A few good primers:
There is also a bio of St. Anthony that I would recommend, but it's titles escapes me at the moment.
Suggestion for further reading: the chapter on humility from <em>The Desert Fathers: Sayings of the Early Christian Monks (Penguin Classics)</em>. You will find the other themes addressed there as well.
As others have said, you are probably on the right path. Sadly, very few people have ever followed it.
Now is the best time to follow your inner light, your intuition, your conscience. If you can handle the nomadic life, I say go do it. I've tried it, and I only became very depressed and lonely. I realized I needed people, social commitments, to feel stable and at peace. But if you can go rogue, I say do it.
I bet you are on the leading edge of a new movement.
I underlined almost every line of this book once a long time ago: https://www.amazon.com/Desert-Fathers-Sayings-Christian-Classics/dp/0140447318/
From a totally different direction:
https://www.amazon.com/Benedict-Option-Strategy-Christians-Post-Christian/dp/0735213305/
I think you're being too hard on yourself. If you can scrape up £3.99, check out the chapter on "Progress in Perfection" in <em>this book</em>.