http://www.amazon.com/The-Path-Purpose-People-Calling/dp/1416537244
You're a voracious reader, I see. That's great. I will try my best to keep finding books for you. I hope this next one shows you you are not alone, and it is by no means too late to start finding a plan.
I just want to say that I'm thinking about you out there. I'm thinking about what to tell you, or how to help you. Good luck man!