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I like the design and general idea, but can I give you some suggestions for other shades of blue and green? I used this color picker to come up with #218640 (dark green) and #322c7e (darker blue). The color picker lets you try out different color schemes.
Some people have suggested that just accepting the inevitable is the only solution - but you might need help to get there.
A relationship counsellor or psychologist may help with mental strategies to overcome this bump in life so you can accept it and move on.
There are also books such as this one
https://www.amazon.com/Gay-Mans-Guide-Growing-Older/dp/1555835910
Great coming out story, and great romance story. I'm sure you'll find someone local. Try some apps and websites (there are many), and stick with the ones that lead you to guys you like. Look at meetup.com as well for get-togethers with other men that are a bit less sex-centered. Good luck.
Ones like these with wide bases so you get used to the stretch… Works like a charm!
i can only share my own experience in the hope you'll glean something helpful. i'm a serious sort, more inclined to read books than watch movies/tv, and enjoy small dinners @ restaurants & home than cattle call cocktail parties. somehow, i manage to find dating partners who enjoy the same lifestyle and outlook via those self-same activities (i. e. meeting randomly @ the public library while browsing books, doing the museum thing, or @ lectures. surely it's likely that you'll find your type in whatever activities you do via video gaming clubs, the weight room, etc. if you're still @ a loss, you might want to check out some meetup.com groups (whether gay or not); i joined a str8 toastmasters group and, in the 2.5 years i was a member of my club, ended up dating 2 guys briefly. it's all about living my life and meeting others who enjoy the same activities--and, w/ a bit of luck, finding someone to date. good luck.
This is my favorite kind: https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B07W5LD5T3/ref=ppx_yo_dt_b_search_asin_title?ie=UTF8&psc=1
It's not as tacky as other brands and cleans up easily.
For folks who like wine, there’s a gay wine tasting group that meets virtually Wednesday’s 4pm PST via zoom. I don’t host it but sure it’s riddled with gay young and old men:
Swirl In Place Every Wednesday on Zoom 4:00pm-4:30pm Join in each week while we SIP, as a different winemaker/vintner joins in for a virtual wine tasting. Uncork a bottle of Sonoma Wine and join us to engage, connect and swirl in place!
Coming up this Wednesday, April 29th, Gay Wine Week's presenting sponsor Chateau St. Jean joins in to Swirl with us.
Zoom Meeting Link: Join URL: https://zoom.us/j/916613484
I am so sorry for your loss of mother. Trust me you are not alone and you haven't done anything big wrong. I have seen so many gay and straight men out there, older than you who have done crazy things. Compared to them, you are so lucky. Just focus on finding a job for now. Promise yourself that for 1 year you will not pursue anybody for relationship. Don't keep any target except finding and maintaining a job. Take a job, give your self 6 months, pamper yourself with little tasty meals and slices of pizza, it will make you feel good and make you feel less shaken. After some time try volunteering at gay sports related events and you will meet many good men of all ages there. I dont know if you know the website meetup.com , there you can find gay men's meetups in your city. This is a good way to make friends.
No matter how bad things happened to you in your past, that does not mean that your future needs to be the same. Things will be fine and you will be smiling again :).
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Oh, and if you do stay with him, recommend he install some free encryption software. "Hidden" folders are so 1990's! lol
I started a #gayyoungold on freenode (https://freenode.net/).
There was someone idling on Snoonet and didn't respond to my message (couple of days) and I have no qualms with putting the channel on that server but just didn't want to deal with it.
Copulatory vocalizations — seriously, that’s what it’s called — is a pretty normal part of sex. For humans, it can involve not just moaning but talking. Dirty talk. Still, it may not be for you. That’s okay.
If it’s more that it’s strange for you, you might want to at least try it out. See if it is something that you might be into, in the same way you discover something sexual that you’d never done before, was first weird, but now love. If that might be the case, you can try a book like one below. It would give you some things to say during sex. (There are other books and articles out on the web.) If its still not for you, that’s fine too. Not everything is. It’s possible though that you might discover a new sexual technique you didn’t know you liked until you did.
How To Talk Dirty: 157 Dirty Talk Examples Guaranteed To Drive Your Lover Wild & Give You Ultimate Pleasure & Excitement Tonight (Guide To Better Sex) https://www.amazon.com/dp/1517509432/ref=cm_sw_em_r_mt_dp_ARHJ3B33FBPGHG6D00EE
Are you having trouble creating a new habit? I used to have a hard time making a good habit. And luckily, I have discovered a gamification app that helps me do this.
I have been playing this cool little game Habit hunter (link IOS orlink Android). It's an RPG, the point of it is to put habits your trying to make and habits your trying to break on it.
two books I can recommend: Tickle my pickle (it's for straight girls but it's got illustrations and nobody has that.
The second is for us gays: How To Give Head Like A Porn Star. No illustrations but the content's surprisingly good.
Something like this one on Amazon might work well. It is both a jock strap with bright laces that need him to slowly unlace you.
I think we need some more context or specific examples of what's happening. When you say you can come across as trashy, what exactly do you mean?
For what it's worth, it seems to me like you're acting your age and trying to stay within your bounds. He may be expecting too much or not conveying his expectations properly if this is becoming an issue. You're 19 and self-admittedly lacking in social skills. I assume you've made these concerns apparent to him. If not, you really should--ask how he would approach situations that you feel as though you fail in.
I'm a very quiet person myself and I know how hard it can be to assert yourself in certain situations, especially among those you consider to be of "higher circles" than you. And I also know it's incredibly difficult when you feel you've made a mistake and look back on it afterwards. There are some books that may or may not help, I certainly found them helpful...look into How to Win Friends & Influence People and Own The Room.