Thank you so much for posting! I've been pondering similar questions, from a different angle, but coming to similar conclusions. Lately, there seems to be a movement towards relying on politicians and laws to bring about God's Will, and this seems like a very confused approach.
I don't think God intended Christians to wield power like a sword to the head, visibly strong and ascendant, but rather like a persistent whisper to the heart: Easily dismissed at first, until the truth of it inundates the listener and they begin to listen to the other holy whispers - the whispers brought to them by the Holy Spirit, the quiet voice of God.
Thank you for the reading suggestion. I found a link to it on Amazon: https://www.amazon.com/dp/1586170295/
Hey there, sorry for the delayed reply: I couldn't see your response until now for some reason. Bishop Barron is great, but the best introduction to Catholicism would be Ratzinger's Introduction to Christianity: https://www.amazon.com/Introduction-Christianity-2nd-Communio-Books/dp/1586170295. Ratzinger is a genius and I can't think of a better introduction than his.
How about a book? Introduction to Christianity
Read the Introduction to Christianity by Joseph Ratzinger and the four interviews his biographer Peter Seewald did with him, both as Prefect of the Sacred Congregation for the Doctrine of the Faith and later on as Pope Benedict XVI: Salt of the Earth, God and the World, Light of the World and Last Testament.
The interviews will give you an introduction to the Church from a very unique perspective.
You may be interested in Rene Girard's mimetic theory, and how the sacrifice of Jesus satisfies the violence that mimetic desire ultimately brings to communities. In this way, Girard argues, Jesus is superior to the myths of conflict resolution that came before, because he invites us to imitate God, who is free from all desire. Through Jesus, we can end our attachment to desire, and bring about peace.
"I See Satan Fall Like Lightning" is a helpful resource here. It's in PDF here.
EDIT: You may also be interested in Introduction to Christianity. Ratzinger makes some very compelling arguments about Jesus, including the idea that Jesus is quite literally a Greek persona or a mask through which we can see and emulate God.