>Maybe you lose interest cause somewhere in the back of your head you also feel like “ what’s the point. We’re all just gonna die in the end?”
That's an interesting thought, definitely worth pondering upon some more.
>The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma https://www.amazon.com/dp/0143127748/ref=cm\_sw\_r\_cp\_api\_glt\_fabc\_3WNMEX6CFC8PK5GA6QCW
Thank you so much for the book suggestion. I started reading it on Kindle already. I have been looking for something like this but couldn't seem to quite find something specific to this topic (maybe I wasn't searching correctly), so this is a big help.
Lost both my parents. Here are a few things that helped:
They’re not in pain anymore. Their physical body isn’t suffering.
Live now to make them proud.
I was given a book called “journey of the souls” by dr. Michael Newton (hypnotherapist) - it talked about our journey of self evolution and how life continues on.
We all go sooner or later. Some sooner some later. We all have a fatal disease called “mortality”
I bought myself a dog chain that has a note from my parents. Initially bought a dad one when dad passed. I wear it in the morning and get to talk to them. I take it off at night and talk to them again thanking them for giving me a great life.
Something like this: TTVOVO Dad Mom to My Son Daughter Inspirational Necklace Dog Tag Pendant Necklace Always Remember You Are Braver Than You Believe Military Motivational Encouragement Dogtags Jewelry Birthday Love Gift https://www.amazon.com/dp/B07BGW7G47/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_fabc_yjfXFbPXXA7HF
Do you live somewhere you can access medicinal marijuana? That might help with stress /trauma related nausea.
Otherwise just eat what you can and don’t force it. Do you like Smoothies or protein shakes? Slimfast in the can or Ensure will help you get nutrition temporarily. Slimfast Keto shakes are actually crazy good.
SlimFast Keto Chocolate Shake - Ready to Drink Meal Replacement, (Each 4 Count of 11 Fl Oz Bottles) 44 Fl Oz https://www.amazon.com/dp/B07XYP1J21/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_fab_C69FFbD6X0W0Y
I’m sorry your body is reacting this way to the stress and emotions of mourning. This process often takes a physical toll on us.
I lost my mom in my 20s to suicide, and to be honest even I had a hard time wrapping my mind around that one. The delusion of choice in the matter and related feelings of betrayal and abandonment were/are very intense. Several years later, my very young children know that nana is in heaven, and I have had a lot of anxiety about it. I have come to believe that explaining death to little ones can come in stages or levels or phases. Like right now my toddlers know nana is in heaven, one day I can tell them she was very sick, and maybe down the road when I feel like they are mature enough (which may not be the same age for all of them), I can explain what bipolar and alcoholism are. But again, that was super intense for me as an adult and I want to really be cautious. I have been recommended this book, but haven't read it yet. Best of luck and you're already on a good path being so careful.
I did buy a book... https://www.amazon.ca/Healing-Adult-Childs-Grieving-Heart/dp/1879651319/ref=nodl_
Honestly, just the idea of this specific book made me realize that life had to go on. My life was so intertwined with my dad’s (I was his caretaker for 10+ years) that I didn’t know what to do with myself. I still grieve for him, when I hear things that make me think of him or times I wish he was here, but it’s mostly happy tears now.
It may sound selfish, but I’m learning to enjoy my new found freedom and learning to have a life outside of his appointments and being constantly afraid something would happen to him.