I never assumed you weren't an abuse survivor, and you had that small mention that you had been in an obsessive spiral for a couple of days as well- but I wasn't going to ask or mention because you hadn't and that is personal stuff.
Please reread the bottom paragraph of my comment if it's really too much text to read- I commend you for bringing it up and that it was valid to bring up.
I went into detail of how this obsession works so that other people, including abuse survivors, can understand too. I see your anger and frustration, and I validate your points. I also explain why the behaviour is as it is.
As for your question- you do heal over time, and it can be helpful as long as you're mindful about it. It's been years since I've re-examined my abuse and certain things I struggled with (but my ex was so kind) are now being viewed in a different lens. Taking a break from it and acknowledging it like you did is also super healthy and helpful.
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You deserve to feel safe and accepted too, I'm so sorry for the terrible trauma you went through. You most certainly are not the 'bad guy' for bringing this behaviour up and being critical about it.
As for long text, here's a website I like that reads text to speech: https://www.naturalreaders.com/online/