Hey there,
I am not exactly sure what you mean when you wrote, "When you say you survived, but still struggle with the disorder"
My thought processes were very abusive, controlling, perfectionist, black and white thinking, all or nothing thinking when I was living with ED (eating disorder).
ie. I can't have this. I am not allowed. I am too fat to do that. I am not good enough. If I eat this now then I need to make up for it later.
They have changed completely because no longer do I entertain those thoughts because if they do show up in my mind, I recognize them and see them as my fear, my ED, trying to pull me down. Through becoming the observer of my mind, I was able to separate from these thoughts and choose new ones that were in alignment with the life and relationship with food that I wanted. There are no rules, just choice, acceptance, love and knowledge.
This is described in a step-by-step approach of how you too can change your mind in my book, if you are interested in learn how to start shifting your own thoughts.
Again, it is through changing our minds, that we can change our lives.