In my very early stages of falling away, I listened to Megan Phelps-Roper's memoir, Unfollow. Of all my experiences up until then, that was the most terrifying period of my life. I lost everything that gave my life hope and purpose, with nothing else in place to fall back on except what I knew to be fleeting and continuously diminishing hedonism. I still struggle with managing life without an apparent prescribed purpose, but Megan's book really helped back then to still my thoughts. It was comforting for me just to know that there was at least one other person on the planet who saw the sadistic character of God in the Bible as repulsive and unworthy of affection. Also, I will add that she self-narrates the Audible book, which was extremely helpful for me in the catatonic catharsis I experienced as I was leaving. She is very easy to listen to and paces the content well.