My parents weren’t restrictive with any media growing up, so I came to love horror and other scary movies and shows, even as a very sensitive child. I watch a lot of true crime; my husband was going through my iTunes and said someone would probably think I’m sinister because 90% is true crime shows/documentaries. I also own several bookcases of true crime/crime analysis books, too; I’ve read many of them.
Some content I really can’t watch, but most of the time I just take meds because I want to watch. Even though I can’t watch specific types of crimes on those shows usually, I do think I watch things that have intense content that I know can trigger me. Maybe I also need to feel those emotions since I try hard to just bury them with meds.
I can strangely sleep quite well to the (original) narrator on Snapped, and I own all available seasons on iTunes.
I did recently watch a movie that I wish so much I could take back though. I took medication and was prepared, but I can’t get it out of my head - but maybe that’s why I watched it? I made the excuse that it has an actress I like in it, even though the lead was someone I don’t much care for, but really I knew beforehand that it would have seriously disturbing content and still watched it. Even here I often click sub links I know I don’t want to see, but I can’t help myself; it can be disgusting or deeply disturbing or both, but I click, see, and regret, but then do it again.
So maybe I do watch on purpose?? I’m watching a true crime show now; Signs of a Psychopath. I’m also reading a book: Violent Attachments https://www.amazon.com/dp/0765700611/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_i_WmUtFbHM3RC8E