If you're using it as a coping mechanism, you need to replace it with a new coping mechanism. CBT can be really helpful. There are some workbooks available for you to go through on your own (if you don't have access to a therapist), this one is on amazon
I wonder if you and your husband would be interested in doing something together.
Go to Amazon (or your favorite book site) and search for: binge eating disorder workbook
and look through the results and see what might be a good fit for you. Buy two copies -- physical copies with paper pages that you can write on. Make sure it's a workbook that asks you questions and makes you work through your answers. This book is an example of a book that you write your answers in. I haven't tried any of these personally, so you'll have to choose on your own.
You and husband together do two chapters each week. Share your answers. Bring him on the inside of your secrecy veil. Turn off the shame -- this is a disorder and it's fixable, it's not a moral/ethical failing or make you a bad person. So shame/guilt is misplaced, but you do have work to do and without therapy options then you are your own therapy.
Talk through the questions. Share openly. He's your husband, he's an intimate. He isn't a therapist and he will do things that therapists shouldn't -- and you'll both have to muddle through that. But if you think you can do it, this is an option.
That’s great news! You are climbing back on the wagon like a champ.
In the meantime while you wait for a therapist try to focus on stress management habits like a 10 minute morning yoga routine or something simple and feasible. Perhaps a mental health workbook, a support group, or a hotline you can call are also good options to consider as you wait for therapy.
Good luck 🍀
I second starting with therapy or a good workbook. The Binge Eating and Compulsive Overeating Workbookor something like it might be a good place to start. I don't know where you live, but there are also some Overeater's Anonymous groups in different cities if you think that might help.
Other suggestions like not keeping tempting foods in the house or carrying just enough money to get you through the day and nothing extra are good suggestions, too.
Things like going on keto help with appetite, but do not address the root issue, which therapy or a workbook could help.
Would it be possible for you to change your reward system? For example, make an amazon list and if you went a certain number of days without stopping by a convenience store, you could use that money for something on your amazon list.
If you've already thought of these things, then I'm sorry I couldn't be of help. It's a really tough thing to tackle.
I've heard good things about Brain over Binge, but haven't used it myself
There's also a lot on Amazon like this and scroll down to see other titles in the same category. For free resources, you can try the links on this page
I looked through a few things and this book looks pretty great (skip to chapter 2 if you want to avoid weight loss/obesity related introduction).
Again, I haven't used these resources (I did CBT with a therapist), but the process was super helpful for me. Check your library if you don't want to invest, and remember that just because one resource might not work for you doesn't mean the process doesn't work or isn't worth it - you can always try a different resource!
Binge Eating and Compulsive Overeating Workbook: An Integrated Approach to Overcoming Disordered Eating is the one I’ve been using with decent success.
I also really like 8 Keys to Recovery from an Eating Disorder: Effective Strategies from Therapeutic Practice and Personal Experience although that’s not a workbook persay