I was lucky enough to have just recently read that essay. I hope you get a chance to. The topic you're interested in is part 2 of 3. In particular she surveys various branches people can take in becoming an adult, each of which will yield a unique manner of coping. Reading about the "serious man" and "nihilist" branches were pretty eye opening for me as they explain many individuals I'm familiar with.
Now, I do suggest buying the linked Amazon version (if interested) as it's the best English translation available. However the part you're interested in (part 2) is also available for free here as a downloadable PDF. But I will say the translation isn't as well done, so it's a much tougher read. Still, free essay is free essay :p
I hate to pee on the OP’s cornflakes but that quote is a fairly old meme. You can buy shirts, mugs and other things with the quote on them.
I Am The Storm Quote Wood Motivational Black Wood Framed Art Poster 14x20 https://www.amazon.com/dp/B07JKG65RS/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_i_CfbeFb2NYBC16
Adding a couple of lines of weather in the beginning doesn’t make this a deep thought.
Get some home webcams so you can check in on them anytime you need to, and even speak to them through the camera. It will give you peace of mind when you feel anxious. It is great you have more than 1 cat, so they can keep each other company.
Tons of cameras to choose from, I have the Blink Wireless cameras and love them as they can be moved anywhere in the house within range of wifi
Oh my book? Here!
https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0B4ZJJ52X
It's $3:99 digital, $14:99 physical or you can read it all free with Kindle Unlimited! It's about a 15 year old half human half demon who hunts down monsters and other creatures in modern day America with his 20 year old adopted sister/pseudo mother
"Blame them for what they did then. Blame yourself for what you do now."
I used to like this saying, but lots of times, you are totally ducked because of someone and CAN'T do certain things now.
When I was 4, my mother had me and my sister sleep on the floor with her (really small house, no extre beds, etc).
Well, I kicked a lot in my sleep as a child. And I mean a lot. My mother, and my sister eventually, started absolutely BANGING my legs with their fists.
I started to walk with a limp. And because my mother knew it was her and my sister, she never took me to a doctor.
Today, my legs are royally fucked. I can't walk for more than an hour at a time without rest. And my lower back is even worse, I can't stay bent over for longer than a minute before my back literally stings with pain. Due to this, I can't work any real hard labor. And I'm forced to live with my mother.
It's been... Rough. I've tried numerous ways to get out and make money, but they always fail. I recently wrote a book to try to make some money (a half human, half demon hunts monsters with his adopted sister. https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0B4ZJJ52X. It's $2:99 digital and $15:99 physical).
Still, I don't have much hopes for it making me enough money to go live on my own. I'm afraid I'll have to just go out and be homeless for awhile, maybe even forever if my book doesn't sell...
I'm a loser. My body is physically shot, so I can't work the average job. I'm not extremely smart either, so desk or computer jobs aren't for me. I have trouble remembering things, and tbh if I talked about every single problem I have, I could be here all day. Suffice to say, from my hair to my toes I could tell you at least one problem with every part of my body and brain.
But I won't give up.
I wrote a book recently, got it finished in June. Sold almost 18 copies so far https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0B4ZJJ52X (it's about a half human, half demon monster hunter hunting down demons and other creatures with his adopted sister)
It's just $2:99 ($15:99 for a physical copy). I'm hoping it will become popular one day, but with how bad my luck is (another problem I have. People who say luck isn't real haven't had bad luck like I do. If something CAN go wrong, I don't care how low the percentage is, it WILL go wrong).
I'm also going to, very soon, use what little money I've gotten off my book to buy bottles of water and maybe some ham and bread, and go out into the city I live in and sell those on the street. Hopefully it can help me last untily book sells well.
But, I don't have high hopes. As I've said, I'm a loser. Nothing ever goes my way, ever. I know my book isn't the best, so I wouldn't be surprised if I sell less than 100 copies in my lifetime. But no matter what... I won't give up. Even if I have to live on the street while I wait for my book to sell... I won't give up.
Hello friend. It seems you've stumbled across Perennialism. Enjoy. https://www.amazon.com/Perennial-Philosophy-Aldous-Huxley/dp/0061724947
There ae some other theological ideas in your text that you'll encounter elsewhere. Remember that in the end: no one can ever know
Cheers.
I feel you. For the last ten years (started when I was 17) I've been like this. I decided that no matter what, I'd see life through til the end.
Even though I have to skills, no talent, I've sucked at every single thing I've ever tried to do etc etc. Life seems set up for me to fail and be miserable no matter what.
I did write a novel recently (https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0B4ZJJ52X) but even after lowering the price its barely sold at all within the last month. Feels like I did all that work for nothing. And I probably did tbh. It definitely isn't a work of art like other authors.
Still... No matter how bad life gets, I won't quit. I'll see it though til the very end. That's how I deal with this crippling depression
Forget the aliens. Do you have Kindle?
If not, bro, it's things out there that are doing everything your talking about. Your imagination is great, although, tweek it in the right direction of thinking that there are "things" out there that are basically judging everything you do. Not just on purpose. I mean, literally, the way you grow, you heart rate, you instincts and gestures, and your performance at work.
The world wouldn't be the world (Earth💜) if we didn't exist. Forget the Torah, Bible, and Quran for a second and think naturally, of course! Forget the Earth and the animals. Look up what do you see. You see with your eye Planets, Dust, Moons, Asteroids, Sun 💙, Galaxies and Gases. All of that is pure life! You are pure life with Earth wrapped around it. Yes, it. You are a it after all of that judgement.
So what if aliens came down here. They probably already did and left with everything else. Just like everything dies. Trees, planets, humans, and animals. One day Earth will die and you will have to be ready! One day you will die, and then Judegment!
I never used to think about it at all really. But I stumbled on this book and some others. In Asian cultures, this is not an outrageous concept.
Many Lives, Many Masters: The True Story of a Prominent Psychiatrist, His Young Patient, and the Past-Life Therapy That Changed Both Their Lives https://www.amazon.com/dp/0671657860/ref=cm_sw_r_apan_glt_i_50BWNF3VX2YPSKGRVPCG
Being confused and lost is a part of the process, be patient.
Chase your goals and dreams no matter how farfetched they are.. because in the process and journey you'll discover new things about yourself, maybe even new goals and dreams that you'll want even much much more and drop your old ones which is perfectly fine.
For me I discovered that achieving the goals or dreams WASN'T that made life fun, but being the kind of person who keeps fighting for them, learning how to face fear, and never giving up that makes life fun (I mean it can be hard at times, but in a good way), because during the process I also learned that the opinion of myself is more important than what others think of me, loving myself is more important than the love I receive from others, I grow more and discover more about myself in the process, I learn to be mentally tougher..
Honestly, if random friend was confused and lost I also recommended them this Oprah Winfrey audible book (yeah, I'm being serious) titled What I Know for Sure . I'd at least listen to the audible sample before judging