I prefer metal or glass because silicone is hard to get rid of smells. I have many different kinds. These are by far my favorite. Anal Plugs Luxury Jewelry 3pcs... https://www.amazon.com/dp/B09LQVJRGX?ref=ppx_pop_mob_ap_share
Not sure this will help but there is an app called habitica that's meant to help develop good habits of things you want to accomplish. You can join a party of people to accomplish things. It gamifies things. So you could assign yourself tasks you want to do and being in that party of people would give a bit of the push to accomplish your tasks so you don't let the party down.
You sound similar to me as far as needing that stimulation. I was in my late early thirties before I orgasmed for the first time. I always thought I just couldn't. Anyway, this and a determined husband (Dom) got me there. If you use it too long you can go a bit numb for a few hours, but it's a dream to use otherwise. I've tried the larger ones, but like you say, they're not really usable during sex. He bought some for me to try that were very small, but they were either painful, not strong enough, or battery operated and didn't last long enough. The first one lasted seven years before it stopped working and I immediately bought another identical one to replace it.
Before my current partner and I got together, I had a few doms and Sir, master, and daddy were amongst the titles that I would address some people by.
My current partner and I mostly speak German with one another and I call him "mein Herr", which can be translated into various English words.
There's an app I use to lock down my whole phone at bedtime called "Lock My Phone" link here
The only other thing is the Digital Wellbeing built into the phone for app timers, and as suggested Family Link you can set certain times of day the phone can be used as well as app timers (we use Family Link for the kids and Digital Wellbeing for me).
I found this one on Amazon the other night. I haven't earned my day collar so this one would be purely for play. Seems sturdy and the reviews are decent. I don't plan on pulling away like a pup chasing a squirrel 😊
I like it because the buckle is in the back but still a ring up front.
https://www.amazon.com/dp/B07F26QKJN/ref=cm_sw_r_other_apa_i_AuQ3EbV26NBGW
All I did was google bdsm coloring book. Etsy has a bunch and I also found these 2: barnes and noble And amazon
You're welcome. I also suggest re-reading the comments on your post here before you talk to him or even linking him to this post. I think there are things you might need to remind yourself of and things that people have said that you might be missing.
Ah, it works now! No idea what went wrong.
This so heckin neat and I love it so much.
I'm glad to hear that you're in a good place now, and I'm sure it's frustrating to be triggered. I've heard of Neuro linguistic programming which may help you identify triggers, and help replace them with positive ones, hopefully something like that can be of help? Don't feel down, your husband loves you, and I'm sure he knows that not all days are good days. *hug*