This sounds like r/psychosis
In which case your mom has literally gone insane and can no longer make sense of the world.
Depending on the state you may be able to get her committed. In which case just a few weeks would have her sounding normal again. But many states laws make care impossible. So unless she is hurting people you’ll have to treat her yourself.
psychosis is a brain injury and must be healed. She cant be counted on to care or even see anything correctly. So you can’t hold her responsible for anything she does.
get your family to training and support groups: https://www.nami.org/Find-Support
this book helps with communication: https://www.amazon.com/dp/0967718937/
do everything you can to calm her and gain her trust. Apologize for anything and everything. Regulate your own mood so she won’t pick up negative moods from others.
Learn about sleep hygiene and do everything you can to get her as much sleep as possible every night
Assign people to earn her trust and take her out in the day time. Any activity she’ll do that can wear her down for better sleep.
Dissociative identity disorder. Formerly known as multiple personality disorder, this disorder is characterized by "switching" to alternate identities. You may feel the presence of two or more people talking or living inside your head, and you may feel as though you're possessed by other identities. Each identity may have a unique name, personal history and characteristics, including obvious differences in voice, gender, mannerisms and even such physical qualities as the need for eyeglasses. There also are differences in how familiar each identity is with the others. People with dissociative identity disorder typically also have dissociative amnesia and often have dissociative fugue.
Intermittent explosive disorder. Or rage attacks. Have look here. Mayo clinic is a very reputable clinic. https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/intermittent-explosive-disorder/symptoms-causes/syc-20373921
There is greater understanding that disproportionate rage is not just "road rage", but a sytemic disorder. Look also in google for "sudden extreme rage".
There is lot of hope. Good luck. PM welcome.
I use an app called Daylio which I log my general mood, activities I was doing, and have sub-categories for any particular thoughts/feelings that I had at the time. Over a period of time, I can look at associations - activities/thoughts that occur frequently, the relationship with mood, etc.
It's also handy because I can export, print off and freak my GP out. I'm sure the psychiatrist might show some raised eyebrows, but then they've probably seen/hearing it all before...
I just spend the better part of an hour searching through reddit for anything related to dissociation disorders. I have come up empty handed, except for this one post.
It seems that beyond a couple of vacant subreddits and dead comment threads this is all there is.
I won't lie to you I haven't been diagnosed with anything and self diagnosis is something i frankly can't take very seriously, so i won't even attempt to diagnose myself. With that being said I have always felt that i was going crazy.
At the time of writing i believe that i suffer from some degree of dissociative personality disorder, as well as sever derealization. But like i said, take it with a grain of salt, as i am not medicated and have not been diagnosed by anyone other than the wikipedia page.
To get to the point, yes, i too have this innate fear of silence, i have found no ways of coping, none that do not involve music that is. If you're interested i purchased an excellent wireless headset. It is relatively cheap and has very good battery life, i would strongly recommend it. Beyond that i have a couple books that i am currently reading on the subject of derealization if that would interest you?
Feeling unreal : depersonalization disorder and the loss of the self
The Stranger In The Mirror by M.D. Steinberg
I hope this helps you and merry Christmas
EDIT: I just remembered a website called http://www.rainymood.com/ it sometimes helps me.
You're not alone, it something a lot of people apparently experience. Here's a link to an article about some who studied it and gave it a very lame name.
https://www.headspace.com/blog/2017/04/09/high-places-phenomenon/
Schizophrenia is horrible. I had to deal with voices all the time. And they would say horrible things. And the tv would talk to me. I still struggle with delusions sometimes. Tonight I thought that someone was sending me messages through the music at work. I know now that it is just a delusion. I used to have panic attacks too. I had really bad anxiety. What are your panic attacks like? I would recommend trying meditation. Headspace is a great app for guided meditations. https://www.headspace.com/invite/FSP7nxz Focus on mindfulness and living in the moment. If your having a panic attack try a grounding technique. I like to breathe in for 4 seconds and out for 8 seconds for 2 minutes. Or list 3 things you see, 2 things you hear and one thing you feel. Wiggle your fingers and your toes. Remember you're living in the now. If you have bad thoughts just observe them. Look at them objectively. Look at the evidence. Let the thoughts pass like a leaf down the river or a cloud in the sky. Label what you're experiencing as a thought or a feeling. That helped me. Hopefully it can help you too.
Hey, I'm a surgical neurophysiologist who has a book out now on Amazon that covers within an entire chapter the science and stories behind TMS, how many have called it a game changer and life saver for them. I hope this book can help many in this community !
There were times I didn't work, for 5 consecutive years in my twenties. Instead of working a job, I worked on my recovery. Learn about yourself, your diagnosis, and treatment options.
Just because we live in a ridiculous capitalist world does NOT mean you have less intrinsic value as a human being if you aren't working.
Figure out your values (for me: friendship/love, creativity, adventure, humor, kindness, equality) and then figure out something you feel gives life meaning. Obviously... It isn't easy. One thing that helped me so much was the 5 book (Amazon link)
If you find you value work, there are jobs you can do from home, too. In my state, we have something called the Office of Vocational Rehabilitation. The OVR helped me find what type of job I wanted that would work for me, and they paid for my training. My life turned around a lot after that.
Good luck! Remember you aren't alone in the way you feel and the things you experience. Message if you feel like it would help!
You can get mini tooth brush thingys that come with tooth paste on them and don't require water (https://www.amazon.com/Colgate-Fresh-Disposable-Toothbrush-Peppermint/dp/B00HXAIN90). I use these when I'm at work and when my brain just can't anymore.
Another useful thing to add, but they are a bit pricey are enof sachets (https://simplyenof.com/) which can be added to food without altering the taste to create a more balanced meal. If you're only really eating a limited amount of comfort foods, it can be hard to eat a healthy diet, adding a sachet to your comfort food is easy and one less thing to worry about. Priority is eating, more than what you're eating but this can help.
Hi. Asperger's syndrome isn't a separate diagnosis any longer, it's simply known as autism or
ASD now. Hyperacusis is a type of reduced tolerance to sound. People with hyperacusis often find ordinary noises too loud, while loud noises can cause discomfort, pain and anxiety. Hyperacusis can be an autism trait but it can also be caused by exposure to loud noise. I'm autistic, I have sensory processing disorder as well as hyperacusis so I use these ear defenders when things become too overwhelming. If you've been experiencing sensory overload and difficulties with social interactions since early childhood it's worth looking into possible autism but the symptoms you've mentioned by themselves aren't enough for a diagnosis. The AQ50 is a short online test that can help give you an idea about whether you should pursue an autism assessment.
I suggest you buy The Jealousy Workbook. Although it was designed for people in open relationships it’s actually useful for anyone who is struggling with jealousy in a relationship. What it comes down to is that you’re insecure and you’re afraid your partner will leave you for “someone better, prettier, smarter,” etc. Your partner is being honest with you and showing no reason to distrust them so the work you need to do is on yourself internally.
Do you think this might be intrusive thoughts? I finished one the other day about intrusive thoughts (and other stuff). It was good! Take a look at it here maybe?
I didn't gain any weight from anafranil, but my body would twitch. It was really embarrassing. I would try to drink water from a water fountain and my leg would flail out and kick it. Have you tried a workbook, they really help this is the best one imho and my psychologist, it doesn't have OCD in the title but it does tackle it OCD Workbook
Yea Id say the absolute easiest thing you can do from the advice I gave is get a program that lowers bluelight on your phone and computer if you tend to use them at night. For PC I use https://justgetflux.com/ and my android phone I use a program called twilight but the newer phones have a setting to lower blue light built in which is nice. Since phones/TVs are used to mimic the sun it tricks your brain into thinking its daytime. This helps fix that. Might be worth looking into if you find yourself on the computer or on your phone/tablet in the hours before bed. And just having a set time to go to bed and wake up is really really important too.
Sadly, i am pretty unstable aswell right now, so it would be unwise for both of us to talk to each other, however, i do want to share this emotional support website with you: https://www.7cups.com/ I hope this can help, it's free to use and the people who you'd be talking to are trained volunteers.
Okay so I'm going to be honest, I had no idea what cluster B personality traits were until I just looked them up. Here is where I went for reference. Now reading those traits you should be able to realize that they are not good. And sometimes it's hard to see the negative sides of ourselves since we always know our intentions, our justifications. If your psychologist is telling you to seek out psychiatric's then they must see some of these negative traits. Go to the psychiatrist if they see the same thing then maybe that's a pattern emerging and some prescribed medicine can help you be a better you. There's no harm in trying, you ain't going to the looney bin.
You're definitely not crazy. Not at all. The worst part for me is that it goes into remission and just makes the "I was faking it all along!" thoughts even worse.
Are you familiar with Headspace? It's a guided meditation site/app. They partnered with the state of Michigan during COVID to provide some free meditations. A few of them are around 3 minutes, which may be perfect if you need a quick relief. You can find them here.
I was recently diagnosed with BPD after a lifetime of anxiety and depression, and I feel like I finally have a frame that fits my life and makes sense. It helps me understand that there are reasons behind what's happened in my life that aren't just "You are bad and you fuck up everything good," which was the story I have told myself all these years.
Also, I know what you mean about not feeling sick sometimes and like you're acting or being dramatic. Do you journal? I use an app called Exist.io to keep track of my moods, and it's been helpful for me to see that I'm genuinely not acting-- I just cycle in and out of terrible depression and anxiety, and when I'm not feeling that way it feels less real. But that doesn't mean it actually WAS less real.
Sharing vulnerable things with someone who is trained to help you can be such a relief. I hope your new provider is kind and open with you. I'm excited for what's next for you, and sending you big hugs.
I'd definitely say start looking into DBT. Some of the resources are workbooks, and explain themselves very well. I've done DBT myself, and it definitely helped me cope with my symptoms in less self-destructive ways.
I'd also recommend some meditation. While it may sound a little odd, off putting, or vogue, it's actually well researched and well supported as a method of treatment. I'd recommend Headspace, an app which is free (for many of the guided meditations) and quite effective. The concept is fairly well explained here. It's an easy, inviting, and accessible mode to explore self-awareness, which I think will help you immensely.
They aren't just some thoughts - you're dealing with some truly distressing emotional territory here. Don't invalidate yourself in that regard.
Do you have friends with whom you feel emotionally safe and open? This is often the next best thing to a therapist, and while they may not have the expertise or training, an open ear and comforting presence is most often what we need most.
In terms of distraction, don't feel that you need to distract yourself from your problems. They will always be there, whether you acknowledge them or not. This is not to discourage you, but to rather impress upon you the necessity of developing a healthier relationship with your fears and anxieties. As Carl Jung said, "One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, but by making the darkness conscious. The later procedure, however, is disagreeable and therefore not popular." In other words, don't try to repress the dark feelings, but try to understand them and accept them a little more.
I'd recommend some meditation. While it may sound a little odd, off putting, or vogue, it's actually well researched and well supported as a method of treatment. I'd recommend Headspace, an app which is free (for many of the guided meditations) and quite effective. The concept is fairly well explained here. It's an easy, inviting, and accessible mode to explore self-awareness, which I think will help you immensely.
If it was real, i'm so sorry.
But, i'm afraid the picture is definetly fake. This is an AI generated human picture from https://thispersondoesnotexist.com. You can realise it if you look at the details like eyes, teeth, etc. If you dig this website, you'll know what i mean.
Check this out: What Color is Your Brain Scan?: The Answers are in Your Head... https://www.amazon.com/dp/1490558969/ref=cm_sw_r_sms_awdb_btf_t1_yDMCFbZ0BGY9N There are a lot of actions we can take, walking, finding positive & supportive friends, joining social groups, support groups, find hobbies that you have a passion for
There are a lot of actions we take to improve are conditions. Exercise, positive uplifting friends, look up a study by Dr. Proffit at the university of Virginia, I wrote about in this book: What Color is Your Brain Scan?: The Answers are in Your Head... https://www.amazon.com/dp/1490558969/ref=cm_sw_r_sms_awdb_btf_t1_yDMCFbZ0BGY9N
Its focus is Prozac but it is still discussing antidepressants as a whole. It looks like he has a more recent book which I haven't read called Ordinarily Well.
It looks like the author of Listening to Prozac has a more recent book, Ordinarily Well.
I am the same way. I read constantly about my illness to understand it and how to help myself. This is probably one of the best presentations on depression I've seen: https://youtu.be/NOAgplgTxfc