Firstly, you don't know that for a fact, and the rates of divorce for bipolar men vs bipolar women are quite different. For bipolar women, specifically, marriage tends to protect against depression. https://www.researchgate.net/publication/44801436_The_role_of_gender_in_single_vs_married_individuals_with_bipolar_disorder
Added it to my wishlist!
Bipolar II Disorder Workbook: Managing Recurring Depression, Hypomania, and Anxiety (A New Harbinger Self-Help Workbook) https://www.amazon.com/dp/1608827666/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_glc_fabc_U5kbGbE3Y8NJN
Yes! This book has been a HUGE help:
https://www.amazon.com/Bipolar-Disorder-Survival-Guide-Third/dp/1462537278/ref=nodl_
In addition to therapy and medication, of course. But honestly that book helped me understand bipolar so much, and it has great tools like a mood tracker, gathering family history, etc.
I struggled with meeting people after moving to a new state. One good way to meet people is to take classes. You could take an exercise class, art class, join a book club, etc. and you'd likely meet some cool people that are into the same stuff you are. Have you heard of Meetup.com? It has a lot of local groups and events that you can sign up for and/or create. Also just going out by myself more often helped me to be more comfortable in social settings, like going to a coffee shop by myself. I haven't gone to a bar by myself yet, so I feel you on that one. I hope you find some cool people soon. Best of luck xx
Everyone of us do. It's like being high, it feels good. But does it compensate for the dreadful long periods of lows? I think not.
My diagnosis is fairly recent as well (~1.5 years) and I can't say I'm in a place where I'm sure I won't deviate from my treatment but I feel like the biggest hurdle we go through is learning to live a "normal" life. We're not normal, we never were, so it's not an easy task.
I find that reading eases that up a bit, I'm currently going through an audiobook from Dr Kay Jamison focused on this exact subject of mania and its benefits for lack of a better word. Maybe you should check it out.
That’s exactly how mine is. My hypomania also presents as irritability and feeling more like picking fights with people than I usually do. I’m more impulsive as well, but not in an extreme way. More like, I just do the things I’ve been thinking about for a long time. Another way we figured out I do experience hypomania and mixed episodes is through sex drive. I’ll go 2 or so weeks without sex, and then have sex 3 or 4 days in a row. I got a great workbook that really helped identify the hypomanic symptoms, and made the depression symptoms make a little more sense.
Bipolar II Disorder Workbook: Managing Recurring Depression, Hypomania, and Anxiety (A New Harbinger Self-Help Workbook) https://www.amazon.com/dp/1608827666/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_glt_fabc_QVQ2JWD21YTSAA2GNZVA
I also tend to go into death anxiety phases, last one was months of obsessing and being afraid to sleep... it sucked.
It sounds crazy, but this is how I got out of it:
After about three weeks, I went from 30-40 times a day to pretty much nothing, and I stop doing it because I didn't need it anymore. What surprised me is that originally, everything was making me think about death, I couldn't watch TV shows or read or do anything interesting because it would make me spiral. But after I was able to "break the loop" that stuff didn't trigger it anymore.
Good luck! If you try it, I hope it works as well for you as it did for me. :)
Have you read “bipolar not so much”. Great book and it definitely talks about cannabis. The author suggests quitting cannabis and using pharmaceuticals. I really liked the book and would recommend for anyone who has an interest in bipolar 2.
https://www.amazon.com/Bipolar-Not-Much-Understanding-Depression/dp/0393711749
Journalling is important whether you are depressed or not. I actually have several composition books and a templated journal I do everyday.
https://www.amazon.com/dp/1072851601/ref=cm_sw_r_apa_i_VL3eFbZTGCVQC
Here is the journal I use every night before bed. It is simple and quick and a great resource for both me and my therapist. It has pages in the front to put all your med and doctors info which is helpful to so then when I have appointments and whatnot I have all my info. This is also important for me because I am technically undiagnosed even though I am medicated so the log record will help if I ever to make it to a psychologist or psychiatrist.
Edit to add pictures >>> Becka's Best Bipolar Mood Journal and Goal tracker https://imgur.com/gallery/gVoLrBM
Are you in the process of getting insurance, or qualify for medicaid.
Right now , no. In the future, yes.
https://www.healthcare.gov/coverage/pre-existing-conditions/
I wouldn't be too worried myself about the amount of grapefruit in a flavored soda. I'm on 40mg and I've had a can of the grapefruit La Croix with no ill effects. Everyone's body chemistry is different though, so take my opinion with a grain of salt.
This is what the Latuda website says, "Avoid eating grapefruit or drinking grapefruit juice while you take LATUDA since these can affect the amount of LATUDA in the blood."
WebMD, FWIW, gives a little more information, but it mentions drinking grapefruit juice outright and not just a tiny amount in a can of flavored water.
TL:DR - You're probably ok.
It's up to you, more than you could ever imagine. The biggest mistake I see those of us with BP making is thinking we're not normal. There is no normal, everyone has challenges; ours have a very specific demon associated with them. The good news is we know the demon and we can fight it.
My advice is find your passions. You will never be rid of the demon, it will always be with you, but forcing yourself, as hard as you can, and finding those things is how you win the battle. It doesn't have to be something big; start reading more, start exercising, learn a new hobby, embrace your family, just make it routine so you enjoy it on the ups and rely on it during the downs.
The other thing that is critical is self care. Drink water, take your meds on time like clock work, and the thing that absolutely changed my life - HAVE GOOD SLEEP HABITS. Go to bed on time EVERY NIGHT and wake up the same time. If you can't fall asleep try meditation or take melatonin.
You're going to be fine, I promise. I'm thinking positive for you, now you need to think positive for yourself!
I've used iMoodJournal for the past 7 years and I love it. It's a simple 1-10 colored scale for overall wellbeing. Then I add tags for whatever I feel I want to track for that particular day like #weather_rainy (I have SAD too), #sleep_9hrs, #activity_none, #anxiety_10. It prompts me as often as I want throughout the day. It takes all of 30 seconds to enter.
It then let's you export the data to something like Excel to make pretty charts of your ratings so you can see any corellations.
https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.inexika.imood
For exercise it doesn’t sound like you’re doing the right kind. The best benefit for mental health comes from getting your heart rate elevated for 30-45 minutes. Plus it sounds like you aren’t using the right weight. It should probably be a lot lighter.
I would recommend starting small. Go for a 20-30 minute brisk walk every day. This will also give you sunlight. You can do a light jog if you have the energy for it.
After a few weeks of consistently walking/jogging you can try adding other types of exercise.
More importantly you need to change your belief system. If you believe you’ll never get better then you never will. The first step is believing you can get better.
I highly recommend doing CBT, you can do most of the work without a therapist. This Is a great workbook that will walk you through all the important CBT methods for depression.
1) get your levels checked, that much excessive thirst is a reason to just check up.
2) drinking alcohol while bipolar is (insert the nicest caring way to say pretty not ok), but your an adult. (Stop drinking alcohol).
3) 1/2 gallon water bottle that has times on it so you drink all day on a schedule.
https://smile.amazon.com/dp/B07WPXPQ2H/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_glt_fabc_Z745VXQSA4F3ZMM41VG5
GET READY TA PISS
I just started using an app called Bearable and I’ve really enjoy it so far. I was previously using eMoods. It’s on both IOS and Android.
https://apps.apple.com/us/app/bearable-mood-symptoms/id1482581097
https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.bearable&hl=en_US&gl=US
Yeah, I take these, pretty affordable on amazon and lasts you a while:
This book helped me a lot
The Bipolar Disorder Survival Guide, Third Edition: What You and Your Family Need to Know https://www.amazon.com/dp/1462534988/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_glt_fabc_VGAZTEFE9GNN2TFXJ3CA
I love the product design. It's perfect for people on the go, and for small purses! Here you go: Amazon Link
The Bipolar II Disorder Workbook: Managing Recurring Depression, Hypomania, and Anxiety
Here’s the link to it on amazon https://www.amazon.com/Bipolar-Disorder-Workbook-Recurring-Depression/dp/1608827666/ref=mp_s_a_1_2?ie=UTF8&qid=1543983799&sr=8-2&pi=AC_SX236_SY340_QL65&keywords=bipolar+ii+workbook&dpPl=1&dpID=51oouPTTSLL&ref=plSrch
I did basic talk therapy for several years, no recommended reading, just come in and talk about how I'm feeling, situational details, etc. My favorite book on mindfulness is Mindfulness in Plain English. Tends to take the philosophy and spirituality out of it a bit and really does talk about it in Plain English (capital P and E.) If you don't feel like the therapist is a good fit, try another one. Having someone to talk to that I trusted and felt understood me was incredibly positive in my struggles with BPII.
It's just silly. I was self-medicating for 15-20 years. Mostly booze but some weed in phases. It was an awful period of my life. I'll take sobriety and Lamictal any day.
The day I started Lamictal, I read this and have never looked back. Sounds corny but it works. There's probably a weed version too. https://www.amazon.com/Allen-Carrs-Easy-Control-Alcohol/dp/0572028504
I was diagnosed late in life but always had issues that my parents not only ignored but exasperated, but my dad is also bipolar (un diagnosed) and refused help.
I just wrote my dad off this summer and literally my mom off today after some horrific thing she said.
But it has me reflecting back on how much better off I could have been with a parent who actually cared about their child’s well being.
Just that alone will do wonders.
I also suggest you read this
When I was at my absolute lowest, full of blind rage and sad about…who knows lol, I broke up with my bf. Then I instantly regretted it. He stopped talking to me. I cried for weeks. I turned to the DBT Handbook and journaled A LOT. I took a road trip. And this was all pre-diagnosis. Those three things helped me direct my feelings towards a healthy outlet instead of my parents and coworkers.
We got back together and I went back to the things I did pre-breakup…that’s when I realized I needed help. Receiving my diagnosis put so much into perspective.
What helped me isn’t 10000%, but it grounded me a lot before I even knew what I was truly dealing with. I’m wishing you the best!
Why Am I Still Depressed by Jim Phelps was the first book I read after being diagnosed and it really helped me come to terms with my diagnosis. It introduced to me the idea of the bipolar spectrum which really resonated with me and allowed me to be open to the idea of trying mood stabilizers and antipsychotics which I have since become stable on. I actually loved the book so much I bought another copy and gave it to my parents who also found it to be educational and I believe it’s helped them come to terms with my diagnosis as well.
sleep naked it - helps your body cool down naturally, use sheets only with natural fibers (bamboo and linen are super cooling) - so no clothes or bedding with polyester etc, sleep with a fan on, get a humidifier - the majority are cool mist and amazon has good deals (I got this one for $25 https://www.amazon.com/dp/B09P89YWQP?psc=1&ref=ppx\_yo2ov\_dt\_b\_product\_details), take a cool shower before bed, make sure you have a good mattress protector - you can get one that is cooling and waterproof or at least water resistant
Hey! No problem. I think you'll find those resources useful. For a more literary approach, I would recommend you read An Unquiet Mind by Kay Redfield Jamison. Kay is a leading specialist in the US in the field of bipolar, but she also has the diagnosis herself. It's so beautifully written and truly encapsulates the disorder (available here).
How are you going at the moment? Euthymic? Are you studying medicine?
I think it's important to learn about BP2, definitely. To an extent - learning the intricacies of all of the medications likely isn't 100% necessary. But it's so important to learn about the warning signs, triggers and symptoms of bipolar. Because, ultimately, much of the time, it's up to us to identify our episodes so that we can seek help.
I become particularly obsessed with learning everything there is to know about BP2 when I'm hypo. When I'm euthymic, I devote very little time to it. I would recommend you read Bipolar, Not So Much - it's written by two leading psychiatrists who specialise in BP2 (available here). Most books seem to be targeted at BP1. You can also watch this lecture - super informative.
I agree with the other comment. However, I would also like to add that medication needs to be taken regularly at the recommended times/dosages. Not adhering to that and it won't work properly.
I would strongly recommend that you speak with your physician about the issues.
And consider getting a pillbox. I have this tower pillbox (it's German amazon because I'm in Germany). This one doesn't take up much space. You can place it somewhere where you definitely go to either first thing in the morning or evening depending on when you're supposed to take your meds.
No worries! Like I mentioned, I'm hypo right now (not good) so I'm trying to isolate as much as possible and stay at home... and naturally that means going on commenting rampages lol 💀 Let me know if you have any questions!
I really hope it works out for you... bipolar isn't an illness you want to have, but at the same time, if you get the right diagnosis, your life will improve dramatically - because you'll start taking the right medications. Also - make sure you get a great psychologist and work on lifestyle factors (e.g. regular exercise, regular sleep schedule, avoiding drugs and booze etc).
If you do get the BP2 diagnosis, I'd recommend the book Bipolar, Not So Much - it's written by two leading psychiatrists in the US who specialise in BP2. I, along with many people on this sub, found it super useful (available here). For a more literary approach, you can check out An Unquiet Mind by Kay Redfield Jamison - amazing book, so beautifully written.
As mentioned a few time try AA zoom meetings helped and still help me. They let you attend from home and no social anxiety. Plus most times camera can be off. Even on still stay in pajamas! Seriously the combination of AA and therapy some meds I take Lamictal and it has helped me. I am 45 drank for 30 years and attempted suicide many many times. Spent 17 days in detox with severe delirium and tremens. My mental health has improved dramatically. Get some help. Google aa meetings near me and zoom meetings usually show up.
A good online group which has a Facebook page as well is called " Geeks Who Don't Drink" check them out on zoom they have 3 meetings a day. Zoom Id is: 2062531213 password: GWDD247 aa meeting guide
I think you would find the book This Naked Mind really useful (available here). It has changed my mindset about alcohol, although I'm still working on completely quitting.
This is a good quote from the book:
>"You drink to end the distress. The drink itself does not provide enjoyment, but you sincerely enjoy ending the nuisance of wanting a drink. The relief is so strong you feel happy, even giddy. You drink to get the feeling of peace that someone who is not dependent on alcohol always feels".
Good luck with it - cutting down has really helped me with my symptoms and general health. I just hope that one day I'm able to stop drinking completely.
These might help too. About 20% of adults in the USA have abused or been addicted to prescription drugs.
https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/prescription-drug-abuse/symptoms-causes/syc-20376813
https://www.webmd.com/mental-health/addiction/abuse-of-prescription-drugs
I read this book a couple years ago and since then I've really prioritized sleep. I learned so much about how important sleep is for the body and mind. I wonder if I would have developed bipolar disorder if I managed my sleep properly in high school and university.
https://www.amazon.com/Why-We-Sleep-Unlocking-Dreams/dp/1501144324
I ascribe to the Krapelin/Ghaemi/Phelps view that what is crucial in treatment is not whether mood is unipolar or bipolar but whether it is cyclical or not.
https://www.amazon.com/Depressed-Recognizing-Managing-Bipolar-Disorder/dp/0071462376
There is a lot of persistent depression or hard to treat depression that is more like "soft bipolar" or "phenotypically non-penetrant" bipolar.
Basically, if patient doesn't respond to anti-depressants or especially if anti-depressants make them irritable or hypomanic, put patient on Lamictal or Lithium and see if that works.
Stopping the cycling or recurrence is more important than level of current mood. Mood can be elevated once cycle is eliminated.
This isn't DSM-V orthodoxy, which tries to define distinct diagnostic categories, but reflective of the continuous nature of dimensions and latent variants in real world.
It sounds like the doctor was trying to say this with
It’s just called the dialectical behavior therapy skills workbook - I got it here: https://www.amazon.com/Dialectical-Behavior-Therapy-Skills-Workbook/dp/1684034582/ref=mp_s_a_1_2_sspa?crid=1QUQV87MWBRI4&keywords=dbt&qid=1663033892&sprefix=dbt%2Caps%2C97&sr=8-2-spons&psc=1&spLa=ZW5jcnlwdGVkUXVhbGlmaWVyPUE...
My therapist recommended me this book for DBT for PTSD but I have yet to use it, however she says its very effective w her patients: https://www.amazon.com/Dialectical-Behavior-Therapy-Skills-Workbook/dp/1684032644/ref=nodl_?dplnkId=21f03af7-a2c3-4bc9-af03-213dfe86ced5
It can be expensive so I can try to find an online ver (or you can). Just dm me if you still want it!
I used the DBT Skills for Bipolar Disorder. My therapist gave it to me. https://www.amazon.com/Dialectical-Behavior-Therapy-Workbook-Disorder/dp/1572246286
DBT skills class was very difficult for me - I guess I have cognitive problems that get in my way. This book brought it to a level that I could understand, and how it applies to the bipolar diagnosis.
Getting the diagnosis was one part of the journey. Finding the right meds and support system is another. Looks like he's lucky to have you. As for the meds, I don't know trileptal. I was on lithium for 1++ years and I didn't feel any improvement, only the annoyances. I've been on lamotrigine for 6+ months and I think that I've been loads, loads better after 3-4 months. Finding the right meds may be a very frustrating journey too.
You may have bipolar support groups in your area. There are some books on this topic (e.g. this or that), I don't know if they're so helpful but it's worth a try? I downloaded them and skimmed through them but I guess I wasn't at the right place to process them at the time.
Good luck to the 2 of you.
This is a book I got my boyfriend when I was diagnosed.
He read it while I was reading other self help bipolar books.
Hope this helps.
If you can sit down on a Japanese style shower stool (this one can definitely be used as a shampoo shelf when not in use if you’re embarrassed about wanting one) it makes it a bit easier if you’re absolutely exhausted but can’t stand how gross you are any more.
i keep them wherever i spend the most time. so that is at my desk, in my living room, or my kitchen. that way they are always visible. i also take them as soon as i wake up. it is the first thing i do in the morning.
there is another pill reminder on amazon that i thought was interesting https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B0853CCYW4/ref=ox_sc_saved_title_7?smid=A38XVLR94VXDPI&psc=1
i have a hard time remembering my evening med so i set a reminder on my alexa
An Unquiet Mind by Kay Redfield Jamison is a stunning novel, so beautifully written. It's an autobiography (you can buy it here). I actually found my first copy in a second-hand bookshop when I was hypomanic and thought it was a sign from god, lol.
The overwhelming consensus is that antidepressants can cause rapid cycling and potentially trigger manias and cause other kinds of dysphoria in people with bipolar.
Some doctors even believe that no one with bipolar should be on an antidepressant. Others think it’s ok, but only during depression phases and only in combination with a mood stabilizer, and that patients need very careful management while on antidepressants in order to watch for these bad effects.
Meds for bipolar disorder are very different than meds for “normal” depression. Mood stabilizers are the go-to meds, not antidepressants. Antidepressants make things worse for tons of people with bipolar.
This book is from the same doctors who do the website, with much of the same info packaged in tidy form.
They helped me a lot in understanding things.
I've struggled in the past with street drugs and drink pretty heavily even now. I very much used drugs before my BP2 diagnosis to help with the pain, largely because the meds I was on (e.g. SNRIs) were doing nothing - perhaps even making things worse. I was smoking weed daily etc etc. I read this book (The Naked Mind) and it has really, really helped and I think that a lot of the advice transfers across to drugs as well.
I've found that getting the right treatment has been the key for me. Once you get the meds right, you hurt less and so feel less of a need to self-medicate. It doesn't make drugs "less fun" - it just means that you use them very occasionally to relax and unwind, rather than to cope. Which I think is where the damage comes from. You learn to enjoy life sober and to feel in control. Being dependent on something that helps you to escape reality is a horrible feeling, as I'm sure you know.
You also come to realise how destructive drugs are for your mental health - you might feel in control and as though they are helping, when really they are just a bandaid. I'm glad you're off the oxys and opioids in general, that shit will literally ruin your life at the drop of a hat. Just look at what's going on in the US right now.
Anyway, I'd 100% recommend reading that book and I hope that you're able to find the right medications soon. It will really help, I promise, but it's a long journey. Have a great weekend 😊 🌞
I feel you. I dont know what your exercise routine is, but daily exercise tremendously reduced my anger/rage. punching bag in particular helped me. Also, please forgive my intrusion but the opiates definitely dont help. They may mask things and make you feel good in the short term, but in the long term they only perpetuate the cycle. Im a recovering opiate addict, feel free to DM me if you like.
Remember anger is a poison, it only harms you and others around you. Try and remember this when you feel the rage slipping in, this also was a big help to me. ✊️
If you're into books, I finished one the other day dealing with intrusive thoughts and lots of other stuff. Life-changing. You can have a peek here. I hope it helps. Good luck!
I’d be mindful that mixed states can affect one’s outlook. In a mixed state I can be more agitated and even my racing thoughts and paint good/neutral memories black.
As far as support from your partner, he might not really be a primary source of verbal support. Even the most empathetic people would be considered one of many aspects of a support system. I truly feel like there’s not much they can do besides listen, learn, and do activities with you. Therapy, medication and simply being around family (social supports) and be part of it.
I know that you just received a diagnosis so it’s early stages for you but if it’s an option i encourage you to seek a good therapist.
There are two books I can’t shut up about. I wish I read them earlier in my diagnosis:
We're glad to hear you think so! We put a lot of time into the design to make the experience "an iceberg of complexity" as to not overwhelm users.
Direct device integration (Garmin, Fitbit, etc) is a high priority on our roadmap, however for now you will need to import your Garmin data into Google Fit before you're able to import it into Metriport. To do this, you can use a third party app called Health Sync that will allow you to import your Garmin data into Google Fit. (We do this personally with a Garmin Fenix 5X)
It’s possible that the psychiatrist will recommend sleep hygiene in addition to whichever sleep aid you use.
Also might not hurt to add melatonin gummies if they are available to you. Here’s the one I use:
When I’m have a week of bad sleep, I tend to combine a combination of sleep aids to help break me out of it and stabilize my mood.
I have not mastered this by ANY means buuuut what helps me brush more than not at all is:
Keeping a toothbrush in the shower and by the sink - I don’t shower as often as I should but for some reason it’s easier because I’m already in the water so I feel like I might as well
Using kid’s toothpaste (I found a yummy melon one at a Korean grocery store hehe)
Silicone bristles!!! Changed my life!!!!!!
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Yes. I can't give you advice because I do the same thing. I've had about two hours sleep and I'm now up @11am having a cigarette and a cuppa coffee..
It took me alot of strength to get out of my room, which gives me anxiety. But yeah, I'm also a night owl.
I use this to help sleep, while on Reddit in the foreground. Smile on the inside.
If it didn't help, I wouldn't post it, kido 🎶 https://tinyurl.com/WatdwbhW
These cards are amazing. Pick one for your problem, and do your best to apply it. Some may not. Gives some great skills on how to handle these feelings. Good vibes sent your way. I hope you find some peace.
The DBT Deck for Clients and Therapists: 101 Mindful Practices to Manage Distress, Regulate Emotions & Build Better Relationships https://www.amazon.com/dp/1683731441/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_glt_i_6JXWRZCBWKMBA8BVYKYH?_encoding=UTF8&psc=1
SO here. we are going through the book by Julie Fast called Loving Someone with Bipolar Disorder and it has information on how to make a plan for managing the disorder together. this includes identifying early signs for hypomania/mania and depression. it might help you two figure out what's going on sooner or on an ongoing basis since it relates to both external symptoms and behaviors (identifiable by the partner) as well as internal ones for the person with bipolar (how they feel, their thought patterns).
I had a really hard time communicating the right way at first. This actually helped me transition from being paralyzed with emotion and instinctually going non verbal:
TeeTurtle | Holiday Reversible Octopus Plushie | Red + Green | Happy + Angry | Show Your Mood Without Saying a Word! https://www.amazon.com/dp/B096N68X7J/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_glt_i_9HVTZS5EY819YPADFNK4?psc=1
I’ve since learned how to communicate much better with episodes and moods. Takes a lot of trust, and took me years in therapy to even understand what healthy communicating actually was. But this lil octopus really helped me
Heck yeah, you’re speaking my language. Long time sufferer, recently diagnosed and recently retired for the mental health and addictions sector. Circadian rhythms being off is a biggie for folks living with BP. These glasses may help, I’m waiting on mine to arrive. May support a gentler transition through the 24 hour cycle. Night Site glasses
I've been saying I'm on the bipolar spectrum for years ever since I read the book by Dr. James Phelps called Why Am I Still Depressed. Here's a link I found:
https://www.amazon.com/Spectrum-Approach-Mood-Disorders-Unipolar-Practical/dp/0393711463
I was on 15 mg of Zyprexa for about 6 months (along with lithium and Lamictal). During that period I was able to lose 5 or 10 pounds. At the time I was counting calories, taking care to get good nutrition, and exercising routinely (about 40 minutes of walking a day). I was also using the cronometer.com website to track how many calories I was eating and burning.
To lose more weight I would have had to cut more calories or exercise more intensely. I did lose over 20 pounds before that while on lithium and Lamictal but I lost steam. On average, cutting 500 calories a day results in losing a pound a week.
You can do it! Dealing with cravings can be hard but it gets easier each time you say no to an urge. After a slip, just get back on track as soon as you can. A bad day -- or a few bad days -- won't slow down your progress much.
I have definitely struggled with being overweight. I gained 60 pounds when I went through a long depression and have been working hard to drop that weight.
What works for me is counting calories. The tool I use is cronometer (cronometer.com) but there are others. Their phone app is pretty terrible but I use their website version on my PC.
I also exercise (walking), and track that too. Every day I can see how my calories burned compare to calories eaten.
I still have days where I binge but it's only one or two days in a row rather than overeating every day. Seeing the numbers every day helps me keep more focused even if I'm having a terrible day. I'm probably a bit OCD about all this but it's been working.
That’s awesome! Stay positive, don’t let the mania choose you! DBT cards are awesome for me. Got them on Amazon and they have skills to handle negative situations! https://www.amazon.com/dp/1683731441/ref=cm_sw_r_awdo_navT_a_HRQ89HG1A11YV2KQMVE2
For me I am doomed, because I just have 0 feeling for time and always choose instant gratification over better plans.
I also never visit my pdoc anymore because I leave it for "tomotrrow".
Lithium helped my concentration only slightly and it was already kinda life-changing, but at the moment I stopped to get a grip on which med does what.
I don't think I ever forgot my meds more than 3x since I bought:
a year ago.
Forget about the Days on it or pre-loading them, just fill your pillbox when you take your morning meds and carry it everywhere like a phone.
I swear it became like a wallet for me that I take everywhere even when not using the meds soon.
I have so many different needle threaders designed for so many different purposes 😅 My favorite is this Clover one:
Clover 8611 Needle Threader for Embroidery Needles-Apple Green https://smile.amazon.com/dp/B0013AK9HU/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_glt_fabc_3F3YMVXG3FWG47M42B0R
Great work! i have taken before-and-after pics, but never tried filming... that's brilliant! I have to try this :)
I did something similar once, but recording my screen instead of my room. The idea was that I'd be able to watch how I worked, how much time I was wasting.
The super cool part though was, it was like a video journal of my life. I could go back to any date and time and see what I was doing!
(Eventually, I was watching timelapses of myself watching timelapses...)
I need to find that app again... Aha!! It's still online! TimeSnapper -- (free "classic" version, for Windows)
The literature of Steve Stack does it the most justice. Here's a lit review. Easier than reading Durkeim's Suicide. And more up to date https://smallpdf.com/shared#st=c462ca85-42c3-4ef6-a766-731e1f3d1983&fn=j.1943-278X.2000.tb01074.x.pdf&ct=1593148245760&tl=share-document&rf=link
Completely understand! I started using the Daylio app and it helps because that’s how the moods are broken out: rad, good, meh, bad, awful (all assigned to different colors). Super simple and like yeah, “caveman” emotions.
It actually helped me get MORE in touch with my moods because sometimes when none of those emotions quite fit, you’re able to create unique ones and assign them to a color.
So now I have access to tons of emotions I wouldn’t have been able to articulate months ago.
It also helps with visually seeing my episodes happening.
I’d attach a picture for an example but I don’t know how. Here’s a link to the app: https://daylio.net
I (and a lot of other peeps on this sub it seems) use the app Daylio to track moods. If you get the premium you can customize all of the moods and activities. That has been helpful for me to see and share with my therapist how my moods are fluctuating. Can also help me identify triggers, i.e. I have a section dedicated to "The Bads", stuff like drinking, weed, ciggies. etc.
I also have a habit tacker posted up in my kitchen to help me keep track of the self care I need to do to on a daily, weekly, and monthly basis to keep my safety net intact. I use one similar to this. Stuff like drinking water, taking vitamins and meds, going outside, stretching and/or exercise, etc.
I use a little notebook to make daily to do lists of things outside my habits, like work, errands, social things.
And I journal most days. I just sit down and write about my day, or if there is something bothering me, I write about that. It is helpful to go back and read the entires occasionally to reflect on the moods and feelings I had.
Does it work? I dunno. I'm still extremely unstable and nothing feels good. But I drink 64 oz of water a day and feel at least some satisfaction when I get to the end of the month and can see that I at least tried to take care of myself every day.
Thats what we use. Damn, im on 30 of the adderall, but rarely take my second dose in the afternoon, i only work part time till noon, so i dont need it much after work. Im the head vet tech at an animal hosp and i have to keep a tight leash on my squirrel doctors lol so i cant be a squirrel myself
I get them on Amazon! Fair warning there is definitely a mineral taste to them. Especially the first one linked. The second is a new brand I'm trying since the price went up on the other and there is less of a 'sea' taste.
Flyby Electrolyte Liquid drops https://www.amazon.com/dp/B079S9QN6S?ref=ppx_pop_mob_ap_share
Ionic Lytes Electrolyte https://www.amazon.com/dp/B088G1BGB3?ref=ppx_pop_mob_ap_share
I'm only on 225mg and cannot recall the simplest words sometimes. I'm a disorganized person to begin with so adding lamictal has made things pretty difficult. Here are 2 things I tried which have little to no proof of effectiveness but also cannot hurt you. I believe they may have helped a little. 1) Magnesium threonate. It's an absorbable form of magnesium (will not stay in your gut and cause diarrhea) that crosses the blood brain barrier and supposedly helps memory and cognition.
I use a monthly pill organizer. Pain to fill all at once, BUT then you don’t have to deal with pill bottles ever except 15 minutes once a month haha. Each day’s number is on each little compartment, so I know for sure if I took it or not. Every morning, I take my pills, put the container away, and take out the next day’s. And because it’s numbered, I never have to obsess over if I actually took them or not—I can see the empty pill box that matches what day it is.
This is a really good book about bipolar disorder: https://www.amazon.com/Bipolar-Not-Much-Chris-Aiken/dp/0393711749
It talks about your exact response to antidepressants as a common one with bipolar. Working then not, upping dose, working then not.
You can’t just cut yourself off the bad stuff all at one. Especially caffeine. Taper off of everything slowly. Cut off one habit at a time. You weren’t drinking much beer so you’re probably just missing it psychologically. Try going to AA meetings for a couple weeks to help you get past that. Replace sugary junk foods with a low-sugar yogurt like Siggi’s. For caffeine switch to black tea for a week, then to green tea, then to decaf matcha.
https://www.amazon.com/Bipolar-Disorder-Workbook-Recurring-Depression/dp/1608827666
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THis one is easy to read
I feel the impulse to the same thing because I always want to see my hypomania in full effect again.
I never do. I have to remind myself how much more stable I've became. I can't emotionally relate to that person, but he was struggling so much more than me right now.
Tell your doctor everything. In a way, their job is to serve and appeal to your needs, not the other way around. If your medication dose feels too high or doesn't feel like it's working, bring it up. Also, I've been missing doses too, I try very hard to make it apart of my routine (like brushing teeth). There are pill boxes or timers caps to help remember if you've taken them that day.
Good luck!
This book helped me a lot. It had information both for people with bipolar and for people who love people with bipolar.
The Bipolar Disorder Survival Guide, Third Edition: What You and Your Family Need to Know https://www.amazon.com/dp/1462534988/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_glt_fabc_2ZPM9ABFWEZ97TV8ZSFK
I can’t speak for your GF, but it helps me to just have someone listen with judgement, without suggesting what I should do. One person said to me once, “that must be really hard for you.” And I finally felt like someone heard me.
I’ve only been taking meds for a couple months (lamictal and latuda) and I’ve already missed two doses (not in a row) but GOD that crash is something else. For some reason I didn’t think it’d effect me? It was crazy how drastic my mood shifted I went from feeling ok to being immobile-so scary. Anyways the second time was enough for me to order these babies that very day 10 Pcs Portable Pill Case,... https://www.amazon.com/dp/B07BF3R938?ref=ppx_pop_mob_ap_share theyre portable pill cases and you can attach them to your keys, that way you NEVER have to go through that again, I really hope this helps, and I hope you’re doing much better!
If she isn’t in therapy, consider it if possible. It can help get her meds figured out and set up a routine that works best for her. It’ll also take you outside the nuts and bolts and put you back into a support position.
This book is written for partners, but the communication and education should translate well. Maybe give it a look: When Your Partner Has Bipolar Disorder: Helping You and Your Partner Build a Balanced and Healthy Relationship https://www.amazon.com/dp/1646113357/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_glt_fabc_DTMZEVW6JGKT59JP8TDH?_encoding=UTF8&psc=1
It is evidence based and easy to read.
If you want to know why you shouldn't stay up all night I suggest you read: Why We Sleep (Unlocking the Power of Sleep and Dreams)
Made me finally appreciate how important sleep is and why I should give myself as much sleep as I need, as much as it's within my control.
Too fancy for me. I use these: BUG HULL Pill Organizer 2 Times a Day Upgrade Version, Easy Open AM PM Pill Box with Push Open Button, Twice a Day Pill Case, Medication Organizer for Vitamins, Fish Oils https://www.amazon.com/dp/B07P183DHZ/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_glt_fabc_61EQEHTJ7ZT3RH86EQKD?_encoding=UTF8&psc=1
They work for all my pills, med compliance is so much easier now.
Yes! All the anxiety. I have many recommendations but the most useful, direct, and easily accessible one to start with off the top of my head would be the Mindfulness and Acceptance Workbook for Anxiety https://www.amazon.com/Mindfulness-Acceptance-Workbook-Anxiety-Commitment/dp/1572244992. This is by far (in my opinion) the best place to start.
Also anxietycanada.com has amazing step-by-step resources for learning about and managing anxiety.
Hope this is a helpful start!
Hey, sister! I was 11 years old when I first tried to commit suicide so I can relate to being so damn sad from a stupidly young age. It’s not even right. A bipolar diagnosis is a hard thing to handle but there is hope. Stability is in reach. And as far as depression “always coming back” there are ways to cope. There are steps you can take to recognize a depressive episode is coming and lessen the duration and severity of it. Even a way to halt it in its tracks which I had NO idea about. I just learned of this today. I haven’t even had the chance to order this yet but someone recommended and said it’s helped with managing the disorder I can wait to read it and apply it to my life. I need shorter periods of depression and longer periods of stability which I think this book can help provide us both with!
https://www.amazon.com/Mindfulness-Bipolar-Disorder-Neuroscience-Symptoms/dp/1626251851/ref=nodl_
Ah, perfect. I have heard of great memoirs to read but have never read any. I have the bipolar disorder survival guide 3rd edition. Unfortunately I can’t bring myself to read it because I’m overwhelmed at how big the book is. I couldn’t find the 3rd edition in an audiobook but the 2nd edition is and I’ve opened the 3rd to read along with and see how similar they are and it’s almost word for word. I hear the only diff between the two is the 3rd hits bipolar 2 more.
https://www.amazon.com/Bipolar-Disorder-Survival-Guide-Third/dp/1462537278/ref=nodl_ If you’re more of a audiobook person you can download an app called audiobookstore.com. You’ll have to go to the internet and pay for a book but it will be downloaded to the app. They do this so they can sell books at a cheaper price! I think I paid like 8 bucks for the second edition and it’s packed with information.
It’s off of Amazon. Daily Pill Organizer (Twice-a-Day) - Weekly AM/PM Pill Box,Round Medicine Organizer,7 Day Pill Container,Vitamin Organizer for Vitamin/Fish Oils/Supplement https://www.amazon.com/dp/B07RGJSY5X/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_glt_fabc_Q0D5ETYY0WJ3NDQZF1PE
They’re awesome because (depending on your cocktail) they’re large enough you can also fit in a couple bigger vitamins or allergy meds in addition to the cuckoo pills. I have these ones that were literal lifesavers for my Med organization when I had to travel a lot for work
Amazon. It's an actual book, not app. I always forget about checking an app daily and get annoyed by reminders. It forces me to prioritize, schedule, not put too many tasks on my to do list, and say something positive at start & end of day. That last thing was a game changer -- I found it really hard to find anything positive to say at first.
Here it is: Panda Planner - Daily Planner, Calendar and Gratitude Journal to Increase Productivity, Time Management & Happiness - Hardcover, Undated Day - Quarter Year Planner - Guaranteed (Black) https://www.amazon.com/dp/B013Z5Y70K/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_apa_i_Nlp2Bb92GP9HP
I don’t have one for myself, but I’ve bought several for my son that has autism.
The best price for quality is on amazon.
I am pretty sure the last one I’ve got him is this one .
I went every week for an hour. Number of sessions totally depends on you and your unique needs. Yes, I found CBT to be useful in conjunction with pharmaceutical interventions. It works to retrain your brain to observe itself, rather than just acting in a reactionary way. Honestly, just try this book if you want to see what it's about: https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/0380810336/ref=as_li_tl?ie=UTF8&tag=feeelinggood-20&camp=1789&creative=9325&linkCode=as2&creativeASIN=0380810336&linkId=fc4d131a7ed73813b6a09fbd431b66fd
I find small routines like making my bed every morning and getting dressed even if it is just for home. Especially if I'm headed down the darkness.
I've included a link to a helpful book.
This one I've linked I use, I find it helpful.
I have this one — it can be kind of a pain to refill sometimes but I like it a lot since I can take individual compartments when I travel and don’t have to take the whole thing and it holds my shit-load of meds.
I ecently purchased and started this book. I have so far found it to be a huge help, motivator and tool. I highly recommend this! the comprehensive clinicians guide to cognitive behavioral therapy
I have no idea. I personally no longer believe that the "state" I've been chasing exists.
But as to the questions you have about your diagnosis, my therapist recommended this book to me, and I found it helpful in identifying symptoms in my own life. Fwiw...
Less than Crazy: Living Fully with Bipolar II https://www.amazon.com/dp/B007UPDCNU/ref=cm_sw_r_other_apa_i_PAcbEbH545PDR
There is a huge misperception about melatonin. 1mg or less is all anyone needs. Too much and it can have the opposite effect. (I can try to pull the article, but trust me.) When I took 1mg then 2mg then 3mg all that happened was I’d conk out and then be awake 2 hours later, unable to sleep. When I switched to 1/2 mg (there is even a 333mcg tablet) I slept through the night.
[Basically you make your own melatonin, just not enough to make you sleep. So a little bump from a pill helps boost your drive to sleep. BUT, if you take a large dose of melatonin, your natural production of melatonin shuts down. Your brain says, ‘there’s plenty of melatonin out here, let’s turn off the melatonin factory!’ So a few hours in your body isn’t making any, the pill runs out and you wake up.]
Magnesium is a muscle relaxant. When I went into premature labor, they had me on IV magnesium to stop the muscular contractions in my uterus. It also made me feel like a wet noodle and I slept all day. Epsom salt is a magnesium salt and is readily absorbed into the body. It works better for me than oral magnesium. But try Natural Calm (a powder you mix with water) or a magnesium pill.
There are lots of different forms of magnesium with various but similar benefits. I take this one which is a blend of a few different types. It keeps me calm.
Also consider reducing all your lights in The house at sunset to signal your brain to wind down. And make sure your computer and phone have f. Lux or similar to adjust out blue light at night which can cause insomnia.
I just tried the following diffuser thing out and remembered this thread: https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B07Q3QG72Z/
5 drops of lavender, a 2 drops each of sweet marjoram, cedarwood, and frankincense. It smells both relaxing and medicinal. I put it in the bathroom while I had a bubble bath (purple light recommended), and have run it in the bedroom before sleep-time (red light recommended). Aromatherapy is not real medicine, but good smells are good smells.
Yes, talk to your doctor but also go in armed with what hypomania could look like for you. I also recommend Dr. Robert McKeon on youtube, he does a really great hour long lecture.
But for me hypomania almost looks like hyperfocus, becoming obsessive over things. I spend more money and I seem hyper. I am also really creative and motivated and feel on top of the world. Sleeping becomes difficult -makes going to bed harder.
I've turned to journalling with the aid of a few apps (since being medicated) to record, reflect, and establish, routines, goals, and identify triggers and odd behavior i.e. how i act when I'm hypo/mixed/depressed.
And yes the depression side of bipolar is easy to identify and treat, its the hypo/mania that is harder because most people feel really good or don't realize that behavior is off. Also if you feel things really strongly - like all or nothing, then in my personal experience it is likely you have bipolar as one of the symptoms is heightened emotions.
Here is the journal I use. Check it out if you like. It has some great bipolar information and resources in it too.
Becka's Best Bipolar Mood Journal: Mastering mood disorders one day at a time https://www.amazon.com/dp/1072851601/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_apa_i_XLnqDbY0E8RRT