She started the #effyourbeautystandards movement..... Yet she uses contouring makeup and photoshop to make herself look conventionally "beautiful".
Love is a construct of the mind; do you love yourself? I recommend looking into the pure simplicity of inner peace, if you can.
I haven't finished it yet, but have learned from what I have listened.
Not everyone is the same, keep in mind.
Best of luck in your fight against the "knight." It can be difficult, but have faith that life is cyclical; sometimes better and sometimes worse. Dips are a reality, and the best we can do is to arm ourselves with the knowledge needed to understand and overcome what needs to be overcome. I found my teachings in some of the unlikeliest of places (and on reddit.)
PS: Librivox is awesome. Public domain audiobooks.
https://www.amazon.com/Power-Now-Guide-Spiritual-Enlightenment/dp/1577314808
you are not your mind. you are more than just your future thoughts and your memories. take it slow, but when you feel unhappy and anxious, focus ur mind on the current moment. it will be hard and your mind will keep drifting, but keep trying.
"wow my bed feels very soft" "it is very warm in this blanket" "lol this thing on reddit is pretty funny, it reminds me of.. oops thinking about something other than the present, lets think of something else" "wow my phone is dirty, i should wipe it" etc.
Hi there! It sounds like you are in a lot of pain. It can feel horrible feeling like you are abnormal. I can relate to wishing we could have all of those things. If you would like to talk more in depth, feel free to visit 7 cups a free, anonymous emotional support site where you can seek support by connecting one-one with a trained active listener, through the forums, or chatrooms. I hope you can find the support you deserve. You are enough, and even though I might not know you, I care about you.
Some of the instructors will even tell you to not read the whole thing, so that does have something to do with it too.
I'm trying to get back into reading physical books. I finished the first chapter of one yesterday; while I did start to skim again, I remember quite a bit of information. I think another issue is that when I read on a computer, I'm used to scrolling so that the line I'm reading is at the very top. I might end up needing something like this so I know where to look.
Hopefully it goes well for us. Thanks for the comment.
I have no one either and it really sucks sometimes. I read books to try and make the loneliness disappear. I'll put a link to my favorite book so far it's really dark and short but amazing. Hope this helps! https://www.amazon.com/Unending-Chaos-Melody-Swanson-ebook/dp/B08Z8G3N2Y/ref=mp_s_a_1_1?crid=7BKB8IO4T6WH&keywords=unending+chaos&qid=1666321581&sprefix=unending+chas%2Caps%2C204&sr=8-1
Hope you're still here, depression is only temporary, keep fighting and one day you'll fall in love with life again. This book showed me I wasn't alone even on my darkest days, hope it helps. https://www.amazon.com/Unending-Chaos-Melody-Swanson-ebook/dp/B08Z8G3N2Y/ref=mp_s_a_1_1?crid=7BKB8IO4T6WH&keywords=unending+chaos&qid=1666321581&sprefix=unending+chas%2Caps%2C204&sr=8-1
Read this book, it really showed me that I'm not alone. Depression doesn't pick and choose, anyone can have it, male or female, black or white, introvert or extrovert. It all hurts the same but at the end of the day you're still here, maybe exhausted of fighting but still here nonetheless, that means your strong even though it doesn't feel like it, hope this helps! https://www.amazon.com/Unending-Chaos-Melody-Swanson-ebook/dp/B08Z8G3N2Y/ref=mp_s_a_1_1?crid=7BKB8IO4T6WH&keywords=unending+chaos&qid=1666321581&sprefix=unending+chas%2Caps%2C204&sr=8-1
Read this book. It made me realize I'm not alone. Keep your head up, you got this. https://www.amazon.com/Unending-Chaos-Melody-Swanson-ebook/dp/B08Z8G3N2Y/ref=mp_s_a_1_1?crid=7BKB8IO4T6WH&keywords=unending+chaos&qid=1666321581&sprefix=unending+chas%2Caps%2C204&sr=8-1
Wall of text kept me from reading, so I reworked it here. I really feel bad for you, and I hope you get through it. Hurting yourself is never the answer. I am glad that you have something to look forward to. Keep in mind you may also have someone to look forward too. There is someone out there for you and I hope you realize it. Be strong.
Please try this! My daughter has been severely depressed since 5 and it has helped so much !! Natrol 5-HTP Time Release Tablets, Promotes a Calm Relaxed Mood, Helps Maintain a Positive Outlook, Enables Production of Serotonin, Drug-Free, Controlled Release, Maximum Strength, 200mg, 30 Count https://www.amazon.com/dp/B001HCHGPC/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_i_HCGFAPEMX2FMVX03DEKT?_encoding=UTF8&psc=1
Please try 5 HTP on Amazon. My daughter suffered since 5th grade with severe depression. This has made a huge difference - please try!!!
Natrol 5-HTP Time Release Tablets, Promotes a Calm Relaxed Mood, Helps Maintain a Positive Outlook, Enables Production of Serotonin, Drug-Free, Controlled Release, Maximum Strength, 200mg, 30 Count https://www.amazon.com/dp/B001HCHGPC/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_i_HCGFAPEMX2FMVX03DEKT?_encoding=UTF8&psc=1
I love the way you're being proactive about meeting people and keeping yourself busy, instead of just trying to stick out the loneliness until you graduate. That's such a great attitude!
The neat thing about being in college is that there are tons of people roughly the same age as you, all in a concentrated area, with a college or university that subsidizes and promotes student activities. You could go to the gym, check out bulletin boards at the library or student union building, and look at lampposts for flyers advertising things. How about checking out meetup.com to see what's going on in your area? Or the student services webpage?
Again I just want to say that I think it's fantastic that you aren't just sitting back and hoping the world will come to you. With that can-do attitude, I know you'll find compatible people to spend your time with soon!
I have created a t shirt design that captures the moment aliens and astronauts met in space. Any feedback would be appreciated.( Hopefully reviewing this design keeps you busy.).
Hi! I can absolutely relate to this! My family is the same way, they always use the excuse of punishing me that I am yelling or my tone is bad, but then when I don’t talk they get angry, or provoke me with insults. I am sorry you have to go through that. If you would like to talk more about this with someone, feel free to reach out at 7 cups a free, anonymous emotional support site, where you can find support through 1-1 chats with trained, active listeners, forums, or chatrooms. I hope your family starts actually listening to you without getting mad.
I agree! It can be so painful someone you cared deeply for becoming a memory. If you would like to talk more about this with someone, feel free to reach out at 7 cups, a free, anonymous emotional support site, where you can find support through 1-1 chats with trained, active listeners, forums, or chatrooms. I hope your pain decreases very soon.
It can be painful being told that you are annoying. :( If you ever want to talk more about how you are feeling with someone, feel free to reach out at 7 cups, a free, anonymous emotional support site, where you can seek support through one-one chats with trained active listeners, forums, or chatrooms. I hope you can find some support.
Hi! It sounds like you are going through a painful, difficult times. It can feel so confusing and hard when we don’t feel any joy, or happiness. I can definitely relate to not remembering happy memories, but only depressed ones. If you ever want to talk more about this to someone, feel free to check out 7 cups, a free, anonymous emotional support site where you can seek support through one-one chats with trained active listeners, through forums, or chatrooms. I hear you are already getting professional help which is great, but sometimes it can be helpful talking with people who might be going through similar experiences as you. I hope you can find happiness again, and keep it.
Hello! It sounds like your friends are quite invalidating. I can relate, although for me it’s family members. I’m sorry that you have to keep up a facade and validate your friends while you are going through a really hard time. If you would like to talk more in depth about this, feel free to visit 7 cups a free, anonymous emotional support site where you can get support through one-one chats with trained active listeners, forums, or chatrooms. I hope that you can find some support, and that you don’t have to continue to hide your problems and be invalidated.
It sounds like you are going through a hard time steer this relationship. It can feel horrible when we feel like we messed it up. It makes sense to not want to talk about it and try to move on by getting with other girls. If you ever want to talk more in depth, feel free to check out 7 cups, a free, anonymous emotional support site where you can get support through one-one chats with a trained active listener, through forums, or chatrooms. Wishing you the best with your relationship, take care
Depression can be so challenging. It can feel really bad feeling like someone you care about doesn’t understand how you are feeling or what you are going through, it can feel disappointing, and change can be terrifying. I can understand the pressure to keep it all together, but it’s okay to not be able to. It sounds like you have a lot going on, and not much support. If you would ever like to chat more in depth with someone, 7 cups, a free emotional support site is here for you. You can find support either through one-chats with trained active listeners, or through the forums or chatrooms. I hope you can find some support, and someone who understands.
Hi there! It sounds like there is a lot going on in your life at the moment with figuring out your sexuality, the death of your cat, (I am very sorry for your loss) having to move back home with your mother who you don’t have a good relationship with, and of course, the pandemic. Everything sounds super overwhelming and difficult to cope with, and it makes sense that it might be so hard getting out of bed, looking for jobs, or working on your portfolio. If you ever want to talk to someone, 7 cups is here for you! It is a free, anonymous emotional support site where you can get support by connect one-one with a listener, or by participating in the forums or chatrooms. You deserve the chance to talk with someone and get support.
Hello! I’m so sorry to hear you are hurting so badly at the moment. In case you ever would like to talk to someone, 7 cups a free emotional support site is here for you, where you can find the support you deserve. Take care
Hi there! It sounds like you are going through a lot at the moment, everything with your friends, depression, and social anxiety sounds incredible overwhelming. It can feel so lonely feeling like the entire world hates you. I can hear how much pain you are in, it sounds so hard. If you ever would like to chat to someone, feel free to visit 7 cups, a free emotional support site, where everyone is here for you, you aren’t alone. I hope things get better for you, take care.
you know, when it comes to rainy mood, then you can just add the "watch=" part of the youtube url to the rainymood site after backslash
e.g http://www.rainymood.com/watch?v=pUZeSYsU0Uk
edit: yes, it's sure a saddest thing i've heard today. Thank you for sharing!
I feel your pain. Try not to assume what her life is. Live yours. Join clubs. meetup.com find some common interests and get among active people. sometimes online works. sometimes it doesnt. i feel your pain in your solitude. do you best not to let it get to you. maybe it helps being here. not sure
hugging strangers is probably a good way to catch coronavirus.
>I want to feel someone’s love wrap me up and protect me.
https://www.amazon.com/YnM-Weighted-Blanket-Cotton-Material/dp/B073429DV2
everything will be ok.
Close and then...
Play Candy Crush Saga.
https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.king.candycrushsaga&hl=en_US
Dude,
Play Candy Crush Saga.
https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.king.candycrushsaga&hl=en_US
I agree, in this world that only praises the qualities of extroverts, we often forget to praise the introverts as well. Many of the greatest minds in history were introverts such as Albert Einstein. Like illiarch said, we must come to peace with who we are. I highly suggest this book: http://www.amazon.com/Quiet-Power-Introverts-World-Talking/dp/0307352153
It is a must read, i'm sure it will help you get a better perspective of where and who you really are. Perspective is everything, our problems seem so big when we think of only ourselves, but relative to the world and history, our problems seem minuscule. It helps to think of it this way for me when I feel depressed. Hope I helped i someway. Good luck my friend!
Haha no problem man.
If you hit a wall read these two books:
http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/014312451X/ref=wms_ohs_product?ie=UTF8&psc=1
Watch a movie called: Cinema Paradiso by Giuseppe Tornatore (Make sure its the original theatrical cut NOT the Director's Cut) Watch it in Italian with English subtitles.
Please trust a random redditor, you'll find a beautiful and bittersweet resolution in that film. http://www.amazon.com/Cinema-Paradiso/dp/B007HJ96NO/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1368922368&sr=8-1&keywords=Cinema+Paradiso
I went through some similar stuff last year. It is so hard to lose a friend, but sometimes it is for the best. Best friends are NOT forever, even though society tells us so. I am not telling you to give up on it, but realistically... people change. I read a really good book that helped me a lot. Let me know if you need to borrow it. http://www.amazon.com/Best-Friends-Forever-Surviving-Breakup/dp/B0076TODVU
<3
Hi magg82, I don't really have any advice or suggestions except that I found this book to be quite helpful and moving. It's called Born To Win. Maybe you'll like it too. :)