Obligatory link to the pdf because it's important enough to read that it should be freely accessible.
>Predators know about this pressure and use it against us.
Every woman should read The Gift of Fear. It discusses the tactics predators utilize.
Here is the pdf, every woman needs to read it.
Obligatory link to the pdf because it's important enough to read that it should be freely accessible.
Um, EXCUSE ME?!? Woman, you fucking goddess, that is not petty of you. Many of us would be reacting the same way. That is so gross what he did to you, I’m so sorry you had to go through that.
Also it is pretty normal to freeze, unfortunately. Many of us have also done the same. It’s a self-preservation technique that women have learned over millennia. Why? Because we don’t know how they’ll react if we fight back, or call them out on their behavior. (I’m not encouraging or discouraging this. Just saying it’s normal af. Don’t feel bad please!)
Like someone else said, a long shower or bath is a good idea. I would also write about it, scream into a pillow, fucking cry, get myself some chocolate to eat, put on some comfy pajamas and do something to try to take my mind off it. I know that doesn’t always work though. Just let it out, let yourself feel it. Yell and scream if you have to.
Once again I’m so sorry; we as a collective can empathize with you 100%.
Also please consider reading The Gift of Fear!! It’s helped me and many other women feel and stay safe. http://the-eye.eu/public/Books/Radical%20Feminist%20Literature/Gavin%20de%20Becker/The%20Gift%20of%20Fear%20%28123%29/The%20Gift%20of%20Fear%20-%20Gavin%20de%20Becker.pdf
I heard there are free PDFs of this, so I did a search and found this:
I was just reading in this book that self abandonment is one of the biggest things trauma survivors experience and I think that’s what you’re referring to. There’s also a great section on how big the impact of neglect is. I was neglected a lot as a kid too on top of the abuse. Life is inexplicably difficult as a result. Wishing you ease and comfort.
>Pick up the book "The Gift of Fear" by Gavin De Becker, if you haven't already.
pdf for anyone who needs it
Obligatory link to the pdf because it's important enough to read that it should be freely accessible.
I think she’s saying that in that sub, because these people aren’t familiar with radfem/gender critical ideology and she probably doesn’t wanna be jumped on for using the “wrong” pronouns.
For everyone reading this, I recommend The Gift of Fear.
Everyone is right; he’s escalating. He shows many of the signs in this book. She needs to get the fuck away from this obvious sociopath. (I know, it’s easier said than done, but the point still stands.) hopefully her husband will be supportive to her.
I’ve had my copy for years and it’s helped me through a lot. Here is a PDF file for anyone who’s interested, I highly recommend it
I’m slowly making my way through Pete Walker’s book “Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving” and giving myself permission to Just Be. I don’t tolerate the inner critic’s voice hardly at all anymore and I’m really committed to doing loving things for myself so for example I don’t do things like socializing when I don’t want to. Identifying my boundaries and not letting anyone, especially me, cross them is something I consider to be a big part of recovery work. I’ve also gotten to a place where I can usually pause and think before reacting to something and that’s helped me sift and sort through my trigger-thoughts vs my actual, thoughtful assessments of various situations.
For me, “doing” recovery work mostly just means being kind and compassionate to myself, asking Why? a lot (like why did I jump to that conclusion or why did that hurt me so bad), resting as much as possible, and honoring boundaries.
From SYMBOLS AND TRANSFORMATION, Chapter IV: ORIGIN OF THE HERO
>The finest of all symbols of the libido is the human figure, conceived as a demon or hard-dick warrior. Here the symbolism leaves the objective, material realm of astral and meteorological images and takes on human form, changing into, uh, fuckin’, uh, hold on, I got this: changing into a figure who passes from joy to sorrow, from sorrow to joy, and, like the sun, now stands high at the fuckin’ zenith and now is plunged into darkest night, yo, only to rise again in new splendor, yo.
A lot of people with CPTSD get to a healthy, stable place where they’re not controlled by emotional flashbacks and triggers. You can too. I recommend reading this book before making any life changing decisions. That link takes you to a PDF of the whole book if you’re unable to purchase a copy of your own. I’ve made leaps and bounds in my recovery journey bc of this book and I’m only a third of the way through.
Radical self love and self compassion will be your biggest tools for moving from surviving to thriving. Ignore any thoughts that aren’t kind and loving towards yourself. You didn’t deserve any of the painful experiences you had. You deserve love, compassion, kindness, peace, support, and encouragement. I hope you find a lot of ease, comfort, and relief really really soon OP.
Also head over to r/CPTSD if you haven’t already. It’s an incredible community, even if all you can do is lurk.
ETA to answer your question.. disability is a great option if it’s your only option, but like another commenter pointed out, it’s a poverty trap. Do what you gotta do but maybe read that book before deciding that you’re destined for a life of ptsd symptoms.
Yes! “The Gift of Fear” (book) talks about this.
Yes!!!!!!!!! Totally thought of The Gift of Fear too!!!
For anyone interested, the PDF is here. Enjoy!
Here is a link to download the pdf version for the book, The Gift of Fear by Gavin de Becker. It may be a little outdated now, but I'm really enjoying reading it. All I wanted was to order a hard copy only to get pissed after reading these reviews. What do you gals think?
Alright. Everyone knows I’ve posted this a million times, but I’m gonna post it again.
This book has saved lives. Every woman should read it.
And yes, addressing your question, I wish they would teach mandatory martial arts or self defense classes to young girls and women, starting from a young age...
But also...
>I have a server, but it costs 120$ per year.
I have a server, but it costs $300 per month!!
Why can't you afford $120 a year, and what even is this project?
I mirrored freemozaweb.eu/k%C3%B6nyvek/
and got 16.8GiB Items: 53359
and that's here.
He has threatened you, probably on a recorded line. Please call the police and file a report for harassment. They can block the jail phone from calling you, they can pull the recordings of your conversations, and they can charge him for making threats, which could cause his early release to be not-so-early.
Stop answering his calls. If he calls you 20 times and you answer, he just learned that he has to call 21 times. Please consider reading The Gift of Fear (that's a PDF link, you can read it for free). It has a lot of information that I think you'll find relevant. Good luck!
Be extremely careful from here on out.
If he shows up at the door, don't answer. If you see him while you're outside, get somewhere safe, fast. Change the locks and invest in home security if you can afford it.
I also highly recommend reading The Gift of Fear.
While I may not agree with Burn the Fat Feed the Muscle it it's entirely anymore. They have an easily explain weight lifting schedule right here
Go to Chapter 17 or quickly glance at page 301 to see the "split" workouts
I'm sorry, you seem in a lot of pain right now.
Why do we turn against ourselves so hard?
You are not someone to get rid off, you deserve help. Is there not any doctor where you can have a honest breakdown and ask for any help avaible asap?
I often feel hopeless too, but I tell myself that I survived the worst already, so I can survive the aftermath too. You're a strong person too, to suffer so much and still stand. It might be really dark right now, but things always change. I wish we could share a hug until the worst was over.
Until you find therapy, there are skills you can pratice on your own on your better days. Recovery will take time. Self-compassion & patience and we might just get lucky in getting better.
If you haven't read it/can't buy it, here is Pete Walkers 'From surviving to thriving' as PDF!
Top notch post there Ms EquivalentApple! I second the recommendation to read The Gift of Fear
To add to this - here is Jon Rappoport's book on the subject...
And as an aside, for those who haven't read his interviews called the Matrix revealed, I highly recommend them to those here in the sub.... And that website itself will keep night owls busy for a long time
Congrats on wanting to learn another language! I don't have any IRL recommendations, but here are the online sources im using to learn:
Here is an open directory with lots of Pimsleur audio courses, and here are the free online courses made by the US Foreign Service on almost every language. Good luck!
> When I talked to his girlfriend and a few friends, she said that this was a somewhat regular reaction of his, while every guy I talked to was shocked by it and said it was very out-of-character.
DINGDINGDING
Because he can totally control his anger around people he respects and wants to impress (his guy friends), and chooses not to around people he wants to intimidate, who he thinks are "weaker" than him (women). Is now when I pull the obligatory "Why Does He Do That" by Lundy Bancroft recommendation?
So happy you’re not in that situation anymore. ❤️❤️❤️ And here’s a link to a free pdf of the book for you or anyone else who’s interested: The Gift of Fear
Please get yourself some therapy for the trauma you suffered if you haven't already. I think EMDR (a specific type of therapy for reprocessing traumatic memories) would do you a world of good. Please also read The Gift of Fear because it should help you in your healing journey. I wish you the best of luck.
While they are waiting for new hardware some/most of the files are still available, just without the fancy frontend.
Go to http://the-eye.eu/public/
Just remember they are in the process of transferring servers so not all is available and some may be listed but not accessible.
Here's a free PDF copy of the book, for those who can't afford it.
Oh that's just so creepy! Thank God you are safe. The Gift Of Fear - Gavin de Becker Please read this amazing book. I think you will gain some peace of mind from it.
I cannot recommend Pete Walkers cptsd book enough if you had an abusive household and also struggling with codependency. Really enlightening and validating. http://the-eye.eu/public/Psychedelics/Psychedelic%20Praxis%20Library%203.0/Collections%20by%20Subject/Neurodiversity%20%26%20Traumacentric%20Therapy/PTSD%20%26%20Dissociation/2013%20-%20Pete%20Walker%20-%20Complex%20PTSD%20-%20From%20Surviving%20t...
not all on this list but close to it, hope it helps.
http://the-eye.eu/public/Radio/The%20Ultimate%20Art%20Bell%20Collection/Shows/list.txt
When Emu Paradise closed, these were the suggested sites to go to for ROMs in one of the piracy subreddits. I like them quite well. You may want to check with one of those subreddits (or one of the emulation ones) for more, uh, current choices of websites. Maybe they've found some better sites or something.
Nice read explaining how the Vatican is the number one organizer and purveyor of child trafficking worldwide since its inception.
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A lot of people, including me, who can relate have found relief from this book
I highly recommend reading The Gift of Fear by Gavin de Becker. Here's a pdf if you want to download it. It should be required reading for every woman, IMO.
See p.9 of the 2nd Edition AD&D campaign setting:
>- The physics of the Realms are slightly out of synchronization with the rest of the planes, so that many technological devices which operate on electronics do not function. Equivalent devices may be developed by player characters. DMs should put some thought into what they will allow into their campaign worlds. DMs may choose to eliminate the use of gunpowder (or its magical equivalent, smoke powder) from the Realms, at their option.
Milton Friedman - Capitalism and Freedom
Here read a book (Ch 9 for words on healthcare)
Karma doesn't work quite as clean cut as that, but there are numerous texts that go through specific examples of past actions and their results in present lifetimes, or actions in present lifetimes resulting in definite birth-results in other realms.
Perhaps the most significant of these are all the Ajatasatru texts, which all agree that his next birth was in hell for killing his father, with varying accounts of what happens afterward. I read just yesterday a paper on the various Buddhist versions as compared to Jaina tellings of the same story here.
There's also the famous text that describes the Buddha's awakening -- here is the Pali version -- where the Buddha directly recalls his past lives, and the past lives of others.
There an entire genre of texts devoted to the past lives of monks, nuns, and other figures called the Apadana in Pali and the Avadana in Sanskrit, where you find accounts such as Mahamaudgalayana's past life as the previous Mara, King of Desire. You'll find a bunch of the Avadanas collected in this book.
I hope this is sufficient.
Please try to pass along (and read for yourself!) "Why Does He Do That?" by Lundy Bancroft. Can't recommend this book enough. I think that and "The Gift of Fear" by Gavin De Becker should be required reading for female people in our current society.
Have you contacted the-eye people on their Discord? Just cause it's gone from the public links doesn't mean its been deleted. They should be able to hook you up with the data some other way if you ask.
>Is Removed Content Still Available?
>Yes, even if content is removed from our website, we can still get the data to you. If you would like to request deleted data, join our Discord and message an Admin or Helper.
>We require that you give us an endpoint to push data to. These include Amazon Drive, Google Drive, Dropbox, SSH and FTP/SFTP
This one’s been really helpful for a lot of people
To install with an OEM key, an OEM version of XP is required, or you need to modify an existing ISO to work with OEM keys. You can also use a XP Pro VL ISO with a product key you can find online easily: http://the-eye.eu/public/MSDN/Windows%20XP/en_windows_xp_professional_with_service_pack_3_x86_cd_vl_x14-73974.iso (this one is safe).
Yeah. Almost all vods are saved here but I believe the archive is currently migrating servers so the website is down. Many of the older vods can be found on the Youtube channel ReckfulStreams and many of the newer ones can also be found on Youtube if you search for them :)
I suggest reading this book (free pdf version linked). It explains in explicit detail how and why you absolutely can control yourself in fights with your spouse and simply choose not to take responsibility by excusing, justifying, dismissing, deflecting, blaming, triangulating and other manipulation tactics.
Soft or hard modded run the Video switcher app. It's found under many different names NTSC-PAL switcher, Enigma Video Switcher, Video Select v2 EnigmaH-X](http://the-eye.eu/public/xbins/XBOX/Console%20Based%20Applications/apps/utilities/video%20mode%20switch/video_select_v2_enigmah-x.rar), etc.
A modded PAL Xbox has to be changed to NTSC for those options to appear in the MS Dashboard's Video Settings menu.
My abuser never changed. He still hasn't, though he claims to have. He would just get subtler at it, but it was there alright. I suggest you read Why Does He Do That? It helped me a lot. He argues that most abusers don't tend to improve with therapy, and instead only get worse and use what they learn in therapy to manipulate and abuse further. If you are going to consider giving him a chance, I suggest you are first completely separated (as in, definitely not living together) until you feel safe, not just for a couple of weeks. Not just for yourself, but for the kids as well. Even if he is not physically harming them, just seeing or noticing how he treats you will be very damaging for them too--and trust me they notice. But whatever you do, be very very wary of anything he says. Even seeming change can definitely backslide, as was my experience. It seemed he had changed, but as soon as he felt that I was safely back with him, he started to abuse me just as bad and even worse than before. Please please please be careful, and please don't let him live with you or your kids or pets for a long time.
http://the-eye.eu/public/Books/PlayBoy/Playboy%201975/
January 1975 Playboy has approximately 30 bottomless ladies pictured. They all have bushes. Not one shaved pussy. I don't think the January Playboy was so special bushy edition.
Hello winniewilie.
Reading through your post the first question that comes to my mind is whether or not you truly need just protection. Perhaps attraction would be better as well? Maybe an amulet to ward off negative energy and a talisman to help amplify meeting your goals.
I think that you will find the below materials suitable: Talismans, Amulets and Magical Symbols - A short guide to creating, using and destroying talismans and amulets.
Now let's take a moment and speak on the mundane aspect of your situation. Often on your path, you will experience differences of opinions. You will encounter negative entities, energy vampires who seek to bring you down. An opposition is a clearcut fact of living in this reality.
What can you do as an occultist to tackle this challenge? Well creating amulets, talismans, charms, sigils and such is a great method. But also do not forget the universal truth of magick; you manifest your reality! A curse in itself does not have power over you, it is only when you give it power that these things begin to negatively affect you. Such is true for negative words, hate and overall terrible energy given off by others.
Do not allow yourself to be negatively influenced by these people. Their actions are meaningless. They have no power over you. YOU. HAVE. CONTROL. You will manifest the reality of your creation. You will achieve your goals. You will read these words and come out stronger, more resolved and powerful.
So Mote It Be.
Hey friend,
Our favorite user /u/brainbanged has put together a pretty comprehensive list of ongoing studies, current as of this past April. Perhaps contacting these organizations would be a good place to start.
Best of luck!
Read the free online book “The gift of fear” which covers a lot a lot anxiety and worry too. This book changed my life.
Trust your gut
Obligatory link to the pdf because it's important enough to read that it should be freely accessible.
Free Online PDF of Pete Walker's "C-PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving"
I'd suggest you read rocket propulsion elements : http://the-eye.eu/public/WorldTracker.org/Space/Space%20Engineering/Rocket%20Propulsion%20Elements.pdf
great book about the Wild West of 1950's fuel testing : https://library.sciencemadness.org/library/books/ignition.pdf
I hope it's ok to post this here. Good book on the subject.
Here’s a pdf of a book on complex ptsd and healing from childhood trauma
Here you go I grab most my roms from the-eye (their alvro collection might not be up to date not sure though [what others have told me])
Free PDF copy courtesy of another Redditor “ frizzymcgee” I’ve had my copy for years and it’s helped me through a lot. Here is a PDF file for anyone who’s interested, I highly recommend it
I agree Ed Dames was boring to listen to, I've listened to all interviews and just cant find the attraction that art appeared to have on his RV topics, but in 2002 I remember a show about a clandestine mission sent to a place extremely deep below the mantle via some cave system and this crew that was sponsored to go down with a guy named Dallas Thompson I believe, I might have his last name wrong but what got my attention is that as I listened to that show and also did some digging on tor. If I recall correctly one of the first things that i looked for was the name of the ship/ vessel which "they" the "Investor" sponsored for this crew to go down but when searched for this guy dallas thompson and the name of the ship, the sites that i found with this information just absolutely correlated to what the guy said on the show and i think that it is an operation that truly did go down... heres the link to that show 10/04/2002 Art Bell - The Hollow Earth with Dallas Thompson
libgen.is has... most things, i've also recently found this post https://www.reddit.com/r/occult/comments/c0920k/free_access_to_online_occult_library/ and this site 'the eye' which seems kinda sketchy but so far so good
http://the-eye.eu/alvro/Nintendo/Wii%20ISO%20USA/
Hello u/juiceman215, it appears you tried to put a link in a title, since most users cant click these I have placed it here for you
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I forgot to post a link to this subreddit's wiki page on XBPartitioner. There's a link to download it, v1.3, from there.
Edit: If you have the HeXEn 2018 installer disc, it's included on it to run from the menu system.
Also available from xbins FTP server and a couple of xbins Xbox mirrored content web sites.
to name a few locations to obtain a copy of it.
ConfigMagic v1.6 Final from digiex.net or The-Eye.eu or xbins FTP server.
or
Rocky5’s updated version v1.6.1.
Your concerns are valid, and this isn't normal for a marriage. I highly suggest reading this book, which gives a lot of insight into men who act like this. (available here for free)
Here is a quote from the book that really helped me personally:
Many years ago, I was interviewing a woman named Sheila by telephone. She was describing the rages that my client Michael would periodically have: “He just goes absolutely berserk, and you never know when he’s going to go off like that. He’ll just start grabbing whatever is around and throwing it. He heaves stuff everywhere, against the walls, on the floor—it’s just a mess. And he smashes stuff, important things sometimes. Then it’s like the storm just passes; he calms down; and he leaves for a while. Later he seems kind of ashamed of himself.”
I asked Sheila two questions. The first was, when things got broken, were they Michael’s, or hers, or things that belonged to both of them? She left a considerable silence while she thought. Then she said, “You know what? I’m amazed that I’ve never thought of this, but he only breaks my stuff. I can’t think of one thing he’s smashed that belonged to him.” Next, I asked her who cleans up the mess. She answered that she does. I commented, “See, Michael’s behavior isn’t nearly as berserk as it looks. And if he really felt so remorseful, he’d help clean up.”
I may be a little late but someone recommend I read Burn the Fat, Feed the Muscle and it's been incredibly helpful to me
You cannot join them together and keep the current data on them. Repartitioning to have only partition 6 instead of 6 and 7 will wipe out all data stored in them.
However, you can repartition the drive's extended storage space, that above the stock 8GBs, to have only an F drive with all the space allocated to it.
XBPartition v1.3 is the latest version.
If you need the files on F and G, download them all first before running XBPartitioner.
Upload the application's default.xbe file to the E:\Apps\XBPartitioner\ folder. If the folder doesn't exist, create it.
Restart the console to refresh the dashboards menu to add the new application to it.
Run XBPartitioner.
Press the White button to cycle through the default partitioning options.
Press Start then Y to apply the new partition configuration.
Upload the files to the new larger F drive.
It’s not just the key value saved in the file it’s an HMAC-SHA1 signature computed from the value in the game’s certificate and the HDKey computed across the data stored in the file to verify its authenticity.
If you have the original and new HDKey values, game saves can be re-signed using the Windows Xbox Game Save Re-signer app - XSavSig005. See list of games that can be resigned by the app.
Forza Motorsports’ saves also need to be resigned if you change the console’s HDKey after it was created or load it onto a different console. A separate app - ForzaSign - was made for it
I agree, it's a great talk, even if you take basic non-magic level on how to adjust your perception of the world around you.
He wrote an [article / guide[(http://the-eye.eu/public/Books/Ocult/Pop%20Magic%20by%20Grant%20Morrison.pdf) about it which I think you'd enjoy.
>Magical consciousness is a particular way of seeing and interacting with the real world. I experience it was what I can only describe as a “head-click”, a feeling of absolute certainty accompanying a perceptual shift which gives real world transactions the numinous, uncanny feeling of dreams. Magical consciousness is a way of experiencing and participating with the local environment in a heightened, significant manner...
This old AD&D book has a ton of useful info.
Oh man these are great questions, I’ve been wondering something similar about GABA and the question of neuropathy.
Take a look at this article , specifically page 1320. They theorize cell damage for MDMA use, though not for LSD, ketamine, and cannabis, and this affects the proposed mechanisms for visual disturbances. Love to hear what you think.
I once heard renowned traumatologist, John Briere, quip that if Cptsd were ever given its due, the DSM [The Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders] used by all mental health professionals would shrink from its dictionary like size to the size of a thin pamphlet. In other words, the role of traumatized childhoods in most adult psychological disorders is enormous.
Here's a link to the PDF. You could find a relevant section and read/send it to her, and ask her thoughts.
Here's a link to the PDF.
He was certainly an adept in his time, a key influence on luminaries such as Albert Pike and Arthur Edward Waite as well as Aleister Crowley, a man whose work continues to resonate with followers and researchers of the Western esoteric tradition.
You can find copies of his key works below:
Transcendental Magic: Its Doctrine and Ritual by Eliphas Levi
Dogma and Ritual of High Magic by Eliphas Levi
The Mysteries of Magic: A Digest of the Writings of Eliphas Levi by Arthur Edward Waite
Have a go at this lot.
PS - you're on a list now.
Try this (wget command): wget -r --no-parent --no-check-certificate -c -A "(USA)*" https://archive.org/download/noIntroNintendoDsDecrypted2019Jan03
Will download only the games with (USA) in their title.
If you don't know how to use wget, you can see the first 5 pages of this guide: http://the-eye.eu/public/Wget_Windows_Guide.pdf
Then paste in the command above into your command prompt, and press enter key.
Too big a question for a reddit post. Short answer may be found here, in the second essay Relations between the Ego and the Unconscious":
I'm glad you were safe in the end. Scary. If you haven't read this book, It's helpful http://the-eye.eu/public/Books/Radical%20Feminist%20Literature/Gavin%20de%20Becker/The%20Gift%20of%20Fear%20%28123%29/The%20Gift%20of%20Fear%20-%20Gavin%20de%20Becker.pdf
"Essential Histories - The Iran-Iraq War" is a good read.
Games don't show up in UnleashX from an ISO file. Softmodded consoles with nkPatcher's driveimageutils attach app to mount them. Each ISO goes into a separate subfolder in the E:, F: or G: Games folder with a copy of the attach app named default.xbe. The internal XBE Title of this default.xbe will need to be edited with UnleashX's File Manager. Browse to the default.xbe file then press the white button and scroll down to the Rename XBE Title option. Use the onscreen keyboard to change the title then select Done. Reboot the console and the game will now show up under its name in the Games menu.
What size are these ISO files?
Are they XISOs (generally <4GB each) or ReDump Dual-layer DVD ISOs disc images (generally 8GBs each)
August 2003. Pg 114. It was the top item on a google search. There is also a nice pic of , I believe, Ben Stiller in an aftershave ad right near the top.
The Yazidi religion emerged from the ʿAdawiyya Sufi Order founded by the Sufi saint Shaykh ʿAdī ibn Musāfir (The Religion of the Peacock Angel: The Yezidis and their Spirit World, pp. 37-38), and the concept of the Peacock Angel is theorized to have emerged as a result of a complex process of syncretism where Sufi mystical conceptions of Iblis and the Islamic symbol of Shaytan merged with pre-Islamic traditions of bird-worship ("Malak Tawus: The Peacock Angel of the Yezidis," p. 28).
There is a lot more than "some influence." It's well documented. If you read some of the Yazidi hymns (qawwals) that have been translated and published, there are plenty of Islamic, and especially Sufi motifs. The Yazidi religion is definitively post-Islamic and would not exist as it exists today without Islam.
He didn’t always there’s some more casual ones through his ages this is a good one but in many he was going for that
UnleashX doesn't have native trainer support.
You will need to install the application Xored Mini Launcher v2.2.
Run it, select the trainer to use and launch the game.
Are the numbered game save folders at the root top-level or in sub folders of a UDATA folder?
What you are experiencing has happened to me. I had to wipe and reformat my USB drive with USBFATXFormatter v1.3.2. Try following u/jcrocky5’s YouTube tutorial: How to set up your USB Pen and install a Softmod.
If you have your eeprom.bin backup file, use the Windows app LiveInfo_Beta_3-Xbox_v1.6-Yoshihiro's Load EEPROM to open it and check the value displayed for the Unique HDD Key.
FTP the files to the C: drive. I'd first install/upload the contents extracted from this Evolution-X Build 3935 dashboard archive to the root of the C drive. And, the C folder contents from this Clean C and E files for Xbox archive.
> Now I need: 1. Edit my BIOS file in EVTool v1.0.9, enable IGR and save as 256kb, next flash. Or 2. Download from internet M8plus_16.bin for 1.6a, next flash?
I'd download Evolution-X M8plus Bios.rar, extract the contents, load M8plus_16.bin into EVTool v1.0.9.
> And there is another question. I have installed the hard drive on 160gb long time ago. Which options to choose in EVTool v1.0.9 in order to display the full size? Now no more than 137GB
Select the LBA48 Support and Default Partition Table Options drop-down item "Partition 6 Takes Up to 137GB / Partition 7 Takes Rest" then click on Save As... button. Give the file a new name, something like:
Next, upload the new BIOS dot bin file to your console and flash. However, with a WinBond flash, it'll take a program that can flash it (chip id: dab0). I don't think Evoxdash can flash it. Personally, I'd download the XBlast_OS_v0.56.zip (aka lpcmod_OS) extract the archive and install/upload the XBlast OS.XBE file to your Xbox's Applications folder (e.g., F:\[Apps or Applications]\XBlast OS\), rename it to default.xbe, reboot you console, run it and flash the new BIOS with the network option using HTTP to read the file from your PC.
P.S. There's also a folder in the root directory of the archive named put_on_c_drive with a subfolder named XBlast. Upload the XBlast folder and contents to your Xbox's C drive before running it. :)
Good luck, OP. Your brain has come up with ways to protect itself from all that abuse but once we leave childhood most of those self protection measures start backfiring a bit. The other comment about flashbacks and dissociation is right on the money. If you’re able, stop seeing your brother. If you’re not able right now, prioritize finding a way to live your life without him in it. And check out the r/CPTSD sub, in case no one else has mentioned that place yet.
Found the application - XTC - XBE Title Changer. Changes XBE Titles of default.xbe file found inside an XISO-format disc image:
I had to install a few dot ocx files that were not present in Windows 10 to get the application to start. I've not done further testing to make sure that it actually works.
Gavin de Becker's "The Gift of Fear" - go to page 19 and read the story. It's about a man insisting to "help" a woman with her groceries - and a true one, I might add.
Your guts are right and it doesn't matter for shit how much plausible deniability they have. Make a scene. Make it impossible for them to harass you without sacrificing said very plausible deniability. Contact your landlord, have friends walk you home, change your schedule, get a security system - do whatever it takes to be safe.
I'm so, so sorry I can't just say "it's okay, you're safe" - because from where I stand, you are not. These types push and push and eventually push too far.
In the comments I saw you're leasing - please definetely talk to the leasing office. This is not the kind of thing one wants to wait for to escalate.