> i've been wracking my brain to figure out a way to get some income from home somehow.
If you study hard, it takes about 6 months to learn enough about programming to get a frontend web development job making around $70k per year. You could also do that sort of work remotely, as it's inherently web-based anyway.
The two main paths for this are Free Code Camp and The Odin Project.
I'm about half way through The Power of Habit by Charles Duhigg, which talks about the important role habits have in our lives, how they're formed, how they become reinforced in us, and how we can change them.
I thought other ISTJs might find the book useful because of our high preference for Si. For myself, I find that I don't always notice the little patterns and routines that I get into, and sometimes they're not helpful. But because I'm not always aware of the habit, I'm not able to make any changes. This book helped me become more conscious of my own habits.
Probably the most important insight I got from it is the whole idea about the process of a habit: a habit is initiated by some cue, which leads our brain into a kind of autopilot as we perform the habit's routine, and then there's a reward at the end of the action, which reinforces the habit in our minds. As an ISTJ, I find it helpful to understand the process so I can watch for it in action in my own life.
My only gripe with the book is that it's a bit lacking on follow through and application. I feel like there's a great deal of good theory, but I'm at a bit of a loss as to how to put it into practice.
Very much so! I actually got to do an internship recently at a bank and my job involved providing behavioural economics advice to different product teams. If you're looking for reading material I totally recommend Predictably Irrational it's a really easy and interesting read (and could let you BS your way into a behavioural economics position somewhere haha)
I really like the app Goal Tracker. https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=info.intrasoft.habitgoaltracker&hl=en_US It's free, and you can create a widget for one of your phone screens and have a row of goals you're working on, then you can check them off once you do them.
There's a number of free goal tracking apps, you can look at them on playstore and see what you like.
Integrity - Do what you say you will do. Avoid what you said you wouldn't do. Seek to know the truth, and once you know it, seek to share it if it's relevant. When all else fails, I want you to do the right thing.
Pride in your work - Whatever it is you're doing, I want you to want to be the best in the world at it.
Competence - I want you to be able to execute the tasks that you're given correctly, and if you can't do that, I want you to ask for help and then get better until you can execute all the tasks that you're given correctly. Once you can do everything right, I want you to strive to be the best. See # 2.
Compassion - I want you to be interested in clearing obstacles for coworkers, for clients, and for me. I want you to be able to recognize that you're working with fellow human beings who have their own needs and desires, and I want you to have an abundance mindset; recognize there's enough success for everyone if we all pull together.
Listening ability. I want you to be able to understand both the literal and emotional content of what other people are saying, and I want you to understand before you act or speak. You can't solve a problem if you don't know what the problem is.
Books I can recommend:
<em>The Speed of Trust</em> by Covey
and
Moin moin, halloechen! Ich wuerde Sie gerne helfen...auch falls Sie Plattdeutsch lernen wollen.
Duolingo koennte ihnen auch hilfreich sein.
My stepdad is an ISTJ and I can honestly say that OCD has ruined his life. He, however is still one step behind you because he doesn't even acknowledge it. To him, it's just the way he does things. He doesn't realize the kind of anxiety he's putting himself through and how it ruins his mental health.
I'm very sorry you're going through this, but you have an advantage. You CAN receive treatment for OCD. You're not stupid. You're actually the opposite. Accounting is really hard and I couldn't do it in a million years. You're aware you have a problem that it's reducing your quality of life, and that you CAN do something about it. As far as I'm concerned, you're completely set up for success.
Give this a try. Therapy is expensive, but my own therapist ($250/hr, so... she was expensive if that makes her more qualified) recommended this series of workbooks to me. It might not but everything you need, but it'll start providing you with the skills you need to start making progress against your OCD, and manage it so that you can be your normal ISTJ productive self :)
Good luck to you! You can do it!
- An ENFP
I have been a software engineer for about a year. We use Test Driven Development where I work, and I have found that it really helps me think through the requirements and make decisions about what the software should do one step at a time. I definitely prefer this method to just "feeling it out" like some of the intuitives do.
I have also found it incredibly useful to get familiar with good programming practices and patterns and would recommend stocking up on books and maybe reading them with another person or two for discussion. Clean Code and Agile Principles, Patters, and Practices have been very useful for me. Once you start to get the general patterns down, designing something from scratch isn't such a mind explosion, because you have a general idea of how things should be designed and what "good" software looks like.
I have been a software engineer for about a year. We use Test Driven Development where I work, and I have found that it really helps me think through the requirements and make decisions about what the software should do one step at a time. I definitely prefer this method to just "feeling it out" like some of the intuitives do.
I have also found it incredibly useful to get familiar with good programming practices and patterns and would recommend stocking up on books and maybe reading them with another person or two for discussion. Clean Code and Agile Principles, Patters, and Practices have been very useful for me. Once you start to get the general patterns down, designing something from scratch isn't such a mind explosion, because you have a general idea of how things should be designed and what "good" software looks like.
Yeah, Big 5 is very dry in most presentations - I know I plug Daniel Nettle's Personality: What makes you the way you are like it's going out of style, but the book really helps fleshing the system out and giving it a bit of the kind of feel type and function descriptions give Jungian typology. It's also just generally a very good layman's "serious" intro text to Big Five, I'd say.