Try to get a sponsorship for your new name from some company like sign a contract and have your name as Raid shadow legends, NordVPN or Gfuel and that company has to pay you a monthly royalty income or something like that 😌🙌
Your English is great! <3
I definitely understand your confusion. Here's something that really helped me understand my feelings: am I a lesbian
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If you are romantically or sexually attracted to women there is sapphist - and then there's the WLW (woman loving woman). I found a list here but it includes terms I'm sure are disagreeable.
My favorite was a religious lesbian since my first church was Presbyterian - lesbyterian
Here’s a good post (nsfw but has serious advice): https://www.pillowfort.social/posts/607287
Consider counseling with an LGBT-friendly therapist, or just talk to more out LGBT people. Sounds like you have shame and fears about your same-sex attraction (very common). I did too and had to grapple with that in order to know what attraction I felt from within, versus what I was trying to think or feel to avoid or minimize my same-sex attraction before I was comfortable with it. This isn’t easy.
Keep seeking out help, including offline from other LGBT people.