Welcome! Personally, I take the classical approach to pantheism, with the works of Baruch Spinoza defining my beliefs. You mentioned Albert Einstein, who believed in Spinoza's god. If you want to take that approach, I'd start with this video for some history and an introduction, and then read The Ethics for the full reasoning, propositions, and proofs that comprise Classical Pantheism.
HOWEVER: There are no pastors, bishops, priests, whatever around here to tell you what to believe and what to think. That's one of my favorite things about pantheism—it's not an organized religion. If you choose to disagree with Spinoza's view of determinism, Panentheism is the thing for you. A lot of members here even take a mystical approach, with some of us believing that you can attune yourself to the universe, and learn its secrets through self denial and becoming closer to other conscious beings. Nobody is going to stop you from taking your own view on Pantheism.
Once again, welcome! I hope that pantheism is the school of thought you are looking for. Your story was quite moving. I found great comfort in pantheism and I hope you can too.
Read the Stoics! Marcus Aurelius, Seneca, and Epictetus for the classics, A Guide to the Good Life and Stoicism and the Art of Happiness for a modern overview. Pantheism and Stoicism are inextricably connected and compliment each other very nicely.
I, too, am in the questioning stage and am finding some resonance with pantheism. There is a passage from a book I recently read (Agnostic by Lesley Hazelton) that really highlights the negative feeling I get when people talk about “God” and an anthropomorphic being.
On p. 28, the author talks about finding beauty and wonder in the desert landscape: “It is beyond human grasp - totally inhuman. What struck me above all, then, was the ineffable otherness of the desert, and it was this otherness that awed me.”
She hates it when people point out shapes and figures in the rocks: “I had no desire to make it less ‘other’ by finding familiar shapes and thus imposing my own terms of reference. Yet, once those shapes had been pointed out, I couldn’t help seeing them too.”
I differ from the author in that I don’t find nature to be “other” or alien. Instead, I am struck with awe at the knowledge that I am a part of this natural beauty. When I stand in a gorgeous wilderness, I feel a connection with the matter and energy that comprise everything from the galaxies to the stars to the planets and everything that grew out of them.
When people describe the divine as God or Goddess or gods, it severs that feeling of connection. It imposes a “shape” that’s hard to get past. This is why, even though I am trying to incorporate nature-based practices into my spiritual journey, I have never quite felt at home in many pagan circles. Many of them still incorporate a divine “other.”
We're pretty terrible at cost-benefit analysis.
https://www.amazon.com/Predictably-Irrational-Revised-Expanded-Decisions/dp/0061353248
But aside from that, there are tons of things that define us as individuals that we just don't get to choose. How does cost-benefit analysis come into play when choosing what career to pursue, finding your partner, deciding what music you're going to like?
Three phases of matter: http://wiki.answers.com/Q/Why_does_water_exist_in_three_states http://in.answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20100124032544AAcnSsc
Why is water a universal solvent: polarity
surface tension: polarity.
Check these out
Very parminedes/melissus btw
I liked it when Plato said the sun was the greatest good
> Nothing about this problem suggests that we can't reasonably infer that consciousness [is] an emergent property of matter.
This actually is very much in dispute. From here: > Some nonreductionists take the hard problem as a reason to reject physicalism. On most nonphysicalist views, consciousness is regarded as an irreducible component of nature. These views tend to differ primarily on how they characterize the causal relationship between consciousness and the physical world.
And from the Wikipedia page on panpsychism: > In philosophy, panpsychism is the view that consciousness, mind or soul (psyche) is a universal feature of all things, and the primordial feature from which all others are derived. Panpsychists see themselves as minds in a world of minds. > > Panpsychism is one of the oldest philosophical theories, and has been ascribed to philosophers like Thales, Plato, Spinoza, Leibniz and William James. Panpsychism can also be seen in eastern philosophies such as Vedanta and Mahayana Buddhism. During the 19th century, Panpsychism was the default theory in philosophy of mind, but it saw a decline during the middle years of the 20th century with the rise of logical positivism.[1] The recent interest in the hard problem of consciousness has once again made panpsychism a mainstream theory.
The rest of your perspective is reasonable, given your starting assumptions. I just have slightly different starting assumptions (in reference to the above quotes) and hence reach slightly different conclusions, though I sense in this case that those conclusions are largely compatible with yours as opposed to those of a pure materialist.
As u/gossamergnat pointed out; it has to be from nature itself, so I would use a genuine natural nautilus shell, like this one.
https://www.amazon.com/Swimmi-Nautilus-Pendant18-5-Necklace-AA419/dp/B074JDXD2J
Reinventing the Sacred: A New View of Science, Reason, and Religion https://www.amazon.com/dp/0465018882/ref=cm_sw_r_awd_uFQ5ub0BGHEQH https://www.amazon.com/dp/0465018882/ref=cm_sw_r_awd_uFQ5ub0BGHEQH
>The universe experiencing itself.
Don't use this line. It is overused.
This is actually a pretty well respected idea, though not quite for the reasons you say. I haven't read it yet, but this book by one of the top philosophers of mind says it should be assumed as a standard.
http://www.amazon.com/Consciousness-Its-Place-Nature-Physicalism/dp/1845400593/ref=pd_bxgy_b_img_y
Your Youtube link jumps to the last 16 seconds of the video.
This is the link to the app on the Play Store. Watching the video, and other videos on Youtube, it looks like it's just a music tinkering app with some scientific looking eye candy.