Damn, that sucks. You might consider taking up a sport to get out of the house. I used to have a somewhat-similar, but not quite as bad, problem until I took up rowing and cross-country. It got me out of the house a lot more. Even get a job if you can to show responsibility and get your parents off your back.
You also might not want to fight your mom. Speaking from my own experience, moms can wage a war of attrition for as long as they want and there's no way of winning.
Also it sounds like you've basically hit a point of learned helplessness. where you basically just think 'this is the way it is, it sucks but it's not changing.' Try to change something to get out of that state.
Hey baby boo- lol. Have you tried using running socks? Can't guarantee you wont get holes in them. But they may last a lil longer. I'm sure you can find deals online. But for the sake of sharing the brand. Here are some from Amazon:
Amazon.com : Balega Blister Resist No Show Running Socks For Men and Women (1 Pair), Black/Red, Large : Gateway https://www.amazon.com/Balega-Blister-Resist-Socks-Women/dp/B01GJNDWRY
Look into this book and see if it might make sense for you. https://www.amazon.com/Psycho-Cybernetics-Updated-Expanded-Maxwell-Maltz/dp/0399176136/ref=nodl_?dplnkId=4f910a67-32eb-4e9f-911d-9264b626b07c
Have you ever heard of the book Why Does He Do That?
Fantastic read. Might give you some insight into his behavior. Hopefully enough for you to leave him.
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Honestly I don’t think you’d have that much trouble. I’m a pro game dev artist and I’ve worked with a lot of the best game concept artists. I think you should connect with them and push your work farther. Commissions of other people’s characters is beneath your skill level. Add a marionette or even a pose-able 3d model for reference to get the proportions and anatomy and poses dialed in and you’re like 99% there, the rest is just musculature stuff that isn’t all that hard to get one sorted with some real human references like dancers and fighters and body builders and a book or two. Get this book and join some artstation and discord groups for concept art. Don’t work for college kids, make the next big video game character! The boss enemy! https://www.amazon.com/Artistic-Anatomy-Great-French-Classic/dp/0823002977
I can relate, my father was much the same way, but my mother evened it out. I don't have Lupus, but I have a friend who had a similar thing to you where their auto immune system attacked itself and he has a lot of trouble if he get's sick. But, he pushes through, and so will you. I'm sure of that. As for weight, brother or sister, I can relate to that. Been overweight most of my life and have been alone a good portion of it. I've always been isolated and was an outcast in school. Here's the thing I've learned, and I hope it helps you now, as it probably would have if I had heard it, and been able to go with it when I were younger.
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Don't worry about your weight. Be yourself. Be the you, you want to be. You have a choice in the matter, and I know it's hard, and it's something that sounds easier than it's done, but you can do it. The only one holding you back, is you. You don't need to worry about your weight, take a risk, ask the person you have affection for, or feel a connection with out, or if they want to hang out. Have a friend come over and play a game or binge a show, and if you're nervous but live in a metropolitan area, check out meetup.com, I live in New Jersey, but I found a bunch of groups in the New York City area and had a lot of fun with the people there, some of which I'm aquantited with on Facebook even though I haven't gone to a meetup in some time.
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The world isn't as ugly as it seems. It is much more open now, and receptive now than it used to be. I know that for a fact through all the people I've worked with. I know how much it can hurt to feel alone, and how much it does hurt. I know what it's like to experience something and wish someone was there with you. Someone you loved. Don't let your weight hold you back. Don't let fear and doubt defeat you. Push them to the side, and strike up some conversations, I think you'll find people will be open to you.
Yes go read it. My post history should make it easier to identify my species(both genders male and female we operate like a hive mind. We're identically essentially. The only difference with the female side is slightly different approach it's more of a "I won't break up with you you'll have to break up with me and progressively pussy whipping you into oblivion) cause people like me exist and are a lot more common then you'd think. We are the majority. It's not 1% of the population it's like 40%. Difference is they just hide it and I don't. The guy most likely to be me in your life is your male best friend. The only reason you a woman have a straight male best friend is because he is waiting for the exact opportunity you either super drunk or are vulnerable and he's going to have his way with you. That is the reason he's putting up with your shit. He has one goal and that is to fuck your pussy. Others would be the community leader praising good deeds. The church pastor. Your academic Professor teaching physics. Your surgeon who's about to cut open your brain. The guy who's a little too friendly and likeable in elevator and you just met him seconds ago. If you need a full concise guide an it all read this book: Gift of Fear by Gavin de Beck.
this book was recommended by my therapist in high school, it helps teach you to be assertive without being standoffish. It can help give a lot of new perspectives. I don’t know who hurt you but don’t let them win by losing yourself
this book was recommended by my therapist in high school, it helps teach you to be assertive without being standoffish. It can help give a lot of new perspectives. I don’t know who hurt you but don’t let them win by losing yourself
Neutrogena is a decent price you can buy at most drug stores, they sell a wash, scrub and spray. If you dont want the added fragrances or colors (I like more all natural stuff) I looked on Amazon and this product (https://www.amazon.com/dp/B012A7KYME/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_apa_glt_fabc_D71NWA8J2EGQ3SG5G9ZH?_encoding=UTF8&psc=1) doesn't have unneeded junk in it, a little more pricey though. I only use acids and serums on my face now cause I stopped getting back acne after 30, sorry I dont have any personal recommendations of brands. Wouldnt hurt to see a dermatologist though and get their opinion.
Self-talk is actually huge! I read an article as a teenager that said you should walk into a room naked and “own the room”, and I’ve had that in my head for a long time since. Remind yourself of what makes you awesome (and you are awesome, you just wrote a research paper on why you’ll never have a gf lol), I actually might recommend this book called What Really Helps about mindfulness because of how much of an effect it’s had on me. It’s a pretty quick read and not too heavy, but helps you take a step back and appreciate yourself for you. And most people think less of themselves than you think, so sometimes I look at strangers and go “flaw shopping” to remind myself that all of us are works in progress. You’re not perfect, and nobody else is either, but you can find people who are good for you and with you by appreciating your awesomeness and looking for and finding it in others!
This might work, Or change the door knob Maybe a wedge at the door