermetica"
(Copenhaver Translation)
https://www.amazon.com/Hermetica-Hermeticum-Asclepius-Translation-Introduction-dp-0521425433/dp/0521425433/ref=mt_paperback?_encoding=UTF8&me=&qid=1537562450
If you're interested in physical scholarly editions, then your best bet is <em>Hermetica: The Greek Corpus Hermeticum and the Latin Asclepius in a New English Translation</em>, by Brian P. Copenhaver. The translations by Clement Salaman are cheaper and also highly regarded.
The Hermetica II contains the Hermtic writings that aren't included in the original Copenhaver Hermetica.
Weird... I coulda sworn I linked it last night but there ya are!!
OP forgive me but this seems silly...
Take me for example: I firmly believe in a “simulation”. And I say simulation lightly because i dont think were in a computer server, rather inside something that we literally cannot comprehend. One dude said it best up top: this shit is a video game man.
Do you like video games? Even if you see me as an NPC, boil it down to simplicity.
If this is a sim, when you die youll be in what you call your “real body” right? No matter what happens, you will be back to your body after this...
So why not make the coolest fucking video game ever? Im talking ZERO fucks about almost everything. Look, you seem DEEPLY rooted into this idea as a form of detachment from reality. So rooted that any logic someone says you shoot down with being an NPC, but you forgot about free will. YOU can still do whatever the fuck you please, and IF i was an NPC, why the fuck would it matter? I think my advice is solid; living with zero fucks, even not giving a fuck about death, is a much more fun and MUCH more educational. After some time youll know what I mean... because I do this on a daily basis. Just live man.
If you still dont want to listen to anything im saying, know this:
You are not capable of understand your “real” body or its thoughts yes? So you cannot be the one to make a decision on leaving when YOU (here in this reality) are not the one who made the choice to enter in the first place.
How fucking mad would you be if you woke up in your real body, only to realize you had a specific mission, and because you offed yourself you have to go back in?!?
Id be mad AS FUCK. Hell, I can’t even play 2 long nazi zombie matches back to back, LET ALONE this fuckery.
Edit: it sounds like youre ready for a book ive been reading... I really hope this doesnt push you FURTHER down the hole, but rather gives meaning to this one. Corpus Hermetica
EDIT2: LMAO BRO THESE FUCKING BOTS, YOURE TELLING ME THIS ISNT FUNNY JUST CAUSE ITS A SIM?!?😂😂😭
This is the translation I'm currently reading, it is really well done: https://www.amazon.com/Hermetica-Hermeticum-Asclepius-Translation-Introduction/dp/0521425433
This is the translation I'm currently reading, it is really well done: https://www.amazon.com/Hermetica-Hermeticum-Asclepius-Translation-Introduction/dp/0521425433
It's included here, along with many other discourses. I highly recommend it :)