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Thank you for sharing. I can only imagine the pain you feel. Definitely do not go back. Definitely do see a non-lds therapist. Or if you can try to get a hold of Natasha Helfer Parker. She used to be lds. Don't know if she still is lds. She gets it. She's real. Just please see someone about it.
I want you to know that you are innocent. You did nothing wrong. Even looking porn isn't wrong.
Somebody posted about this app yesterday. The guided meditations are very helpful. There are lots of materials based on cognitive behavioral therapy that would be very beneficial for you. And they are free. Looks like it's only for Android.
"Stop Panic & Anxiety Self-Help" https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.excelatlife.panic
If you don't have an android device you can get the materials from their website. https://www.excelatlife.com
Oh, those are nice! My husband printed them out for me when I was in the thick of my worst health anxiety. We went over them a lot. I also got a CBT app on my phone that walked me through meditations that helped a LOT.
The thing about HA is that you're going to be worried no matter what's going on. You could be feeling fine, or you could have a headache, or some muscle pain and you're going to obsess about it. Health anxiety is actually a type of OCD; it deals with recurrent and obsessive thoughts and you kind of go in cycles, get lost and can't get off the train, so to speak.
I used to get myself so worked up about things that my chest muscles would literally seize up and charlie horse. It was the worst pain I'd ever felt in my chest area. I thought I was dying the couple of times it happened. I didn't even know chest muscles could do that!
One other helpful thing that I remember is that if I'm wondering if it's serious, it's probably not. When shit gets real, you know. There's no question about it. My husband reminds me of this as well when I start to get a little anxious/obsessive about my health.
Laying down and doing guided meditation (through app or Youtube or whatever) is extremely helpful for this kind of problem.
Headspace is a good one for your phone/tablet, but not the one I used. I used this one and it really helped me go to sleep many, many nights!
Somebody posted about this app yesterday. The guided meditations are very helpful. Looks like it's only for Android.
"Stop Panic & Anxiety Self-Help" https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.excelatlife.panic
If you don't have an android device you can get the materials from their website. https://www.excelatlife.com
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If you have an Android, this app has been a lifesaver for me in the past: https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.excelatlife.panic&hl=en
There's a recording on there of a woman basically talking you through your panic attack. I used to get attacks when I was home alone and had no one to help me stop freaking out. I would play the recording and it was very helpful. She basically tells you that you're not dying, you're brave for confronting anxiety, etc etc.
>I'm so wound up all the time I've forgotten how to relax.
May I suggest the following:
https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.excelatlife.panic
There's a relaxation section in the app. It's not really anything to do with "Zen", but I think it's pretty helpful. It may seem a bit New Age-y and lame, but it works for me at least.
Yesterday: Did okay. Didn't make it to the gym- even though I didn't do a lot of moving and packing at work, I was just exhausted by the time 5 rolled around. So I went home and crashed. I had my dreaded conversation, and it didn't go as badly as I feared. My friend understood. I went a little over on calories because someone brought breakfast tacos to the office, but only about 100 over so I'm not worrying about it.
Today:
Calorie goal
Learning time
Update fitness sheets
Go through Emergency box, toss anything expired, make list of replacements to get
Make grocery list, go shopping
Update fitness sheets
Figure out how the hell I'm supposed to update my address with the mail order pharmacy since their website is garbage
I'm really excited to learn today. I found a nearly-free udemy course over in r/learnpython focused specifically on data analysis AND done in Python 3, which is exactly what I want. I downloaded the stuff last night to get started and burned through the intro section, so today I should be able to start on the meat of the course.
But I need to make sure I get my other stuff done. It isn't time-consuming stuff, but it's important. I really need to plan my meals better for the week. I think part of why I was so tired this week was that I just wasn't getting enough calories, especially carbs. I would end up at something like 1100-1200 after dinner, and then have ice cream or whatever to make up the difference. While that is a nice treat, I need to get more during the day while I'm moving so I have more energy during the day. Wednesday-Friday just didn't really feel good. I think I might make some apple gouda cookies for little carb bombs to have during the day.
BQ: Sleepphones and this app's relaxation audios. I think I need to find a new app, though. This one streams the audio instead of downloading it, and if it bugs out and stops playing, you have to start entirely over from the beginning. You can't skip to the part where you left off.
BQ2: Sushi, for sure. I was so grossed out by the idea of raw fish, because a) raw, and b) fish. Then I tried fish (cooked) for the first time and realized I didn't hate it. A bit after that, a friend convinced me to try a California roll, and before I knew it I was a fan of sushi of all kinds.