You are not alone, my friend. Betterhelp.com has been good for me. They charge me about $55 per week, which is a reduced rate for a poor fella like me. I recommend signing up for that if you can afford it. They will help you come up with strategies to move forward in life. The first thing my counselor told me to do was read this book, which I found extremely helpful.
https://www.amazon.com/Four-Agreements-Practical-Personal-Freedom/dp/1878424319
"The search for happiness and the search for meaning is not the same." Dante and His Search for Meaning by A. Aures Garrido