I feel sad that you feel your kink is stupid and hateful. I got into vampires in junior high I think, definitely by high school, quite a few years before I got into kink. There were (and are) a few things I like about vampire stories. Since childhood I'd been intrigued by mind-control-y beings, and as I went through puberty I got into the physical sensuality and eroticism of the vampire-victim relationship which it sounds like you are into as well. I read the early Vampire Chronicles by Anne Rice (through Memnoch the Devil, plus Pandora), before I pretty much lost interest in fiction.
Especially if you like Anne Rice at all, maybe you would like The Vampire Companion by Katherine Ramsland? She is a professor of forensic psychology and I thought she did a great job of elaborating on the psychodrama of Rice's vampire stories.
Or if you don't like Rice, or just need more to...sink your teeth into, maybe check out Vampires Are Us: Understanding Our Love Affair with the Immortal Dark Side by Margot Adler. She read many vampire stories while (IIRC) her husband was dying, and provides an overview of various authors' take on the genre and gives book recommendations. Also has an intro I really liked about the meaning she found personally and for our society in vampire stories.
Or there is the copious amount of Vampire: The Masquerade material going back many years, although I am not very familiar with it and not sure if there is much of the erotic.
Hell, let me know if there is something else I should look at--books, films, stories, or vampire-themed porn scenes! I guess fiction would be ok for me as long as it's sexy.
Kink on, my friend.