the new book by russell brand is really good. takes you through the 12 steps. it's helping me tremendously. https://www.amazon.com/Recovery-Freedom-Addictions-Russell-Brand-ebook/dp/B06W5P7384/ref=sr_1_6?ie=UTF8&qid=1523470708&sr=8-6&keywords=addiction
I recommend this
https://smile.amazon.com/gp/product/B06W5P7384/
Russell Brand talks about a non-Godly 12 step program and puts it in terms that are easy to understand and of course funny in a dark and "been to rock bottom" kind of way.
He was addicted to a lot of stuff and got clean.
I was reading this a couple of days ago before I had a nerve ablation on my spine (L3-L5, bilateral) for pain. It definitely resonated with me, as does a great many comments in this thread.
5 days can become 6. There's a line back there between the previous and the current you. It's going to be the hardest thing ever to not stagger back over the line and say "I'm Home". But you know you're not. It's the worst kind of prison because it feels so free. But you do have the strength to get through to day 6, or 7, or 700. Because you made it through 5 days.
I don't know you personally but I feel like I've lived you and met you a million times over. I can do it. So can you.
Also, if you're in the mood for a book, I'd pick up Recovery by Russell Brand.
He's listed out The Program for free on his website. I found the book tremendously helpful...almost a 12 and 12 written for today's society.