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I use this one, and can definitely recommend: https://www.amazon.nl/Dialectical-Behavior-Therapy-Skills-Workbook/dp/1684034582/ref=sr_1_10?__mk_nl_NL=%C3%85M%C3%85%C5%BD%C3%95%C3%91&crid=1J29VVTRXIWNN&dchild=1&keywords=dbt+skills+training+manual&qid=1621796303&sprefix=dbt%2Caps%2C173&sr=8-10
I meant that more ironically.
My over analyzing sees your comforting me, what you are also doing with your friend a lot, you really care for him, want to help, care more for his feelings than yours, and thats good to some extend.
It's called agreeableness. This article describes what i think might be helpful and interesting to you.
https://lifehacker.com/the-problem-with-being-too-agreeable-1791893359
Do you have anyone you can talk to to practice with or get advice? If not, I would recommend looking up questions on the internet and write them down with your answer. Be prepared to answer a question like, where do you see yourself in 5years? I totally failed at that one because I didn’t think ahead on that one. 😩 I would also recommend having one or two questions ready to ask them. Here is a link that my boss gave me. https://zety.com/blog/questions-to-ask-an-interviewer
I just interviewed for a job I really want that would be easier on my BPD and anxiety and its so hard to wait for their answer. I really want this job but I have no idea how I did compared to the other interviewees.
Do not tell them about your mental health. It’s not their business. If something like a panic attack happens after you are hired then you can tell them that you have anxiety sometimes.
I wish you all the best in your job search!
I recommend everyone read this:
Building a Life Worth Living: A Memoir by Marsha Linehan
I listened to it on audible. Its the story of the lady who came up with DBT, and how she was institutionalized in the 60s for her mental illness and made it her goal in life to help other people get out of emotional hell. It's a success story, but also one filled with lots of pain. Someone who is trying to figure out how to help suicidal people while also struggling with the illness that sent her to the mental institution in the first place.
I have found this community to be super helpful! I’m so glad we can help. This is the book my therapist recommended to me and I have been working through it. I hope the link works … not sure if it will.
The Dialectical Behavior Therapy... https://www.amazon.com/dp/1684034582?ref=ppx_pop_mob_ap_share
Dr. Fox has a really good one, here is the amazon link for it. He has another one for people who have been diagnosed with other disorders too.
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That's the one that the therapists told me to get when i started DBT. You can even get a ring bound one that is super handy for writing in.
You are allowed to have a bad day. Even those who don’t have complex mental health issues have a bad day where things don’t work for them.
I’ve learnt that it’s best not to fight your emotions and your sadness because that’s how it builds until it’s uncontrollable. Instead have a good cry, get it out of your system then find something that gives you comfort and take some time for yourself and self care.
Even if you are not into tarot and all that mystical stuff it’s just designed to give you a little positive insight and provoke some self reflection in order to help you reframe a situation into a more positive sense.
You can try to use this DBT workbook, a lot of people on here swear that it has changed their lives for the better. It's 16 bucks (or free, if you know where to look... Mods please don't nuke my comment)
This is the link for the USA market. If you live in a different market (UK, Australia ect) you need to go the that specific Amazon or it will say not available. I hope this helps
Hello thank you for showing interest. Below is the link. I’ve had several people order from Australia. There is the hardcopy and the Kindle version available. I hope you enjoy it https://www.amazon.com.au/Pay-Attention-Me-fairly-accurate/dp/B0BF2ZQZDS/ref=mp_s_a_1_5?crid=YXETG2R3JJRP&keywords=pay+attention+to+me&qid=1664181339&sprefix=pay+att%2Caps%2C77&sr=8-5
Honestly I struggled with that a lot. And then I realized I’m pretty open and forthcoming on places like here and with family about myself and my borderline so I thought why not start journaling. My journals turned into my book. If you want to check it out it’s on Amazon and there’s a portion where it will give you a preview without you having to like buy it if you know what I mean. Hopefully this gives you an idea of my process and inspires you to do some thing with yours because I think though they are similarities Everybody’s borderline story is unique.
https://www.amazon.com/Pay-Attention-Me-fairly-accurate-ebook/dp/B0BFC6B1KX
You are not weak or lazy! Experiencing sensations in our bodies is quite common with intense emotions and is often tied to past trauma. The body stores trauma and it can manifest somatically in these ways when we're having an episode.
A great book on the topic is Waking the Tiger by Peter Lavine.
I highly recommend learning what you can about somatics and how this works. Doing so really helped reduce my personal suffering, because I understood better why I was having the physiological sensations, so that made the sensations less scary on top of the emotional episode I was already having.
I hope this is helpful. 💕
Self reflection. Hindsight may be too late at times but it can help you to identify triggers and behaviour patterns. I’ve got a brilliant workbook which I recommend as an affordable way to do some self help.
I would look into if your partner has NPD traits. Its super common for us to get attached in this push pull manner. This sounds to me like some of the transactions described in the Narcissistic Borderline Couple
Something similar happened to me and my ex when I was first diagnosed. Those of us with BPD are really sensitive to invalidation and these type of comments can be used to control our behavior in ways that are against our values and without our consent. This type of behavior is not reciprocated because of our attachment needs, and it becomes massively one sided. I would definitely bring up these transactions in therapy and call out how unfair it is when it happens. Good luck.
I’m sorry you’re not getting any help.
The DBT skills training manual by Marsha Linehan is great and what they use in the DBT groups on the NHS.
To go along with that is the Handouts and Worksheets book. I’m only linking them so you can see which ones they are. But you can find them online, if you know what I mean.
This is such a tough and challenging position to be in, I feel for you as I've been there too. I think we're taught that family is everything but the reality is we don't choose our family and it can be hard to disconnect ourselves from those who are toxic in our lives. Family are the hardest people to develop healthy boundaries with particularly if it was never established in the first place. In response to some of your questions it sounds like it would be a good idea to block them if they keep calling and if it continues to get out of hand with them showing up at your place would you consider moving? I only ask this because the best decision I ever made was to move out on my own and then eventually interstate as well. It makes putting boundaries in place much easier and allowed me to be more selective of who I interacted with. It's probably one of the more drastic steps but I can only share from my own experience and what worked for me. It's okay to put yourself first and in this instance I highly encourage it to keep yourself safe and for self-preservation. I've also recently been reading "The Art of Dealing with Toxic People" by Alexis Fenton which discussed toxic family and ways to detoxify and reclaim back your life. You may find it useful too.
Just to be sure, are you talking about these two? Blue Book - Green Book
I’m curious to see what you’d think of Empathy Designs’s BPD journals on Amazon. I saw someone promoting it on Instagram, and so I was thinking of grabbing one, especially as a starting point until I can create my own custom one.https://www.amazon.com/dp/1097610276/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_i_CT447VX5CJJCG4Z55D37
I use a fidget to keep my fingers busy when I notice I'm picking my scalp. My favorite right now these pop it balls.
Check out the book https://www.amazon.com/Adult-Children-Emotionally-Immature-Parents/dp/1626251703/ref=nodl_
You are not alone, especially in this community. I spent many years of my childhood, teens, and early 20’s stuck in and off and on relationship of suffering with my biggest trigger, my mother. I have not spoken to her in 5 years and I don’t plan to ever again. My last therapist and one of my friends also shared their stories with me about cutting off communication with their own mothers.
If people tell you to suck it up and be the bigger person to help your relationship with your mom they are wrong. If people tell you well family is the most important thing they are wrong. If anyone family or not is toxic, or abusive in any type of way they have no right to remain apart of your life just because. Put yourself first, give yourself the right to hold other people accountable, and I hope you find a path to healing.
Would it annoy you if I suggested another book? I finished one the other day about how we can find our true purpose in life. That's the pathway to meaning and happiness. It was good! Take a look at it here maybe?
The Borderline Personality Disorder Workbook: An Integrative Program to Understand and Manage Your BPD (A New Harbinger Self-Help Workbook) https://www.amazon.com/dp/1684032733/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_i_TXDBJ6191TF4VM5AAF28?_encoding=UTF8&psc=1
You might find this book helpful with your current situation… Splitting: Protecting Yourself While Divorcing Someone with Borderline or Narcissistic Personality Disorder https://www.amazon.com/Splitting-Protecting-Borderline-Narcissistic-Personality-dp-1684036119/dp/1684036119
You can deal with indecisiveness if you know how your mind works. BEING ME BEING FREE explains everything with simple words and pictures. Change your thinking, change your life! Learn more here.
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complex post traumatic stress disorder. if your therapist isn’t licensed to diagnose, you should seek out a psychologist. how old are you? if you’re under eighteen, you have to meet the criteria for a year or long to qualify for a diagnosis, and even then, it’s hard to get diagnosed in your teens. in the mean time, since you do think the criteria fits you, look into borderline workbooks online. self diagnosing is harmful, but it’s not harmful at all to treat the symptoms you’re experiencing. https://www.amazon.com/Borderline-Personality-Disorder-Workbook-Integrative/dp/1684032733/ref=mp_s_a_1_1?crid=2OL6NNIQ9HVH2&keywords=borderline+personality+disorder+workbook&qid=1649261230&sprefix=borderline+pe%2Caps%2C81&sr=8-1 this is the book i use, approved by my therapist and easy to use at home. i also recommended this deck of cards, the person who made them also wrote a DBT workbook which i recommended checking out. i definitely wouldn’t do both workbooks at once, i think the one i linked is the best to start out with. https://www.amazon.com/Dialectical-Behavior-Therapy-Skills-Card/dp/1684033985/ref=mp_s_a_1_4?crid=2RSRXSM1UG6ZY&keywords=dbt+skills+cards&qid=1649261271&sprefix=dbt+skills+cards%2Caps%2C77&sr=8-4 the cards teach coping skills, and they’re also recommended by my therapist. they really help to have in crisis mode.
complex post traumatic stress disorder. if your therapist isn’t licensed to diagnose, you should seek out a psychologist. how old are you? if you’re under eighteen, you have to meet the criteria for a year or long to qualify for a diagnosis, and even then, it’s hard to get diagnosed in your teens. in the mean time, since you do think the criteria fits you, look into borderline workbooks online. self diagnosing is harmful, but it’s not harmful at all to treat the symptoms you’re experiencing. https://www.amazon.com/Borderline-Personality-Disorder-Workbook-Integrative/dp/1684032733/ref=mp_s_a_1_1?crid=2OL6NNIQ9HVH2&keywords=borderline+personality+disorder+workbook&qid=1649261230&sprefix=borderline+pe%2Caps%2C81&sr=8-1 this is the book i use, approved by my therapist and easy to use at home. i also recommended this deck of cards, the person who made them also wrote a DBT workbook which i recommended checking out. i definitely wouldn’t do both workbooks at once, i think the one i linked is the best to start out with. https://www.amazon.com/Dialectical-Behavior-Therapy-Skills-Card/dp/1684033985/ref=mp_s_a_1_4?crid=2RSRXSM1UG6ZY&keywords=dbt+skills+cards&qid=1649261271&sprefix=dbt+skills+cards%2Caps%2C77&sr=8-4 the cards teach coping skills, and they’re also recommended by my therapist. they really help to have in crisis mode.
Talking about BPD by Rosie Cappuccino.
Honestly, I've tried Workbooks, one entitled the BPD survival guide, and one named the big book of bpd... Rosie herself has bpd so the whole book is about her experiences of dealing with it/living with it as well as explaining the condition itself and I can genuinely say I have never felt so validated by a book. I carry it everywhere with me nowadays!
You DO have the ability to manage it, and you also have the right to feel like you don’t want to. You’ve just found out you have an insanely stigmatized mental illness that essentially makes every single aspect of your life difficult. It’s daunting. Please try and allow yourself to feel what you need to, but just know that you are still a person worthy of love, kindness, acceptance, all of it. You are not a burden.
Something I have learnt is communication is so important with bpd. When somebody does something to you that hurts you in any way, tell them. The longer you wait, you risk resentment completely taking over. I’ll attach a link for a DBT skill called “dear man.” Super helpful for learning how to phrase what you need from somebody without “attacking” them.
Radical acceptance by Tara Brach was a book that I found extremely helpful. It really did help me to just accept the things that have happened to me and I can’t change reality.
I don't know how to make links shorter sorry!
The Dialectical Behavior Therapy Skills Workbook by Matthew McKay on amazon has been very helpful for me and is affordable
https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1684034582/ref=cm_sw_r_apan_glt_i_JX7AYP59DQ71PZEK3JWQ
The Dialectical Behavior Therapy Skills Workbook: Practical DBT Exercises for Learning Mindfulness, Interpersonal Effectiveness, Emotion Regulation, and Distress Tolerance https://www.amazon.com/dp/1684034582/ref=cm_sw_r_wa_apan_glt_i_69P2CNMKPEFV0DQZV0QW
DBT® Skills Training Handouts and Worksheets, Second Edition https://www.amazon.com/dp/1572307811/ref=cm_sw_r_awdo_navT_g_TD4851VT32KNKNWM5N1Y
This is the one I have. If you get it, I would love if we can work on it together
Here are two good ones that my fiance uses:
The Everything Guide to... https://www.amazon.com/dp/1440529701?ref=ppx_pop_mob_ap_share
The Borderline Personality... https://www.amazon.com/dp/1684032733?ref=ppx_pop_mob_ap_share
Yes hanging around people who are negative, pessimistic, depressed, and/or toxic is often negative for mental health. It can lead to anxiety, depression. I see your flair and yes, depression can potentially lead into suicide. If those are your thoughts, you need to find help. Maybe a homeless shelter? Are you too young to have your own place?
In the meantime, a book like this one can maybe help you cope with what's boing on.
the dialectical behavior therapy skills workbook by matthew mckay is what im using in counseling now. haven’t used any others yet so i don’t have anything to compare it to. it’s just the one my counselor recommended. it’s pretty cheap on amazon
I hate the name of this book, I know it’s the series and it was kinda funny when it was pets for dummies or feng shui for dummies but I feel like when it deals with mental health they should go with something else. I hope the book is useful to you, and I’ve been curious about it myself, I just can’t stand the title. This book was very helpful to me The Borderline Personality Disorder Workbook: An Integrative Program to Understand and Manage Your BPD (A New Harbinger Self-Help Workbook) https://www.amazon.com/dp/1684032733/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_glt_i_EV494GKY38N942PVP5RT
I’ve been reading this today, very easy, maybe to simple, but validating and affirming Coping with BPD: DBT and CBT Skills to Soothe the Symptoms of Boderline Personality Disorder https://www.amazon.com/dp/1626252181/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_glt_fabc_9MJG181KG72A6AMKVRF2
I've enjoyed Coping with BPD. I appreciate the guidance it offers to manage symptoms that can seem unmanageable at times. Coping with BPD: DBT and CBT Skills to Soothe the Symptoms of Boderline Personality Disorder https://www.amazon.com/dp/1626252181/ref=cm_sw_r_awdo_navT_g_QK7WYPY35YCJQCS49WVB
I use the headspace app. I think it’s $70 for an annual subscription, but they have a way to access the material for free for unemployed people right now. https://www.headspace.com.
The main idea in their material is that you use different techniques to become more self-aware. The courses on acceptance and self-esteem were really helpful, and they’re teaching the same techniques in various ways so you really get to know them.
My partner tried to get me to meditate for years, and I just didn’t have the attention span for it on my own, but the app really helped. Now I can meditate on my own too.
I hope this helps!!
I'm glad to hear it's been a positive experience for you! The workbook I got was the skills one on Amazon by Matthew McKay, Jeffrey C. Wood, and Jeffrey Brantley (This one here: https://www.amazon.com/dp/1684034582?psc=1&ref=ppx_yo2_dt_b_product_details)
I've seen a plethora of posts on this subreddit about this type of Therapy, and this workbook in particular, and it has been recommended on websites as well. I'm hoping this'll be a majorly positive milestone for me to work with and get through to apply to my daily life as well.
Sorry! Of course I should have linked the book. As for DBT, I googled It and found It very interesting. I Will check It out. Thanks for the tip. Here's the link:
Asperger's and BPD both present on a spectrum — meaning they have different presentations. This book is going to be released January next year will be able to give us more info about what Complex BPD is:
Complex Borderline Personality Disorder: How Coexisting Conditions Affect Your BPD and How You Can Gain Emotional Balance https://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1684038553/ref=cm_sw_r_apan_glt_fabc_Y30D61X96Q02FWV7A7C0
>If you've been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder (BPD), or suspect that you might have it, you should know that not everyone experiences the condition in the same way. BPD actually manifests on a spectrum, and while some people may encounter extreme symptoms and consequences on one end, others may be less affected on the other. In addition, if you're struggling with other conditions-such as bipolar disorder, depression, psychotic symptoms, attention-deficit hyperactivity disorder (ADHD), post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), or Complex PTSD (C-PTSD)-you may have complex BPD (C-BPD), and may benefit from expanding your knowledge and building your skills, so you can seek out a symptom management plan that is tailored to your unique needs.
I got it from here: The Dialectical Behavior Therapy Skills Card Deck: 52 Practices to Balance Your Emotions Every Day https://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1684033985/ref=cm_sw_r_apan_glt_fabc_ECQ7J9XGG74ZPJTTPKS0?_encoding=UTF8&psc=1
>Why would I wish someone who hurt me to be happy and peaceful etc? It feels like that would mean that they are good and I am bad.
It said someone you dislike. So could just be someone you find rude or annoying. The whole of the exercise for people you dislike is to forgive them, not forget them. It means stopping them from being able to live inside your head, rent-free. It means letting go of grudges and learning ways to assert our human rights diplomatically.
Think of it as a means of "binding" them. Visualise this person's mind all tied up and unable to harm you because you can deploy a force field at will. And that force field is the resilience you are building in your life. That resilience are reasons that make your life worth living. That first reason? Because you love yourself.
I hope that helps. I'm not wealthy either. One tip I can give is to start watching the YouTube channel of Dr. Daniel J. Fox. There are also books on Amazon. Most of us here started DBT with this green DBT book: The Dialectical Behavior Therapy Skills Workbook: Practical DBT Exercises for Learning Mindfulness, Interpersonal Effectiveness, Emotion Regulation, and Distress Tolerance https://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1684034582/ref=cm_sw_r_apan_glt_fabc_CCBQEGBGH484WCZDRPZ6
Buddhist here. I teach meditation on the side.
Emptiness means (everything and) nothing contains anything else, in-and-of-itself.
Like if I throw a chair onto a fire, the chair doesn't cease to exist because it's ash now, it never existed outside of an assigned concept of "chairness." There was wood, and some of that wood made legs and a seat, but ... chair is just a concept.
If I'm walking up a really long flight of stairs, there isn't a chair, but when I'm tired enough, I'll still end up sitting and some of those steps become a chair.
Or if my girlfriend is on the couch, and I sit in her lap, that's a chair.
We can argue "what makes a chair" but the inherent chair*ness* isn't a thing. There is no irreducible chair. It's a label we put on and take off.
That you can put on, and take off most (really all) labels means nothing is anything in-and-of-itself.
Being able to apply the technique in real-time means:
* I can turn enemies into friends.
* I can turn bad situations into good situations.
* Stuff I need, I can just want.
* I can generally find happiness a lot easier.
Rob Burbea wrote a book on this called "Seeing that Frees: Meditations on Emptiness and Dependent Origination."
I've recently been diagnosed with BPD and bought this book, it's helped a lot to understand
CBT didn't work for me
DBT is the treatment used for BPD and whilst waiting for therapy I've bought this book
I hope it helps you
IMO yes indeed. Get a copy of Sharon Ekleberry's book and read the chapters on both of them. What we describe here when we get into moaning about our FPs and other significant relationships is way Histrionic according the the DSM IV.
DBT Skills Training Handouts and Worksheets by Marsha M Linehan is THE BOOK on DBT. She is the founder of DBT and wrote the manual on it. The worksheets out of this book are used in individual or group therapy.
There are other books on DBT, but they are all about this book.
https://www.amazon.com/dp/1572307811/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_apa_glc_i_RA35NYSNZ35J1Q5309Q0
Yes! I so relate. I think that is what makes BPD so painful. We see our behaviour, how it hurts others, and the pain it causes us but it is a very instinctual reaction that takes time to change. It takes reprogramming the brain. Its almost like a TBI in that we have such a small amount of control over our emotions initially. And we have a lot of negative self perception. I have used this book and it is great.
https://www.amazon.ca/dp/1684034582/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_apa_i_1TGJKJ3J9GMEYB0HMVF2
There is also a great sub for it r/DBT.
Hmm. Look into Codependents Anonymous meetings and CoDA's "big blue book." Go to a few different meetings yourself to get a sense of which ones might be best for dad if he will go with you to them.
He might also respond to a beginner level book like Melody Beattie's famed Codependent No More, but only if he is pretty solidly at the third stage.
I can help maybe!
I bought this book on Amazon where you write 100 things you love about the other person. You're supposed to fill it in and give it as a gift, but every few days we fill out the page with our answer for the other person. That way I can always go back and get all the validation I need!
I haven’t used it myself, but I’ve heard wonderful things about this. Could be a good place to start.
The Borderline Personality Disorder Workbook: An Integrative Program to Understand and Manage Your BPD (A New Harbinger Self-Help Workbook) https://www.amazon.com/dp/1684032733/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_i_TL3NFbDB4V5H3
Is this the one you’re referring to? My GF has BPD and I was thinking about buying her the one OP posted, but her psychiatrist said she needs to do Dialectical Behavior Therapy so I was thinking that might be better. I’m not sure now though
So, I'd recommend reading these two. The DBT one is more of a workbook and should ideally be done with the support of a DBT-trained therapist, though I became familiar with the concept (and therefore self-started on the Skills) by way of the second book referral. The second I found immensely helpful in putting words to how I was feeling and being able to articulate for the first time the swirl in my head.
Yep - I had therapists laugh it off for years. I sought out a therapist trained in DBT using the Behavior Tech (the institute founded by Marsha Linehan) index. https://behavioraltech.org/resources/find-a-therapist/. I found names in my area, then researched the therapists on PsychologyToday.com to figure out their backgrounds + if they took my insurance.
Once I got set up with someone, she recommended reading The Buddha and the Borderline (www.amazon.com/dp/157224710X) - which was so eye opening and allowed me to better define/articulate what I was feeling to enable us to dig into my head.
I've also been using the DBT Skills Workbook on my own (I'll start using it in therapy too shortly) and have found it so incredibly helpful - I've never read something that just 'clicked' like DBT has for me. (www.amazon.com/dp/1572307811) They also provide a link within the book where you can download/print worksheets so you can do them multiple times to help build the muscle memory for the tip/tool.
Two recommendations:
1) www.amazon.com/dp/157224710X - Found this enlightening to read and gave me a way to articulate the storm of emotions under the surface, which I've never been able to do before.
2) www.amazon.com/dp/1572307811 - This is the workbook used in DBT Skills trainings. While I'm not in a proper Skills group (but may start soon), I've found it useful to read through and have started using some of the worksheets as I feel anxiety/fear start to hit.
Personally, I have really benefited from the book I found at Barnes and Noble. Found a link on amazon for you. Coping with BPD: DBT and CBT Skills to Soothe the Symptoms of Borderline Personality Disorder https://www.amazon.com/dp/1626252181/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_i_qr0pFb3GHDK19
It definitely helps to at least be aware of the fact that you’re impulsively buying. I just started to realize that’s what I’ve been doing and knowing alone has made me consider a little harder before pulling the trigger sometimes.
I also recommend getting this book kind of helps me get through the days where the grief is overwhelming
I would recommend two books, and highly recommend to look for a few more.
This book has changed my life and several friends, all with varying disorders. Saved my best friend from bulimia, helped my husband greatly with BDP, and my brother come out of meth addiction. Man's Search for Meaning https://www.amazon.com/dp/0807014273/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_i_RcS3CbEF3R10K
This is to work through BPD and I know it’ll help you define if that’s what’s going on: Skills Training Manual for Treating Borderline Personality Disorder https://www.amazon.com/dp/0898620341/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_i_pbS3Cb2EDVHH8
You should definitely seek out a therapist. Be empowered to call places locally. It’s so great to figure out what’s going on, especially early.
Sure it’s on amazon.
The Dialectical Behavior Therapy Skills Workbook: Practical DBT Exercises for Learning Mindfulness, Interpersonal Effectiveness, Emotion Regulation & ... (A New Harbinger Self-Help Workbook) https://www.amazon.com/dp/1572245131/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_i_otWxCb7EEA0S5