Hey Don, your enthusiasm is infectious. The part of your video where you describe a perfect joy beyond a perfect joy and how love is not the end all, be all because there’s more... I recommend another series of books about that.
It starts with Power Vs. Force, but the author wrote something like 14 books before his death. He uses a chart wherein the realm of the spirit begins at love, then goes to joy, then peace, then what is merely described as “ineffable”, or the higher levels of enlightenment such as the Buddha experienced. Another great read. You seem to have your hands full, but this is another set of indescribably useful books, the likes of which one rarely sees.
You had what is a called a "high experience". It is basically a glimpse into a higher level of consciousness than what you are currently at in normal life. The experience has left you changed positively, because it was the result of surrendering negative attachments, but not at the peak of the level you experienced. In short, if you want to get to that level permanently, you have to do much more spiritual work and surrender more attachments. I myself have had two high experiences, different than yours but both having a profound impact on my life.
There is indeed a person who has mapped out everything regarding what you just experienced. He was an actual enlightened person in modern times named David Hawkins, who wrote many books guiding the readers to enlightenment. If you are interested, I recommend you start by reading his first book, Power Vs Force.
There is a book you might find interesting, Power vs Force by Dr. David Hawkings.
https://www.amazon.com/Power-Force-David-Hawkins-M-D/dp/1401945074
Explores this exact phenomenon.
God Consciousness is simply Stillness - removal from the Human Experience and Isolation of the Consciousness. This is best done through Meditation or Yoga, Fasting, Ritual Exercise (Mecca Pilgrimage) and other means can work, but for the average human, just learn to Meditate or do Yoga. Kriya Yoga is perfectly adapted to the Westerner if you have an Ashram/Studio near you - but it's a full initiation/spiritual experience with a guru as well.
Meditation's goal is to reach the state of Samadhi, that is how we can make everything quiet enough to 'Meet God'. Thought, God is a Concept of Consciousness, not really a true thing/being. But also a true thing/being as it's conscious. God is Everything; literally. It's hard to explain until felt.
What are you trying to accomplish through Meditation? Basically Micro-Bursts of Samadhi until it's a sustainable level of Consciousness - but that is hard as that is Essentially a full Awakening/Enlightenment. Many won't reach this state much longer than they meditate.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bw9zSMsKcwk&t=2061s
How do you meditate?
The First 5-6 Minutes of this Guided Meditation are a perfect explanation of Meditation and what you are attempting to do. That is literally the basic technique and aim, after that you can choose to use guided meditations or not. I do not, an have admittedly never gone further than the first 5 minutes or so of that video. I have a loud household so I meditate with isolating headphones on and the tiniest audible volume of 432 hz nature sounds.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oZGqaDSOYxI&t=10s
How do we Let Go?
We must learn to step out of Force and into Power, then we must learn to Surrender to maintain that state. One can't be in a powerful God Like state while trying to keep up with the Jones's Patio Furniture, self conscious about their looks, or insecure about their wealth. Why? Those are all Fear State, god operates in Love. So if you are experiencing/doing something out of Fear, and it is not to physically save/help yourself or another, it's likely mis-aligned. So we must learn to Let Go of most material thoughts and possessions in time to reach higher and higher state of Conscious.
It is important to note Letting Go doesn't mean you Don't Have; quite the opposite it means you are so secure in what you do have and sure that what you need will come to you that you will always have.
You can literally have access to something (a PC) but have Let it Go (No emotional attachment, the PC is here now, if tomorrow it blows up that is fine and I can get a new one. Maybe worse because I have less money but that's okay). And a PC is just a tool, so if it enables ones problems of Video Game or Porn Addiction for example, there's some Aspects of the PC to Let Go. But you still have to use it for work, and school, and practical applications. So it's best to keep the tool and not throw the baby out with the bath water.
OP you'd enjoy this:
Your "Blamer" vs "Responsible" would be below / above level 200 in that chart
Adapted from this book:
https://www.amazon.com/Power-Force-David-Hawkins-M-D/dp/1401945074
Read this, will help:
https://www.amazon.com/Power-Force-David-Hawkins-M-D/dp/1401945074
You can replace pandemic with lots of things.
Climate change, homelessness, poverty.
We have the tools to fight all of those and win, and honestly with an increase in the quality of life of all human beings.
The vast majority of human beings are self-destructive. (85%, give or take).
More info here: https://www.amazon.com/Power-Force-David-Hawkins-M-D/dp/1401945074
Yes.
85% of the world's population is below the level of truth/integrity (200).
https://i.ytimg.com/vi/zm4QY59i0n4/maxresdefault.jpg
People aren't even optimistic about life until level 310.
(the reason the world doesn't implode is that the scale is logarithmic. One person above level 500 counterbalances the negativity of 750,000 people. Individual personal development has a MASSIVE impact!)
https://www.amazon.com/Power-Force-David-Hawkins-M-D/dp/1401945074
It's not just browns fans. It's humans.
And you're right. It is a disease. (its called the ego).
85% of the world's population calibrates below the level of positivity (truth). Those people are constantly negative and self-destructive as a way of life.
(From here: https://www.amazon.com/Power-Force-David-Hawkins-M-D/dp/1401945074)
You are a seeker!
You are interested in Psych because you are interested in the self.
Psych is a bridge to spiritual study (they both study the self).
Here's some good ones:
If you only read one make it this one:https://www.amazon.com/Power-Force-David-Hawkins-M-D/dp/1401945074
A bunch of others:
* https://www.amazon.com/Self-Illusion-Social-Creates-Identity/dp/0199988781
* https://www.amazon.com/Way-Zen-Alan-W-Watts/dp/0375705104
* https://www.amazon.com/Zen-Teaching-Huang-Po-Transmission/dp/0802150926
* https://www.amazon.com/Becoming-Alchemist-Guide-Modern-Magician/dp/1590306872
https://www.amazon.com/Sophia-Code-Living-Transmission-Dragon/dp/0997935502/ref=sr_1_2?crid=U4MLHF1NILZB&dchild=1&keywords=the+sophia+code+by+kaia+ra&qid=1602134437&s=books&sprefix=the+sophia+code%2Cstripbooks%2C175&sr=1-2 <--- this one is super great if you are female or identify as a woman
These are ordered in the order that I read them along my path (over the last 3-5 years). The later ones have a little more OMPH to them in terms of spiritual power... but the earlier ones may be more powerful for you depending where you are on your spiritual path (each book came into my life as i needed to read it kind of thing).
Power V Force was somewhere in the middle, but its the foundation of my understanding of spiritual development and is THE bridge between psychology and spirituality (Man who wrote it was an enlightened bodhisattva and a clinical psychologist).
If you finish Power vs Force and you test and self calibrated above the level of willingness, then read this book: https://www.amazon.com/Course-Love-Combined-Mari-Perron/dp/158469503X. If you don't do some spiritual work and then come back to it (You need to be at the level of willingness for this book to work at all -- if you are above level 500 it can bring you above lvl 600. the levels will make sense if you read PvF.)
Also side recommendation if you are interested in astrology cannot recommend enough Cosmos and Psyche https://www.amazon.com/Cosmos-Psyche-Intimations-World-View/dp/0452288592 -- really goes into the idea of how we view ourselves in this time period is DIFFERENT than other time periods. That our world-view and view-of-self is different than in other time periods, which was pretty massive or my awakening. (the recognition that the way I think about myself is not a fact but is instead a result of conditioning).
I originally got that revelation from this book: https://www.amazon.com/Constructing-Self-America-Cultural-Psychotherapy/dp/0201441926 which I don't think I've ever recommended to anyone because you basically have to be a huge psych nerd and love reading to enjoy it... but since you were getting a major in psychology you might actually enjoy it too lol. :) (I loooove it... its just long and dense).
I think that's all i got.
(also try ayahausca when you can save up the money to make a trip to Peru or Costa Rica).
I think you'd really enjoy Power vs Force by David Hawkins:
https://www.amazon.com/Power-Force-David-Hawkins-M-D/dp/1401945074
He's a Bodhisattva (a kind of enlightened being) and a Clinical Psychologist. There's a tool in the that allows you to know whether any question you ask is true or false. (Crazy right?). Can verify first hand it works. There's also a "Map of Consciousness" that will show you where you are on your spiritual path. Super handy.
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>The issue with spirituality is that it is REALLY hard to get good information because to an outsider, to a beginner, there just isn't any way to know what is or isn't true.
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There is:
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https://www.amazon.com/Power-Force-David-Hawkins-M-D/dp/1401945074
:)
Most human beings are delusional and self-sabotaging. They can't support themselves much less you.
Read this: https://www.amazon.com/Power-Force-David-Hawkins-M-D/dp/1401945074. You're looking for people who are Willing, which is roughly only 10% of the worlds population.
P.S. What you're looking for is an incubator.
P.P.S. Ignore most of the people in this thread. You're beautiful kid. Keep your head up and follow your heart.
Love is much more powerful than hate. Here is a link to an awesome book that goes into much detail called Power VS. Force. It explains the power behind love and the people in history such as Ghandi, Martin Luther King, Jesus, etc. that put this power to great use. Power VS Force has changed my family's life for the better.
Read the book. :)
https://www.amazon.com/Power-Force-David-Hawkins-M-D/dp/1401945074
Hawkins work is the foundation of my spirituality (and I'm actually pretty high, like 618 as of my last self-test).
You can discover his testing method in the book as well.