Sounds like the kind of bad day I've been having. Deep breath, small glass of wine and a pillow to punch helps. Chocolate too. Maybe this could help https://www.amazon.com/Melissa-Leapmans-Indispensable-Collection-Crocheters/dp/1589239296/ref=sr_1_3?dchild=1&keywords=charted+crochet+patterns&qid=1606490234&sr=8-3 I don't usually recommend Amazon but in this time it is the easiest way to get something.
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