Thanks. I would say though that I am in no way anti-Islam and still accept Islam as a true revelation and Muhammad (saws) as a Prophet.
Not much has changed for me really in some ways, others a lot. I can't really expect anyone else to understand my position actually but a book I really resonate with which is my position also is Pilgrims of Christ on the Muslim Road: Exploring a New Path Between Two Faiths by Paul-Gordon Chandler
It's about the Syrian novelist Mazhar Mallouhi who also identifies in the same way now as a Christian who does not reject Islam.
OP, I'd recommend this book for you. It tells the story of Syrian novelist Mazhar Mallouhi. He believes he had an encounter with the resurrected Jesus, and yet never felt the need to leave Islam entirely. To this day, I believe he considers himself a sufi and carries tasbih with him.
https://www.amazon.com/Pilgrims-Christ-Muslim-Road-Exploring/dp/074256603X