God bless you; as a fellow scrupulous, I hope and pray you find peace. Do you have this book? (From Fr. Santa of Scrupulous Anonymous). I refer to it a lot and there’s a lot of help in it.
But outside help/therapy is definitely recommended so hopefully you can find time for one. Hang in there and know the Lord is with you. God bless, and Happy Easter.
P.S. i just came across this video which you might find helpful too