I wish this book had been around when I was your age: https://www.amazon.com/How-Fail-Almost-Everything-Still-ebook/dp/B00COOFBA4
I think this point in your life is the perfect time to read it and use some of the principals to orient yourself while you make plans for your next step into the future.
The idea that there are no differences, or that they're just 'social expectations' has probably done me more harm than anything else in my life. No man is 100% masculine and no woman is 10% feminine, but on average the differences are big enough. The book of Griet Vandermassen is very clear about that. And let's be fair: when I look for a woman, I'm not looking for a man with boobs, but for a person with at least some feminine traits.
https://www.amazon.com/Whos-Afraid-Charles-Darwin-Evolutionary/dp/074254351X