You’re not stupid. That’s a freaky situation and it’s perfectly normal to be flustered while trying to think of solutions.
Alternatively, you could use one of these to block your door. Master Lock 265D Door Security Bar, Pack of 1, White https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0002YUX8I/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_glt_fabc_DRC4PY6BR28AKADVVZFW
Good beginners books on astrology are the Only Way to Learn Astrology series and Lilly's <em>Christian Astrology</em>.
For tasseography, look at Tea-Cup Reading. I'd avoid books post-1970 because they tend to mix in new or generic symbolism in with tasseography's traditional set (which is different from other types of divination).
I much prefer the little USB diffuser/humidifiers so I can put just a tiny drop of oil - or none, sometimes I just use unscented mist. I just went to find the pleasantly spooky color-changing tree design one I use but stumbled across this...astronaut llama? I mean, no incense can match that.
Svartkonstböcker: A Compendium of the Swedish Black Art Book Tradition
This is a very good book drawing directly from the black books of Sweden (you may also buy it directly from the Revelore Press site). It translates quite a few in their entirety. In the vein of Norse/Scandinavian black book tradition, there’s also Trolldom, Galdrabok, Black Books of Elverum, Two Icelandic Books of Magic, Rún - Galdrabok, Icelandic Magic (the Christopher Smith book, NOT the Stephen Flowers book), Sorcerer’s Screed, and a few others, if you keep looking. Google these titles and you’ll find them just fine. These things are very similar in scope and aim as the Swedish books you are looking for, and some of them dive quite heavily into magical staves and their uses.
As for witchesvspatriarchy, I would not expect to get any tangible magical advice from there. The majority of the users of that sub tend to use the image of the witch as a feminist icon, rather than actually practice the craft. Their choice, but it can be kind of confusing for those seeking to learn the actual craft.
As a way to show his support in my recent decision to study and practice the craft, my husband researched for almost an entire day to get me books he felt I’d enjoy as a birthday gift.
He even knows I can’t really practice hoodoo but got it for me so I can just learn about it. We live in Louisiana which was a major factor in his choice of books.
These books also lead me to the discovery of another book that piqued my interest which I’ve just ordered.
Folk Witchcraft: A Guide to Lore, Land, and the Familiar Spirit for the Solitary Practitioner https://www.amazon.com/dp/1790994209/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_i_MPqvFbSCQ1C60
If anyone has read this book please let me know what you think!
If you want something distinctively American. My mother in law grew up in Clay Country WVA. When I read this I asked her if she ever saw or heard of the practices described in the book (while calling it folk tradition rather than the craft ) and she confirmed that she knew many people who practiced this type of woods magic.
https://www.amazon.com/Backwoods-Witchcraft-Conjure-Magic-Appalachia/dp/1578636531/ref=nodl_
The Silva organization very much comes across as a MLM scheme. I have his book The Silva Mind Control Method
There is some good content in there but it’s pretty basic. Most of the book is anecdotes that up talk the process, its origins, and its creator as if he’s trying to sell you something (because he is).
If you’re a beginner and/or struggle with a meditation practice and you can find that book on the cheap I do recommend. I still use some of the techniques, or methods derived from them in my own practice. However, I wouldn’t pay for courses, book series, workshops, seminars or any of the other nonsense they maybe trying to sell. I suspect they’re reframing the same set of simple manifestation techniques and selling them over and over.
the power of psalms great great book
An excellent book I recently read is calledHex Twisting it deals with all things in counter magic, reversals, breaking hexes and the like. I’m a longtime practitioner and often find many books too simplified or beginner oriented but this one is fantastic. Lots of good info in it.
I'm not sure if it was Amy Cesari's Coloring Book of Shadows becausethis is one off Amazon, but it sounds similar! I had it in 2021, but wanted something more customized after that. Great little book though! Looks like she has a 2023 one. Excuse my terrible link:
You're basically putting the same stuff into your jar, but smaller amounts. You can find tinny glass jars at dollar stores, craft stores or online. They can come in different shapes and sizes, but tend to come with a cork top. If you get a cork, You should properly seal it with glue or wax. Or both.
Someone mentioned the book is named Llewellyn’s almanac, and I would assume the version is the 2022 one, as this is a sort of daily spell-work calendar.
Here's an Amazon link to it, it's a bit pricey so I'd reckon you'd be better off getting the almanac for next year
There are books out there that will actually walk you through the process of shadow work. Details aren't provided in comments like this because the topic is too complicated and too personal.
Here is one such book you might consider: https://www.amazon.com/Dark-Moon-Mysteries-Wisdom-Shadow/dp/0738747211
I practice more than one kind of automatic writing - I do asemic text, which is often called "light language" in spiritual/new age circles. It's automatic writing in a language that can't be deciphered rationally.
There is also automatic writing in language that is intelligible, and is discussed in-depth in this book: https://www.amazon.com.au/Automatic-Writing-Experience-AWE-Meditative-ebook/dp/B0847TSW4H
The way I do both is to pray in tongues and then record what comes to mind. When I write light language, I just pray in tongues and start - and it just flows. It's actually quite hard to explain as it's intuitive, and you have to just try it.
Witchcraft is very diversified. Yes there are folk that do satanic rituals, but note Christian folk do magic rituals too. When a Christian prays over someone it's equivalent to enchanting the person or administering a blessing ritual. Rituals and magic are a part of many cultures.
If you want to get into nature magic, I highly suggest the book Earth Power by Scott Cunningham.
Also note there is always an exchange when it comes to magic (Or life in general usually). Nothing's free. And as a newb, don't do any blood magic. The cost is your life essence.
You don't need any tools to start practicing. The most powerful tools you have are your mind and energy. Intent plays a humongous role in magic. See how words alone are able to affect something physical, such as water in this book "The hidden messages in water".
Best of luck to you
Hi friend. Yes, lunar magic is definitely a thing; and I would definitely bet that someone somewhere (most likely plenty of people) has identified as a lunar witch or moon witch. More important is what that phrase would mean to you and your identity should you choose such a path.
Most of it has to do with following the lunar phases; and there are thousands of interpretations as to what they represent. In very very vague terms that are in no way indicative of all the potential belief systems out there;
-new moons are when you set you intentions and goals or do any cleansing magick,
-waxing moons are for working toward you goals,
-full moons are for completing projects, or celebrating accomplishments, or any big time spells and ritual or charging magick.
-waning moons are for rest and recuperation, or preparing for the next cycle.
Again, you'll find all sorts of methods and traditions that use the cycles differently. Another one I like is waxing moons are for personal projects and self care, while waning moons are for projects done for others and taking care of others. (Projects here can mean the literal sense of the word or any kind of magicks.)
I suggest the book Moon Magic, it's a great introduction to basic lunar cycle stuff and magickal practices, with example spells and rituals and such. It's what got me doing magick with lunar cycles.
Good luck on your journey!
Although you will not get a diploma this way, you could (try to) study these things from (pirated) educational resources. You can find almost all books for free at places like z-lib.org or libgen, including manuals.
some places to start (books that I use in my formal pharmacy education) are:
Junqueira's Basic Histology;
Human Physiology: An Integrated Approach (Pearson);
Medicinal Natural Products: A biosynthetic approach (Dewick); (this one can directly tie in well with practices of witchcraft)
Lehninger Principles of Biochemistry;
Rang and Dale's Pharmacology;
Microbiology with Diseases by Body System (Bauman);
Herbal Drugs and Phytopharmaceuticals: A Handbook for Practice on a Scientific Basis (Wichtl); (again, ties in with herbalist practice)
Principles and Practice of Infectious Disease (Mandell, Bennett, Douglas);
Drugs of Natural Origin - a treatise of Pharmacognosy (Samuelsson, Bohlin); (also ties in with herbalism);
One of the most important things to learn is to recognise which medications cannot be taken together; for example, NSAID's and ACE inhibitors, when taken at the same time, can lead to renal insufficiency; St. Johns Wort also interferes with a lot of other medication.
Individual scientific papers can usually be accessed for free using scihub.
https://www.amazon.com/You-Are-Badass%C2%AE-Doubting-Greatness/dp/0762447699
You are a Badass by Jen Sincero has some good spells in it for this sort of situation. Other than that, sounds like a banishing ritual is in order.
Now, there are those who would say to take a bath in salt water or to do the Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram and those are all very well and good. Personally though I think you should arrange for something that is a bit more of an ordeal. Witches these days make things too easy for themselves and forget that the energy you put into a spell is what makes it work.
You need something like a road trip or a quest. Show yourself that you can still trust yourself. Go to a riverside you've never been to before, picture what kind of god governs that river. Read the god a poem, explain what you're wishing for (as in the post above) and leave an offering. Honestly, not a jar full of pee and nails and whatnot. People recommend that, and I absolutely do not. Bake a cake, leave it for the birds. Something like that. Preferably at dawn on the night of a full moon after you've stayed up all night. That's maximum effort! Or if not a cake then a doll that represents your old self.
Was he a narcissist? Were you one of his flying monkeys? If he made you feel other than like a whole human being, represent that in the ritual. Only leave the part you don't want behind.
The Un-Spell Book: Energy Essentials for Mastering Magick https://www.amazon.com/dp/073872338X/ref=cm_sw_r_apan_glt_fabc_7328PS0AFGS689ZPD4WR
This book is all about energy manipulation without spell components. It's awesome. I really recommend it.
Cats and altars are a THING. I have two cats, one of whom is 7 months old, the other about to turn 4. Because my aesthetic is more solarpunk than cottagecore, I have an enclosed altar where I store small spell components and my "active" spells. Also important to note that I don't ever use open flames because, after some particularly horrible fires in the area I'm Real Done with the scent of smoke. So I don't need to accommodate real candles in my practice.
I painted the white plastic with alcohol inks in a galaxy sort of pattern--didn't come out perfectly but I like it well enough.
Good book to reference involving friendship/ relationship spells (not love but I guess you can do love. Idk I don't do love spells lol)
Protection Spells: Clear Negative Energy, Banish Unhealthy Influences, and Embrace your power by Arin Murphy Hiscock (this one is so good with reputation and just personal issues. Has a lot of good ideas)
I would also recommend Runes: theory and practice by Galina Krasskova. It’s an excellent practical perspective for an aspiring Vitki
Drawing a Tarot deck is a lengthy endeavor, it took me a couple of years to make the Silicon Dawn deck. If your drawings are simpler it could take less time but it’s still a big working, and you might want to consider casting a few spells to make a decent deck fall into your hands, or to be in a financial place where thirty bucks is no longer a big deal.
A Tarot deck is 4 suits of 14 cards each (ace to ten, king queen knight page) and 22 Trumps (see Wikipedia’s list). You could get two decks of playing cards and write the names of the Arcana on 22 cards from the second one, sure. You could find some light cardboard and cut it up and start drawing, too. Or you could spend thirteen bucks plus shipping and get the Smith-Waite deck off of Amazon...
check out Under the Bramble Branch. The same author has a similar book about tree lore and uses.
Set fire to anything by Silver Ravenwolf. Her books are trash.
I feel like a "Do Not Read" blacklist would also be beneficial to the list you're building. I think what you're doing is a fantastic idea!
I don't read often but there's one I will swear by! (and I wish I could find my copy ;-;)
I think it's still in print but I'm unsure. Here's an Amazon link with more info!
The Golden Bough (though problematic in a lot of ways) is a great observation of European pagan customs from the perspective of turn of the 20th century white guy anthropology. I found it for free using a pdf search but it's also available via abebooks and Powell's. And 99c for Kindle if you want to go the Amazon route
This might be a personal bugbear but I'm finding a lot of information about witchcraft and pagan practices on the internet are wrong but but are still perpetuated by popular Tumblrs. (Don't get me started on Ostara.)
I would wipe down the walls and space with salt water. If you have carpet, maybe sprinkle some fine sea salt and vacuum it up. I would also burn some juniper leaves and/or berries and some elder flowers. Juniper is good for purifying and protecting a space from intrusion and elder flower (any elder) is good to protect from intrusion, too. There's a bottle spell where, if you layer two colors of sand in a bottle and then seal it and bury it by the front door (or a big pot if you live in an apartment) and that will draw and earth any energies sent to you. (It's in the below book. It's Wiccan, but good for beginners).
Is it 3 AM on the dot, or does it vary? Are you normally awake or asleep at that time? Have you cast any spells that might attract the attention of spirits? Have you asked the gods for any signs? Are you involved in ancestor worship? Is it a tingly burning feel, like when a limb wakes up from being "asleep" or is it more a burning hot fire? Do you feel like you're in an oven or running a fever? Is it a heat from outside or from inside? Have any of the other practitioners living with you experienced it? Have they tried to summon any spirits?
Earth, Air, Fire & Water: More Techniques of Natural Magic (Llewellyn's Practical Magick) https://www.amazon.com/dp/0875421318/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_apa_i_.DTFDbMXCZX9W
Edit: I was reading through your post history (not sure if it's bad reddiquette to mention) and the post about the territorial caster stuck out. And the left hand path, but somehow it doesn't seem to suit this instance as much. If you're living with them or on their "claimed territory" that may have something to do with it. I know people that get very territorial about the space they have warded. I do. That may have a part to do with this. If you think so too, I can go further into it, but I don't want to focus on that if it's not a factor.