Not sure if you've still got a bit of that passion knocking about, but the modern version of cakewalk is now free: https://www.bandlab.com/products/cakewalk
It's a great time to get into producing music
If anyone is interested, there's an interactive fiction named "When the Sun Went Down" in "Choices That Matter" by Tin Man Games and it's a pretty cool choices game!
https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=au.com.tinmangames.choices
https://apps.apple.com/us/app/choices-that-matter/id1004909104
You mean like this?
Lmao at least you're self-aware.
You do know that they make controllers that are compatible with emulators though right? Get something like this and you'd be playing like the olden days in no time.