I’ve flown several times with my methadone bottles, I recommend getting this if you still have time as that’s what I used when traveling and they honestly never even asked me to open it up and I’ve flown international twice and domestic 4 times. Also you can use it as your lockbox for the clinic as well! But definitely keep them on you at all times. I store mine underneath the seat in front of me right by my feet and made sure they are upright.
For reference the Cinnamon is the ingredient mentioned a lot in Vitadone that’s supposed to help with sweating (that isn’t in a typical multivitamin). It’s listed as Cinnamon Bark Powder on the label which is the same thing in someone’s spice cabinet. Can buy capsules filled with cinnamon from most nutrition shops and even Walmart. Walmart Spring Valley brand should be available in most stores and will be a lot cheaper than Vitadone.
I got pretty bad stomach aches trying the cinnamon capsules.. couldn’t continue. I didn’t try Vitadone but take a few supplements that cover the ingredients in Vitadone that make sense.
Link for Vitadone on Amazon: https://www.amazon.com/Vitadone-Mulitvitamin-Methadone-Patients-Regularity/dp/B00B8UHEQY
Link for Cinnamon capsules at Walmart: https://www.walmart.com/ip/Spring-Valley-Cinnamon-Dietary-Supplement-1000-mg-400-Count/294685774
Methadone makes me sweat like a whore in church.
My tactics include carrying a bandana everywhere in my back pocket, and if I want to really feel good and look like an absolute fool, I use this over the neck dual face fan contraption. Link below:
https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0893WXFWX/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_apa_glt_fabc_6JSJEYYDRAZ19A4R20PD
It does work from my understanding (as in, they are real vitamins, and they help with the sweats), but it's a bit bullshit they target addicts with their silly vitamins that are basically normal vitamins that can be had for cheaper. What specifically are you thinking of taking it for?
Their amazon listing has an ingredients list. A multi-vitamin containing most of those things can almost certainly be had for a couple DOLLARS, instead of thirty.
If it's the sweats you are looking for help with, the ingredient in vitadone that probably helps is the cinnamon. You can find cinnamon tablets in your vitamin aisle much cheaper than that also.
I would look at black seed oil. It’s a bit gnarly (taste wise), but so is kava. I just read a clinical study on the use of black seed oil for opioid withdrawals posted in thr r/opiatesrecovery subreddit. You may be able to find it and take a read. They dosed patients (all active male heroin users) with 500 mg black seed oil capsules (ground/pulverized seeds) 3x per day and patients had a dramatic response in regards to withdrawals. Worth a shot. I don’t know about it’s calming effects bc the researchers in this study did have to give some participants 5 mg of Valium for sleep, but apparently it was effective at mitigating the worst withdrawal symptoms.
Kava, in my experience can work for some, but not for others and long term use can damage your liver. ashwagandha is another herb that is very good for its calming effects and can be purchased at health food stores.
Here’s the link to that study: Study concluding Black Seed oil as a viable option in treating opiate dependence
To stop the issue with the shower, buy a fan. I was exactly the same coming out the shower, so I'd get out the shower, dry, then sit in front of a fan for 15 minutes and the sweat would disappear. Also, when you start feeling like you're gonna sweat, run your wrists under a cold tap for a while. It calms you down and reduces the risk of a sweat outbreak.
If Oxybutynin doesn't work, have you ever tried Sweat Block wipes? They're from Amazon and they're incredible. I had mild sweat issues when I was on heroin and I worked in an office, so it was kind of awkward. I tried these and they worked perfectly. They literally stopped the sweat in the area you wanted. You can also buy deodorant and other products from them and they work amazingly.
If you want a more drastic option, Botox in the problem area completely stops sweating.
This is the best scar cream on the market in my opinion. It’s a bit pricey but it’s what plastic surgeons use for their patients/work. I had two serious knee surgeries. First one I had a total of 48 staples for two incisions that were about 6” long each. And another one that cut open the same scar on my inner knee. After two operations that scar was nasty. Used this cream, started at the beginning of summer and by the end it was almost gone.
Look, all I am saying is that you are very reactive and that is not helping your anxiety. When you feel these thoughts building up? Get a pen and paper and write some of your thoughts down. Write down the pros and cons of the situation. Take a break from thinking about it by doing something else.
But getting off methadone, not getting off methadone - that’s not going to solve your primary issue, which is that your anxiety is out of control because your thoughts are out of control. Until you learn to regulate your thoughts, to challenge irrational thoughts, to talk yourself back from the edge - you’re going to continue to suffer :( taking a benzodiazepine medication like Xanax or others may temporarily blunt your anxiety but it is not going to fix the fundamental problem of your thoughts being disordered. Google “disordered thinking”. Search Amazon for “DBT workbooks anxiety” or “CBT workbook anxiety”, purchase one, and use it. Call therapists and specifically look for one that works with anxiety, Dialectical Behavioral Therapy (DBT!, cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT) and mindfulness. Search amazon for a “mindfulness journal” and use it. This is the one I am currently using but you may find one that serves you better. Don’t save this advice to look back at it later; your life is happening right now. You are suffering right now. And any small step you can make to start to learn how to regulate your own emotions now will only benefit you in the long run.
You seem to think methadone is the cause of your anxiety. It is not. Anyone who has had even a brief exposure to CBT/DBT can see the disorder thinking in all of your posts. You need to be tackling these issues simultaneously or you are only setting yourself up to fail.
Here is nutridone which you can buy at Amazon. 4.2 out of 5 star rating. Which is a pretty decent rating. Its made specifically for patients on methadone. It worked well for me and others at my clinic. I dont take that particular one anymore because i dont have any side effects or symptoms because i am so close to being off of methadone.
I do however take the generic woman's multi vitamin from wal-mart or wherever and i have had no problems either.
If your early in your treatment and having side effects, Nutridone is definitely your best bet. Before I started using it, I would be super sweaty just vacuuming the house..lol.
Our clinic highly recommended people try it so I did and i was very happy with the results. Definitely was worth the money.
Here is where you find it: https://www.amazon.com/Covenant-Nutritional-Supplements-Nutridone-1/dp/B00VKVOPVS/ref=sr_1_3_a_it?ie=UTF8&qid=1533232956&sr=8-3&keywords=Covenant+Nutritional+Supplements
Learning from your mistakes makes them not mistakes at all but learning experience to equip you for the journey and battles ahead. I have faith in you. Just from reading your writings on here getting a glimpse into your resolve I can tell that you WILL succeed. Stay conscious and listen to your body and soul. You should read. Eckhart Tolle's A New Earth and also The Power Of Now have been like a Bible to my atheist/agnostic ass. I've also dived into my new all time favorite book called Sapiens a brief history of human kind. Knowledge is power and can help still the mind in your moments of weekness. Best of luck to you my brother, keep on keeping because you definitely deserve it. Much love.
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Check out the comment I made above to OP regarding Nexium and PPIs in general. You guys might be really severe cases that it is justified for, but if you can control it with anything else you might consider it. Nexium and all the drugs in the same class as it is now associated with increased risk of a wide range of horrible things, including dementia. Here's an article on it:
https://www.webmd.com/heartburn-gerd/news/20160608/proton-pump-inhibitor-health-risks#1
You can do it yourself pretty easily. Milligram scales are cheap as hell today. $30/$50 scale with some small scalpels/ scooping tools, with some basic math let’s you divide a small pill that may weigh 100 or 200mg into 100 parts if you desired. No pill I’ve ever heard of is too small for the technique. The math can get confusing if you don’t write it down since you are dealing with two weights… the weight of the pill and the weight/amount of drug in that pill.
Example scale: https://www.amazon.ca/Smart-Weigh-GEM20-Precision-Milligram/dp/B00ESHDGOI/
This is the exact lock box I have it fits 27 bottles all upright no problem. And it’s not crazy expensive, I actually found mine at Office Depot so if you have those around you check there first. But if not here’s a amazon link to it. You could also check Staples if you don’t have Office Depots.
Just to add it actually fits 54 bottles if you stack the second month on the first one. I had 2 months worth of bottles to return last month due to a mix up at the clinic. And I tested to see if it would fit 2 months.
There are meds for swearing yes, so definitely ask! People report cinnamon tablets help if you take them daily. People also say vitadone but I think it’s a bit overpriced. You could get the same vitamins by checking the ingredients and they contain cinnamon also which probably helps.
Split dosing might help, it never hurts to try and see!
That said, have you tried one of those cooling vests? They are like ice packs you wear under your clothes. Here is one example from amazon but they aren’t all quite that expensive. If you search “cooling vest” on amazon or google, a ton of options should come up. That’s what I’d go for if I had a strenuous job!
Also make sure you wear light clothing but check the fabrics. Blended fabrics and stuff like polyester is going to make you hotter, whereas clothes that are 100% cotton or linen will be the coolest options.
I did notice the sweating for me improved with time the longer I’ve been on methadone. However I definitely do get sweaty still a little, it’s just not nearly as bad as it was in the beginning.
You’ll be fine. I’ve flown international and domestic and never had an issue with up to 22 bottles. I got a tsa approved lock carry bag from amazon which was pretty cool and now use it as my carry/take home bag/box. Here’s a link to it. They have never even asked me to open it for them and I always have it with me at all times in my carry on because I’m OCD about the bottles being upright.
I’d also suggest synthetic or use a 100% for sure sample from someone you know who doesn’t use anything. Sadly synthetic urine was banned in California and it’s been banned in some other states, but seems lotta people go for QuickFix if they can get it: https://quickfixurine.com/product/quick-fix-synthetic-urine-plus/
Temperature is the only ‘hard’ part. Keeping the bottle next to my scrotum seems to work well for me. No heating pads or hand warmers required. The synthetic stuff comes with an appropriate bottle for that purpose with a thermometer attached so you can be sure you are turning in ~96 degree pee. Is supposed to be acceptable as long as it’s somewhere between 90 and 100 degrees F.
Can buy bottles separately on Amazon with thermometer on Amazon: https://www.amazon.com/Complete-Temperature-Portable-Adhesive-Thermometer/dp/B09P144DY6?th=1 or use a thermometer (body/flu thermometers work well) and appropriate bottle you’ve got hanging around. Using some medical tape and boxer briefs seems to hold it well enough for me in that area. I think suckmyflats said tanqueray airplane bottles work well for women who can conceal it inside themselves.
Anyways, I’d personally never trust people in charge of sticking it to drug users to make methadone patients lives better. Legal or not plenty of people get fucked and isn’t worth risking one’s livelihood on integrity of the pee police.
Haha. If you are worried about the temp being right you could buy one of those temp monitors that Amazon sells. You just point it at whatever you wanna measure the temp of and it shows you on the little screen what the temp is. They work awesome. Here's a bunch on Amazon
Look into the Sure Jel method of passing a clean UA. Also called the Certo method because it uses the fruit pectin product called Sure Jell madd by brand Certo. That liquid version in the link is the best one to use and you can get it at walmart don't have to order it online.
Anyway, it supposedly works to wither clear out or block out opiates from UAs along with a lot of water consumption. You can find a ton of info on forums all over the web. It worked for heroin for me years and I actually am currently in the process this moment of trying it for fent myself. Ill let you know how it works for me.
Goodluck!
This is the link for the exact ones I have. Because they fit so well. The ones from Walmart are tight so you probably couldn't get 29 in those. But with mine you can. Just had to cut one them in the front for the lock. That's why you can't get 30.
Why would you break the seal? I mean if you have the machine that vacuum seals food, or can order one on Amazon, vacuum seal 1-4 bottles at a time or just 1 bottle at a time in case it spills. Why would you need to break the seal to vacuum seal a bottle? You can get a machine for $45 at Amazon. There’s a video at the end of the pictures if you want to see how exactly it works. Here’s a link if your interested: Link of Vacuum seal machine
I’d be hesitant to go with “I don’t answer personal questions”… I’m not sure adding the qualifier of ‘personal’ is a great strategy. The advice I usually see to be more ‘polite’ is to say one will answer questions after speaking to their lawyer. Since no lawyer would tell their client to answer questions without their presence if at all it becomes in effect “I don’t answer questions”. Something like “I’d be happy to answer your questions after speaking to my attorney”.
As to why not add the ‘personal’ qualifier.. it is because what is a ‘personal question’ is a bit subjective and even if we went with things that most reasonable people agree aren’t personal, like a cop asking someone what day of the month it is, one can imagine scenarios where it could be used against them. For instance if someone doesn’t know the day of the month it could be used as evidence to infer someone was intoxicated or in certain frame of mind. Obviously would be with other factors a LEO can thread into a very carefully crafted story, which is their job and one they are much much much better at then you or I.
Definitely don’t take ‘not speaking to the police’ as remaining totally silent as that’s specifically not seen as someone retaining their rights against self-incrimination. Make a clear unambiguous statement about not answering questions.
I’d suggest anyone getting into the weeds like I’m doing read the book (pamphlet really) the guy on YouTube wrote after the popularity of the above video. He clarifies exactly what you want to do as simply as possible. “You Have the Right to Remain Innocent” (https://www.amazon.com/You-Have-Right-Remain-Innocent/dp/1503933393). There is some things that had subtly changed since that YT lecture. If anyone doesn’t have the six bucks for the ebook searching for the title on Google with pdf on the end turns it up.
I bought some gummy bear melatonin that is the near the kinda dosage I hear recommended a lot (1/3-1/2 a milligram):
“Natrol Kids Melatonin Sleep Aid Gummy, Fall Asleep Faster, 100% Drug-Free and Gelatin Free, Non-GMO, for Ages 4 & Up, 1mg, 90 Berry Flavored Gummies” (https://www.amazon.com/Natrol-Melatonin-Gummies-Drug-Free-Absorption/dp/B07VMJMZNP?th=1)
Can take a bite outta half of it and maybe more effective than higher dosage or at least cause less side effects. Though everyone is different. And there is no officially recommended dosages of melatonin AFAIK. Is kinda a weird compound. Best to avoid sleep aids used routinely if not strictly necessary as it can be very difficult to break the psychological dependency of feeling of drug/compound -> sleep.
I have been looking at lock boxes because I need one and another option is their 5x8 index/recipe card box. again no handle though bummer. this one might work too but the lock is very flimsy
While it wasn’t seeds, it was pods, there was a book and a horrible movie made about a guy who had the same issue. https://www.amazon.com/Opium-Eater-David-Bertelsen/dp/B007XGK2HU was the movie and Eric Detzer was guy who wrote book it was based on. He ended up on methadone at a clinic. Was a former IV heroin user that had a bunch of time opioid free and had become a social worker but fell into the rabbit hole again with poppies. All professionals I’ve personally dealt with had never heard of someone using raw poppy products but they believed me AFAICT that there was enough opium in those products to get oneself into trouble with.
There’s also the new Michael Pollan book that republished an article about poppy pods that’s flying off the shelf right now. In it he testifies to their effects.
All this to say… methadone maybe a path forward for you if you are a 24/7/365 user of poppy products. I wouldn’t let anyone tell you a poppy/opium habit isn’t reason enough for being on methadone. That’s my take at least, I know we have a subset of users who think only IV fentanyl/heroin users should be getting on the methadone train but sadly the alternatives are pretty lousy. Definitely try out Suboxone if you managed not to explore that avenue before, can be a god send for highly motivated people with relatively simple using histories.
I ordered these off Amazon and they have been awesome! My bottles stay upright and easy to clean.
Really amazing book I’m getting through making waves right now too about HR: “Undoing Drugs” https://www.amazon.com/Undoing-Drugs-Untold-Reduction-Addiction/dp/0738285765/
Covers history of needle exchanges and some of the ideas that have come up after methadone treatment has become the norm (I.e. heroin maintenance). Probably a lot of information available elsewhere (especially the ideas about addiction not really being a ‘disease’ but a learning disorder).
KYODOLED Medium Cash Box with Money Tray,Small Safe Lock Box with Key,Cash Drawer,7.87"x 6.30"x 3.54" Black Medium https://www.amazon.com/dp/B07DDFQHVP/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_i_BWVWHVWRZWS4MJPJ84SZ
This is the box I use and so do a lot of people at my clinic. It’ll hold 13, I just had 13 because of Covid. The only down side it they do have to be laid down to fit so when you get home make sure you set them up straight.
I can relate. My office though is like a 100 degrees all the time for some asinine reason, and the LANDLORD LOCKED THE THERMOSTAT SO WE CAN'T ADJUST IT BECAUSE HE'S A TWAT!
Anyhoo, I got a little desk fan. This is the one I have it plugs into the USB port of your computer. That usually keeps me cool enough to not sweat because I put it so it blows right on my face all day lol.
If it's really bad though, you can speak with a doctor. There are stronger prescription meds you can try, like Oxybutynin.
Dunno how old you are but there are some great memoirs out there including one of Reddit’s own /u/traceyh415 “The Big Fix” ( https://www.amazon.com/Big-Fix-Hope-After-Heroin/dp/1580056032) Was mentioned in the new book making the rounds ‘San Fransicko’ which is pretty popular in my parts which isn’t an addiction memoir. Haven’t finished it (and may not).. Tracey’s book is next on my list.
I'm not sure if someone has mentioned this yet, but one big withdrawal side effect for me is restless legs. This stuff works wonders for me, there is also a version that isn't just for night time. Below is an amazon link, but you can find it at Walmart, or Walgreens, pretty much anywhere like that.
b complex is common in the vitamin aisle. L-tyrosine is less common but maybe in drug stores or amazon
L Tyrosine…. like this. take 1000 mg
[B complex… something like this](www.amazon.com/dp/B0014D2GEK/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_glt_i_TMG6C5QK8F3DJ62XVFYE)
This is the box that I have and nearly everybody at my clinic has also (probably because they sell them in Walmart).
The cash tray pops out, so you can just toss it. Comes with two keys which is nice - I keep one on my key ring for when I go to the clinic, and once on my nightstand where I store my box when I’m at home. It’s tall enough that the bottles can stand upright. I fit two weeks of take homes in it. I cut a simple grid out of styrofoam to keep my bottles upright so they don’t spill or leak (and would advise everyone always keep their bottles upright if possible - and you seem aware about this issue already). My clinic no longer does monthly take homes, but if they did, they would fit in there (and I probably wouldn’t need the grid to keep the bottles upright).
That said, this may not be a great box if you have any concerns at all about people illegally accessing your medication, because I suspect it would be stupidly easy to break into if somebody really wanted to get into it. Fortunately I live with my mother and nobody else so I don’t really have those concerns. If you do tho, you may want something a little more heavy duty.
Just buy your own and tell them to go swivel on it. That's just making money off people being forgetful which wouldn't be so bad on it own until you realise the drug your taking can cause that kinda stuff.
There’s an interesting book about WW2 and drugs (mainly speed): https://www.amazon.com/Blitzed-Drugs-Third-Norman-Ohler/dp/1328663795
I’m not sure it’s historically accurate (Hitler likely was a twitchy fellow from a neurological disease and not insane amounts of meth 24/7).. but it’s a very interesting read nonetheless. Just read it with a grain of salt.
Yeah so your dose is 24mg. Do 12mg morning and 12mg at night. When things got really hard I’d even break my dose into 3 or 4 doses. Helped to keep things level instead of one extreme to the other. If needed I’d even do something like 8mg morning and 16mg night to help with sleep. As long as you taking tht same amount it doesn’t matter. Do what helps you the most. The only thing I found that helped was melatonin gummies for sleep. I also took advil/Tylenol for pain but didn’t work miracles of course
I always doses myself for years. These come in a variety of sizes and ensure accuracy. Got to get the measurement conversion right. (Ex: 3ml = 30mg, 4ml = 40mg, 5ml = 50mg and so on)
10 Pack 3ml Pipette Syringe with Measurement and Cap, Sterile Individual Wrap for Scientific Labs, Feeding Pets, Liquid Measuring or Refilling Multiple Uses Tools https://www.amazon.com/dp/B08GFSRYPR/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_glt_i_NDMP6VHYFS48586CQX72?_encoding=UTF8&psc=1
My advice would be def split dose 50/50. Actually towards the end I was taking 3 or 4 doses a day with my taper. Keeps your body at an even level instead of all at once. Makes it more gradual
I used a pipette from Amazon and it helped immensely
10 Pack 3ml Pipette Syringe with Measurement and Cap, Sterile Individual Wrap for Scientific Labs, Feeding Pets, Liquid Measuring or Refilling Multiple Uses Tools https://www.amazon.com/dp/B08GFSRYPR/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_glt_i_19FJWGP65JY4K35Z5TYD?_encoding=UTF8&psc=1
Magnessium helps me with that symptom a ton. A lot of people don’t get enough magnesium… and I’d guess people with addiction problems are even more likely not get to enough from their diet.
I’d suggest sticking with a fancier kind of Magnessium like magnessium glycinate as the magnessium oxide or magnesium citrate (for me and others) tends to make diaherria a lot more of an issue. Not something you wanna worry about in withdrawals. Any kinda magnessium may help though.. just take it easy if your prone to loose stools.
Amazon link: https://www.amazon.com/High-Absorption-Magnesium-Doctors-Best/dp/B00E3S51HM/
Walmart link: https://www.walmart.com/ip/Doctor-s-Best-High-Absorption-Magnesium-100-mg-120-Tablets/189841885?fulfillmentIntent=In-store
Among people that get paid to secure things they are well known to actually be garbage for situations like OP. From the reviews of the product you linked:
“I really liked this when my wife came home with it for me. It took my son (he's 15) about 1 minute to grab a pair of steel nail clippers, open the hooked end (the one used for cleaning under your nails) place it in the keyhole and turn it effortlessly. It opened right away, much to my dismay. Try it yourself if you own one. I rate this a NO BUY. “
I’d guess OP’s housemate will easily find the instructions for opening that sentrysafe undetected.
Having a lockbox that reveals when it has been tampered with should be the lowest bar OP may want to reach. I’d recommend a quality pelican case with a quality un-shimable padlock at the least... preferably one with a fancy key. Better yet a decent floor safe used for firearms bought at a local/independent gun store.. but that’s probably overkill. Would be the only thing that would deter someone without power tools for any length of time.
Pelican lockbox (holds 27+ bottles) https://www.amazon.com/Pelican-1200-Case-Foam-Black/dp/B0002INQT2/
ABUS 64TI/30 Padlocks: https://www.amazon.com/ABUS-64TI-30-Titalium-Aluminum/dp/B00G7P382E/
Yeah, I'd highly recommend not mentioning any of this to the clinic. As far as they're concerned, the onus is on the patient to ensure that they are taking adequate security measures to prevent against theft of their take homes. As soon as they hear about this, I can almost guarantee you that they'll drop you all down to daily pick-ups. Also, even forgetting the fact that they'd put you back to daily pick-ups, there's really not a lot the clinic can do other than tell your brother he's been a "bad boy" and not to do it again.
You may also want to invest on an inexpensive "spy camera", like this one, aimed at wherever you keep your lockbox.
Good luck to you!
Here's a $35 lockbox made by Sentry Safe. They are very well known for their high grade security. Nobody will be getting into this thing with a screwdriver, I promise you! I'd order it ASAP, and in the mean time, do as some others have suggested and keep your take homes with you at all times.
I got this one from Amazon and it easily fits six bottles in there. I love it cos it seals so if the liquid spills in my box at least it will be contained for the most part.
OZCHIN 2021 NEW Hard Shell Bag with Combination Lock Odor Proof Container Travel Protective Carrying Storage Bag https://www.amazon.com/dp/B08CC1SH8G/ref=cm_sw_r_apan_glt_fabc_JDPHZTF0GHDXKZB5PWEY
I use that same bag for all my other meds but in black! I keep everything in it even household meds. I keep my methadone in a vaultz 3×5 box bc I have to have the upright at all times lol. it's perfect for weekly takehomes.
Vaultz Locking Index Card File... https://www.amazon.com/dp/B09436415J?ref=ppx_pop_mob_ap_share
I’m switching to a locked bag from bag next month. I’m buying one for 21$ that’s a lot larger and looks a lot sturdier. I love the bag compare to box way more.
I want to recommend this product at Amazon
Medication Bag Heavy Canvas Standard Keyed Lock Storage Case White by Cardinal Bag Supplies Learn more: https://www.amazon.com/dp/B00JV5FOQK/ref=cm_sw_em_r_mt_dp_7H3J6ZKEPGXFPBKVC2X8?_encoding=UTF8&psc=1
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Wearing compression similar to these all the time will keep swelling down and prevent cellulitis. make sure they are knee high and 20-30 mmhg
Truform 20-30 mmHg Compression Stocking for Men and Women, Knee High Length, Open Toe https://www.amazon.com/dp/B000A33GF8/ref=cm_sw_r_awdo_navT_a_HEEPNA87C3ZV1XJZWV7G?psc=1
I have this kaddy medicine bag. It looks small, but I just checked and I can fit 28 of my clinic's bottles in it without having to turn any bottles on it's side.
But when I went to look it up for the link, I came across this Ozchin locking bag that looks really cool.
I've been using Vaultz lock boxes for 30 years. For the past 10 this one here has been my go to although you can find this exact one just not in gun metal black for about $10 cheaper at CVS or Walgreens. I love the combination because I suck with keys lol.
Vaultz Locking Cash Box with Bill and Coin Tray, Combination Lock, 8.5 x 4 x 10 Inches, Tactical Black (VZ00308) https://www.amazon.com/dp/B07BFRPKWL/ref=cm_sw_r_apan_glt_fabc_FZTH4CBXB6CCGTGW0ATX?_encoding=UTF8&psc=1
You can grind it to shit and then either use a milligram scale or dilute it in vodka or water.
Decent scale good to a few mg: https://www.amazon.com/American-Weigh-GEMINI-20-Portable-MilliGram/dp/B0012TDNAM
If it’s a bad enough problem wearing something like these at rest might help
CINCOM Leg Massager for Foot Calf Air Compression Leg Wraps with Portable Handheld Controller - 2 Modes & 3 Intensities (Black) https://www.amazon.com/dp/B07PK2F4R2/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_glt_fabc_AM3QN6WJ9CW2QEQGF5WQ
That's pretty damn nice of them. I love my box though. It's hella pretty. I'm kinda glad we get to buy/bring our own for this reason. Here's my pretty box!
Vaultz Locking Makeup Artist Case, Purple Floral (VZ03749) https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0713QCPKS/ref=cm_sw_r_apan_glt_fabc_V2SXRW0VV9ZZS03M0TBH?_encoding=UTF8&psc=1
Sure, here’s one that looks similar to mine for $25.99.
I went to Amazon and typed “time padlock”
Of course I’m sure there’s nicer ones you could get that are more expensive, but this one I have works just fine.
If you decide to stay on it, you could also consider going down to the lowest dosage they make. There's actually a 10 mg Nexium (the OTC variant is 20 mg, Rx is 10, 20, or 40). I went down to 10 mg before I got off completely and it seemed to work almost as well as 20 mg tbh.
Here's a good summary of the situation:
https://www.webmd.com/heartburn-gerd/news/20160608/proton-pump-inhibitor-health-risks#1
This is all pretty recent research. Like in the last year or two.
That looks like it should work, I usually use the ones with the little balls at the end though, like this :)
I’m not sure but my impression was Dole and Nyswander were credited with coming up with using Methadone as a maintenance therapy. The study that introduced the idea (of methadone maintenance, not just maintenance with non-heroin opioids) was published in ‘65 and they ran the study the year prior.
The OG study: https://moscow.sci-hub.se/4076/990f3f2fc28bf6b660d39740f17ec6f8/dole1965.pdf
There’s a book that talks about the era from the beginnings of drug prohibition to that fateful year (1965) from the opioid addicts perspective that’s pretty readable: Addicts Who Survived by David Courtwright (who writes some other books about opioids). Linky. https://www.amazon.com/Addicts-Who-Survived-Narcotic-1923-1965/dp/0870495879
Is just a series of small stories/vignettes about addicts in various circumstances (musicians, laborers, straight criminals).
This changed my life. My poops have been regular ever since I started taking this. I take 7/day.
I Have a bigger Vaultz lock box. It has a combination lock which is great so I don't lose the key.
It holds all 27 of my takehomes with room to spare. Do you know the size of the takehome bottles your clinic uses? They usually vary between 30 and 60 cc's. My clinic now uses the 30 cc bottles. My box wouldn't hold 27 of the 60 cc bottles which many clinics use.
Edit: here's the box I use
Vaultz Locking Cash Box, Black/Chrome (VZ01002) https://www.amazon.com/dp/B00063BJ6U/ref=cm_sw_r_apan_glt_fabc_CN7HEP5CJGX30N8QRC3E?psc=1
I wouldn't recommend buying it through Amazon if you can find one locally . They're available at Walmart, CVS and other drug stores for a few dollars cheaper.
Magnessium has worked wonders for me. I use magnessium glycinate because the other types tend to give me diaherria a bit too easily. Has totally eliminated cramping, aches and some degree of restlessness.
Brand worth recommending: https://www.amazon.com/Doctors-Best-Absorption-Magnesium-Glycinate/dp/B000BD0RT0
It’s a safe disguised as a book it’s on Amazon. I just use it in my bookshelf and have some important papers and stuff I don’t keep money in it since a thief could easily just break it or take the book lol you just open it by the combo lock it’s the size of a book
Diversion Book Safe with Combination Lock, Secrect Hidden Safe Lock Box for Home Office Code Lock Money Box High Capacity, 9.5 x 6.2 x 2.2 inch, SMBS019 Marilyn Monroe https://www.amazon.com/dp/B08B3J91VP/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_glt_fabc_BDSE7QR544ZSB6W9BFR0?_encoding=UTF8&psc=1
Testosterone is more than libido issues. I personally would not bat an eye if that was the only symptom. The most succinct way I’ve heard ‘normal’ levels (I.e levels near what your personality/identity formed around) is that it makes “effort feel good”.
One of the few people that has written about testosterone in a non-politically charged way for mass consumption is Robert Sapolsky in an essay “The Trouble with Testosterone”. It focuses on dismantling the idea of testosterone as a directly aggression causing hormone. It covers how much nuance there is in studying the link between behavior and testosterone.
AFAICT women are more resilient to changes in hormone levels and a lot of their hormones come from a system less effected by opioids. Not the HPTA->gonads. There are those women who take smaller doses of testosterone to combat the effects of opioids like methadone or pain medications.
It’s a painfully complicated subject. I’d hope anyone considering methadone should note chronic opioid administration of any kind can suppress testosterone. Someone shooting dope 24/7 does themselves no favors in dismissing methadone for fear of low T as it’s not unlikely their T levels are probably already a lot lower than ideal.
Link to Sapolsky essay in a book he has: https://www.amazon.com/Trouble-Testosterone-Essays-Biology-Predicament/dp/0684838915/
I’m not sure there’s really reliable data, just going off of accounts I’m reading from addicts in New York area that lived through that era. Imperial Japan and China are mentioned as sources for the trade in that period. Jewish run organized crime doing the street level distribution. Was a pretty niche market though so it may have varied considerably.
The stomped to shit trend reportedly started during the wartime restrictions of WW2 and the rise of the traditional Italian/Sicilian mafia.
Would love to hear another angle on what it was like though… was a very small market back then almost entirely in New York City. Going off of : “Addicts Who Survived: An Oral History of Narcotic Use in America before 1965” by David Courtwright https://www.amazon.com/Addicts-Who-Survived-History-Narcotic/dp/1572339373
I've used this one for over 20 years. Easily fits all my monthlies and it's very light. Also its got a combination so no keys to lose.
https://www.amazon.com/dp/B00063BJ6U/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_apa_glt_fabc_JK0NWK78HY178HNT8AS8
This is what I just ordered last night, I’ll let you know if it works! There’s a few I saw on Amazon with similar dimensions
This is what I use. I get 2 weeks worth. I just leave the box sitting up on its side. It will fit 2 rows of 7 easy. They're at Walmart in school section or electronics area. Technically used for cds. But the cd holding flaps come right out. Cheaper at Walmart then online.
I always took great care of my teeth even I’m active addiction. I’ve seen people Say that it doesn’t mess with your teeth. My DR said it stores in your bones and fucks with your calcium. I believe it. I used this and my teeth are back to great. You have to make sure you’re taking extra good care and take a supplement. I swear by this :
Uncle Harry's Natural Remineralization Kit with Tooth Whitening - 3 Products Strengthen Weak Enamel, Brighten Smile, & Correct Oral Care Issues (1 kit) https://www.amazon.com/dp/B00JYPYWYC/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_glt_fabc_85TR2HHPT0ZP8E0XFEC1?_encoding=UTF8&psc=1
This stuff is amazing too
Uncle Harry's Natural Remineralization Kit with Tooth Whitening - 3 Products Strengthen Weak Enamel, Brighten Smile, & Correct Oral Care Issues (1 kit) https://www.amazon.com/dp/B00JYPYWYC/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_glt_fabc_85TR2HHPT0ZP8E0XFEC1?_encoding=UTF8&psc=1
Go to GNC or even Amazon and buy GABA. It helps tremendously with sleep and anxiety. I couldn't believe when I took it I actually felt my entire body relax. NOW Gaba 500mg, 100 Veg CapsulesGaba Calm It really does work wonders and on the restless legs it's amazing.
Bro don't use those disposable enemas. Those disposable fleet enemas? Those are a disgrace. They aren't real enemas. Enema bag. Get a proper open top enema bag with 2 liter capacity and fill it with warm saline solution. Lie down on your side and take in as much of the 2 liters as you possibly can, hold it in whilst massaging your stomach, and pretty soon you will have the greatest relief you've ever known.
I know this post is very late and maybe not relevant to you anymore, but this is what I recommend on Amazon: Enema bag
Trust me, man. When things get real bad--and I've gone 12 days without shitting before!--I used this bag and the feeling of evacuating my bowels with this bag is probably the greatest feeling I've ever experienced. Buy this bag just in case. It's the best enema out there.
Even milligram scales have gotten cheap last few years (maybe partly due to fentanyl and research drugs popularity): https://www.amazon.com/American-Weigh-GEMINI-20-Portable-MilliGram/dp/B077KC8D8Y/
They aren’t complicated devices, a resistor that varies infinitesimally based on force on a lever connected to a high precision analog to digital converter (a type of integrated circuit) which is now cheaper than the mechanical parts that suspend the sample. China making semiconductors with western IP makes things cheap, cheap, cheap.
OP could grab a typical $12 “weed” scale and probably be good to go considering his dose is diluted. Hopefully they triple check the devices they use and their arithmetic.
Yes! I experienced this exact issue. I would wake up, feel nausea, try to fight it, eventually throw up and then feel fine all day. Tips: these anti-nausea acupressure bands helped a ton
https://www.amazon.com/Sea-Band-Wristband-Anti-Nausea-Acupressure-Sickness/dp/B001F731N0
Also, non drowsy anti nausea medication taken as soon as possible before wake up time. Also, make sure to leave time as to not experience anxiety trying to rush for whatever reason. Good luck!
I did not find much else in the way of videos but I also liked this workbook for CBT. It seemed like the main complaints about it were that the exercises were too simple/geared for beginners which may be an advantage when working with clients who have never been introduced before.
All the resources I’ve linked previously have been very general, but I do like this workbook for clients with SUD. It looks like it does general skills for recovery and incorporates CBT.
I wish I had found more videos, but that therapist I linked originally did have some good ones.
I’m surprised no mental health facilities in your area offered IOP that has CBT as a component, that’s incredibly common around here. The whole IOP program is usually not CBT/DBT but they do touch on those skills in groups. And they are ordinarily places where clients on Medicaid would be attending (although I know of some private pay places as well).
They make these sugar free flavourings for water and they come in lots of good flavors including Country time iced tea and they are relatively inexpensive and make it so much easier to drink lots of water and it doesn't have any sugar
this happens to me alot.. it used to be worse before I got my dose right.. It always happens at work.. I hear Vitadone works great it takes a few days to take effect. I ordered some but I havent tried them yet because im waiting to finish my hair,skin,nails vitamins first.
Check with people who know better than me (as I've never used opioids myself), but my understanding is that tar heroin always contains some heroin, even if it also contains some fentanyl or analogues. I believe it's only powdered heroin where it can be entirely heroin-free.
As noted below, there's no test that can catch every research chemical and analogue that circulate on the dark web and make their way to the streets.
If you nevertheless want to test him for fentanyl, you'll need a separate dipstick in addition to the normal drug test you purchase. Search 'fentanyl test' on ebay and you'll find plenty of dipsticks being sold for a couple bucks a pop. Or 3.69 on Amazon: https://www.amazon.com/Fentanyl-Synthetic-Opioid-Drug-Test/dp/B01J8PWEWY/ref=sr_1_8?dchild=1&keywords=fentanyl+test&qid=1599852335&sr=8-8. If your town has a harm reduction (needle exchange) program, they may give away fentanyl testing strips for free.
I still feel like the drug test is extraneous. You already know that he is using and lying about it!!! Your son's safety shouldn't hinge on whether your ex can fool a drug test.
A quick run through the internet turned up this youtube channel. Looks like lady is an LCSW and she has playlists of a lot of different therapy technique. I scrubbed through them but she seems to be doing a good job of explaining it to laypeople and she has a playlist specifically for CBT but also playlists for other therapy techniques.
This workbook looks to be pretty simple, and searching "cognitive behavioral therapy" on amazon brought up a TON of workbooks, for everything from depression to addiction to trauma, etc. I especially like that you ordinarily can look inside the workbook before buying it.
Hey,
I’m so sorry and just wanted to say I’ve been there. You might have something f going on with your metabolism , we don’t know. But I can tell you what helped me. Three things that helped the most were: split dosing , magnesium (natural calm with calcium is my favorite for the vitamins in it) , and these clinically trialed lavender pills. I know the lavender sounds like quack shit but I’m serious, they are about as good as Ativan imo. Not as good as Xanax or kpin but what is?!
I’ll link you to the ones I get on amazon. And you can read the reviews. They make me feel so much more comfortable;
Here’s the expensive clinically trialed brand:
Integrative Therapeutics - Lavela WS 1265 - Clinically Studied Lavender Oil to Reduce Occasional Anxiety - Non-Habit Forming - 60 Softgels https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0072POIB8/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_i_i15SEb799FQT0
Here is the knock off brand that is way cheaper but works the same imo.
Nature's Way CalmAid, Non-drowsy clinically Studied Lavender, Easy-to-Swallow, Gluten-Free - 30 softgels https://www.amazon.com/dp/B007TYY2JA/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_i_q25SEbT6ZPKT5
Good luck and hope that helps in the short term.
My normal one (for 13 bottles crammed tight) is a book safe “Cooking With Vegetables”
Available on Amazon: https://www.amazon.com/STEELMASTER-Cookbook-Safe-High-Security-221269206/dp/B00FG3RMM0/ref=sr_1_47?keywords=Book+safe&qid=1584806818&sr=8-47
I used to scarf Xanax whenever I felt an anxiety attack coming on. luckily I never got addicted to them but I knew I needed a better coping strategy.
I found this neat thing called Box Breathing. It probably has a few different names but it's a basic breathing technique that's forces you to focus on the moment and really helps. A really simple example would be: Breathe in for 4 seconds, hold it in for 4 seconds, breathe out for 4 seconds, hold for 4 seconds, repeat for 4-5 minutes.
I actually use an app on my phone which makes a nice little bong noise every X seconds and has a little graphic you can breathe along with.
Anyway, it really helps me calm down. Before, when my heart started racing and the tightness creeps in and the thoughts start screaming in my head, I would freak and not know what to do apart from Xanax and generally having a spaz out.
Now, the breathing forces me to just sit there and instead of trying to ignore my racing heart I focus on it and instead of panicking Im learning to control it and slow everything down. Mindfulness I suppose :)
this is the app, nothing to lose from checking it out: https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=pl.orbitemobile.breathair
At my clinic they said they have the ability to measure 0.5 mg for a patient and have in the past. They did that when patients were at the very end of their taper and they didn't want to jump for 1mg to 0. When I asked about 0.1mg they said they hadn't done that before.
I'm guessing/ my gut feeling is that at most places accuracy is going to be well under a mg.. which is very easy to measure accurately in the scheme of things (1mg dose is about 0.1 grams of 10mg/mL concentrate which is pretty typical accuracy in the cheapest pocket scales so having actual calibrated equipment should make that quite easily, liquid measurement or weight).
This machine (which looks a lot like the one they use at my clinic): http://www.parker.com/Literature/Domnick%20Hunter%20Process%20Filtration%20Division/PAFD_literature/Life%20Sciences%20Literature/Life%20Sciences%20Product%20Datasheets/DS_P_67_SciLog%20LabTec%20Methadone%20Dispensing%20System%20Datasheet.pdf seems to measure accurately +/- ~0.01 ml or ~.1mg if 10mg/mL concentrate is used.
I'm guessing in the scheme of things you are getting 9mg +/- 0.1mg (so 8.99mg is worst case scenario), if things were off by a whole mg (or multiple mgs) on a consistent basis it would be pretty easy for nursing staff to be slipping hundreds (or perhaps thousands of mg) under the table.. which is something (the only thing?) the authorities/DEA is looking for when they come into check american clinics.
If you are super concerned about it, mg scales are relatively cheap and if they give you unwatered down doses, it shouldn't be a big deal to double check your dose when you are at the window... this ~$25 one on Amazon had served me well when using it for other purposes, many moons ago: https://www.amazon.com/American-Weigh-GEMINI-20-Portable-MilliGram/dp/B0012TDNAM/?th=1&psc=1
Dude... Did you even look on amazon? Of course you aren't going to find it as regular needles in the pharmacy. You want It to be blunt tip anyway.
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Here's a link with numerous 10ml syringes
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I highly record!!end this set particularly it's the most rated and hhest rated, 10 pack of 10 ml for just under 7 bucks.
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Edit - and it says that listing has luer lock tips!!
If you want to pass for sure, just get some clean urine from someone. Keep it in the freezer till you need it. Put on two layers of underwear the day you go in. And put the urine in this. Then put the container between the layers in something like this.
http://www.amazon.com/TronStore-Airline-Airplane-Plastic-Containers/dp/B00PJ423U2
This type of lid is essential as you obviously, do not want a leak!
The just reach in the pee flap to access the bottle if you are male, if you're female, it may be more difficult but you do have options. Also, buy one of those fish tank thermometers and stick it on the side. Keep it between 90 and 102 Fahrenheit. A hand warmer will do fine for this.
Practice it a little bit so you don't fumble. This can be done with someone watching behind you and they will never catch on. If you decide to do it, pm me if you need more specifics. And how do I know this will work?
I got tested every week for years at my methadone clinic but I still had to use cannabis (Severe IBS I had a medical card but the clinic didn't care) and this works great. My situation required a bit of effort to procure urine on the regular. But yours should be easy as it's a one time thing. They are not gonna watch you. I know this is stuff most people probably already know but just in case not, I chose to spell it all out.
Good luck.
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I went to staples and bought a locking bag, it fits at least 20 bottles, i only need it to fit 5, but it's great.
Similar to this.. http://www.amazon.com/Master-Lock-7120D-Locking-Security/dp/B000SQQGF4