I had that a while ago, not totally sure it applies because I'm trans so it might be a little different for you; but for me it was like, at first I felt gay; but I didn't really like men all that much, only a few, so I identified as bi. Then I had to deal with the shitstorm of gender and eventually realise I was a trans woman, then it was like ok am I bi or lesbian? Because I liked men to a degree, but then later I realised that I didn't actually like them I just sort of liked them because I had to. I later read the lesbian masterdoc and the concept of compulsory heterosexuality became really clear. It's actually kinda funny that I could sort of take in all that before I even realised I was trans, but my suggestion would probably be to read the lesbian masterdoc (https://www.docdroid.net/N46Ea3o/copy-of-am-i-a-lesbian-masterdoc-pdf#page=2)
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Sorry this sort of turned into me rambling and might not actually help. I guess like try to see if the way you're attracted to girls is the same or equal to the way you're attracted to guys. Like does the idea of being with a man (romantically or sexually) make you feel the same way you would about being with a woman, does it have the same spark or make you light up in the same way. Sorry I'm rambling again, I hope this helped
Some sorta stuffed animal I recommend a seagull https://www.amazon.co.uk/14cm-Seagull-Soft-Toy-Stuffed/dp/B00K2TD5YM/ref=mp_s_a_1_17?crid=MDYV97QCYHO3&keywords=pigeon+plush&pscroll=1&qid=1664136702&sprefix=pigeon+plush%2Caps%2C86&sr=8-17&wIndexMainSlot=25 Like this one
I’m currently writing book 5 centered on a poly relationship but they aren’t mentioned in book 3 and 4 https://www.amazon.com/dp/B09Z9L7RDR?binding=kindle_edition&ref=dbs_dp_awt_ser_img_widg_pc_tukn
Had trouble putting the info in, so I'll put it here.
Book Title/Author: The Summer I Wasn't Me by Jessica Verdi
Link to Amazon: http://www.amazon.com/The-Summer-I-Wasnt-Me/dp/1402277881
Genre: N
LGBT Type: L and G (mostly L)
Guest Rating: A
Edit: Extra info: After her mother reacts horribly to finding out Lexi's sexuality, Lexi goes to a conversion therapy camp to try to salvage their relationship in the wake of her father's death. Note: Trigger warning for sexual assault